Truth & Love Will Always Win If You Never Stay Silent…

“When I despair, I remember that all through history the way of truth and love have always won. There have been tyrants and murderers, and for a time, they can seem invincible, but in the end, they always fall. Think of it–always.”
― Mahatma Gandhi

As a mom that has had a daughter victimized and murdered, and then the crimes covered up, I had no idea what to think, who to trust, or how much information to give out to the world.  I have been threatened, lied about and attacked, but it hasn’t stopped me from putting forth the truth, at least the details of the crimes against Morgan that I thought would not hurt the eventual criminal trial.  And again, I am not an attorney so I still have no idea how much information to put out on this blog, but be assured the facts and evidence we have discovered over the past 4 years has gone, and is continuing to be given to law enforcement, and I am VERY confident that there will a criminal trial sometime in the future.

With the holidays here, and missing Morgan beyond words, it would be so easy to stop blogging and crawl into a hole along with my grief, but I refuse to give these criminals the satisfaction.  I will NEVER stop using my voice, and my writing, to expose the way of love and truth in this world…never!

Thinking about Morgan every minute of every day, and knowing her spirit is still here watching over the many layers that are being exposed.  I want to keep happy, positive vibrations going, and I ask all of you that have been following this heartbreaking case to keep using your positive thoughts as well – I do believe they have helped us over these past 4 years to expose and unfold all these layers of deceit and evil.  Greatness lies in all of us, and the power of our thoughts is very real.  Great love, great truth, and great joy I wish for all of you over this holiday season.

Morgan and Tessi

 

 

“IT WILL REMAIN CLOSED” – Not in a capital murder case it won’t!

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In September of 2012 Garfield County Sheriff Lou Vallario told CBS4 News, on camera, that his department spent a lot of time working on the case (referring to Morgan’s case), and that it will remain closed.  I asked everyone back then, and I will ask it again now – how can a sheriff say that a case will remain closed when it was a suspicious death, involving a felony stalking victim, and where there was plenty of evidence of foul play?” I also asked the question, “Even if there is incompetence in the sheriff’s department, how can a sheriff make that statement when they are supposed to always review new evidence that surfaces in a suspicious death that is a possible homicide?”  Well I guess this sheriff feels he can…

Oh, and remember when it comes to a homicide there is no statute of limitation on murder.  And yet, it is interesting that I keep getting emails from anonymous sources that keep telling me to give it up, because the statute of limitation is over…who do you think is making these kind of comments?

Maybe it’s just me, but back in September of 2012 when I heard those words coming from the sheriff I wondered what was really behind that statement.  I truly believe Colorado cares and most law enforcement officers in Colorado are honest, hardworking, and deserving of our trust, but when a few ruin it for the others, not only does the public lose out, but so do all the really good law enforcement officers, and that is just not right.  If one breaks rank and stands up for the truth, because it’s the right thing to do, he or she may lose their job, and in this economy sometimes that is just not an option, and good officers should never be placed in this situation.  BUT standing up for the truth and suffering from what comes from being a good person yourself, actually gives you more opportunities, more respect, and better futures await…it’s just hard to see it at the time, but good officers should never be placed in this situation in the first place.  And maybe it’s just the way my mind works, but I think this is one of the biggest problems that faces our country today – the public loses trust and respect for law enforcement all because of a few bad officers or an unethical person at the top of command, and then all the good officers pay the price.  This is not only wrong, but it needs to stop.  How can it stop?  When officers, elected officials, and citizens say enough is enough – there needs to be transparency, there needs to be accountability, honest officers, and officers that stand up for the truth need to be praised, not fired.

You can listen to the interview by clicking on this link:

CBS News 4 – Parents Say Daughter Was Murdered

On this interview Sheriff Vallario said, “Not enough facts”

He also said his officers were out at our house over 50 times and saw no sign of a stalker – wow, is all I can say about that.  Is he trying to convince everyone that his officers are completely incompetent?  Or does he believe the general public will believe just about anything he tries to float?   It’s true – Morgan’s stalker did not sit on the front lawn and wait for the sheriffs to get there…is that really something a stalker does?  Does law enforcement generally “see” the stalker while the incident is occurring?  I doubt it.

But as far as evidence of the stalker goes, they had a huge amount of evidence, and the sheriffs know it.  We supplied them with photos, video, personal statements of sitings, and much more.  Morgan identified her stalker.  I saw the stalker.  Other people heard the stalker bang on Morgan’s window in the middle of the night (but I am not about to give away the names of those witnesses here on this blog).  The sheriffs had a timeline of most of the incidents, they assigned a detective to Morgan’s case, and classified it as a felony stalking case.  They knew who the main suspect was, as well as his accomplice, the names were written up in the reports (stating ‘suspect’ many times), there was even a flyer produced by the detective in Morgan’s case that was distributed to all the patrol officers as well as Carbondale police.  They produced posters with the suspects picture, as well as a picture of his car, to hand out to all the officers so they could be on the lookout.  The suspect was referred to over 60 times in the sheriffs reports, and he was interviewed by them.  The suspects work hours were requested, but not picked up until months after Morgan’s murder.

The suspect and his accomplice were never “cleared” of the crime.  He never took a polygraph test.  His shoes were never turned over to the sheriff’s, in fact after an eyewitness stated he saw the suspect wearing shoes that might have matched the footprints that were found under Morgan’s windows, the detective went to the suspect’s place of business to speak with the suspect, and I was then informed that the suspect was wearing black leather shoes, not purple entries, to which I replied, “Don’t you think he might own more than one pair of shoes, and maybe, just maybe the dress code at work doesn’t allow him to wear purple tennis shoes?”  Call me crazy, but I don’t think you have to be a detective to figure that one out.

The sheriffs detected deceit in the accomplice & suspect’s answers, but never followed through on proving the deceit.  We were told by the lead detective that if someone lies to him there is nothing he can do about it…does Sheriff Lou Vallario really believe that criminals just blurt out their guilt when asked?  Call me crazy again, but I think most criminals never really admit they are guilty…most are sociopaths & psychopaths believe law enforcement, as well as everyone else on this planet, are completely clueless – sociopaths & psychopaths think they are the only ones that are smart, and they think they can fool anyone.  So as far as not enough facts – how many “facts” would have been enough?

Then Vallario went on to say there was no suspicion, and no probable cause of a suspect. That is absolutely false.  They knew who Morgan’s stalker was, as well as the identity of his accomplice.  The lead detective in Morgan’s felony stalking case, just 2 days before her murder, stated that he felt he was very close to making an arrest and that if anything he believed her stalker would escalate his behavior…if you were Morgan’s mom how would you have reacted to that statement?  I was petrified.  Morgan was frightened as well, and that same night (Tuesday night, November 29th) was one of only two nights that week that her ex-boyfriend did not sleep over on the couch.  The only other night he didn’t sleep over (Thursday night, December 1st) was the night she was murdered.  She tried to have him sleep over every night that week, but that Tuesday night (November 29th) he couldn’t come home with her to sleep over so she came home by herself, earlier than usual, spent some time with Steve and I and then tried to get some sleep.  We were all so exhausted we didn’t even realize the sheriffs were called to our next door neighbor’s house because they had been robbed.  Yes, robbed – sometime before midnight that same night.

Then around 12:40 am (it was now technically Wednesday am on the 30th) Morgan came into my bedroom.  She was dressed in regular clothes and had her puppy on the leash, keys in hand, and she woke me up.  She said the stalker has been banging on her window for 15 minutes and she couldn’t sleep, every time she went to sleep he would wake her up, she was afraid, and wanted to leave and go to her friend’s grandma’s house to feel safe and get some sleep.  She asked if I could walk her out to the car.  (I shouldn’t have to explain this, but I will – she never left the house after dark without Steve or I walking with her because she was scared for her life – she had a stalker!  Also please note…most stalking incidents do happen at your place of residence.  Sure stalkers follow you, but from all the stalking incidents around the world that I have read about, and all the victims I have interviewed I would have to say 90% of all incidents at least, evolve around their home.

So I jumped out of bed, put on a robe and walked her out to the car.  Watched her lock the doors, drive out of the driveway, and made sure another car wasn’t following her.  I then went in the house and called sheriff’s dispatch.  Morgan sent me a text when she was safely locked in her friend’s grandma’s house.

I was on the phone with a deputy explaining what had just happened.  He said they had just been at our next door neighbors house investigating a robbery and just returned to Rifle so it was going to take them a long time to get back to our house.  We were used to this – most times there was not a quick response to an incident of stalking.  About an hour later an officer walked up to Morgan’s window and shined his flashlight around on the ground.  The officer would travel on foot from the back of the house to the front of the house all on the side of Morgan’s bedroom, this was a typical response.  How this would ever have a positive outcome on “seeing” or “catching” a stalker is beyond me.  Especially since her stalker was sitting up on our roof undetected laughing at the sheriffs.

Deputy responding to stalking incident

Vallario then repeated what his officers said the morning of Morgan’s death that there were, “no signs of foul play, no trauma, no sexual assault,” but what he left out was his officers also said there was no sign of suicide.  We were blessed with many medical, criminal and forensic experts that reviewed Morgan’s case pro bono and disagreed with the sheriff & coroner.  These experts, not us, said Morgan did not die of natural causes, the evidence pointed to foul play and her case needed an investigation.  When these experts told the forensic pathologist the coroner changed her manner of death to suicide.  Trying once again to get us to “back off.”  It wasn’t obvious to us back then because of the shock and grief we were dealing with, but to other experts it was obvious that something was very wrong with how Garfield County was treating Morgan’s death.  From the very morning of her death they were trying to get us to stop asking questions.  That would have been a much easier path for us to take…we didn’t want to imagine that her stalker got into our house and murdered Morgan, but it did happen and pretending it didn’t wasn’t something we could do once the evidence started to be revealed.   What they were trying to convince us wasn’t the truth, they just wanted us to believe what they “needed” us to believe, but the things they were saying didn’t add up and when we wouldn’t stop asking questions, I was threatened, and when that didn’t stop me from asking questions they changed her manner of death to a suicide with absolutely no evidence, but this was just another way to keep her case from being investigated.

Contrary to what Vallario said, not only were there signs of foul play, trauma and a possible sexual assault…all this evidence was there the very morning of Morgan’s death.  The sheriffs and deputy coroner saw all of it – of that I am positive.  So once again, did they follow the evidence and let it lead them to a conclusion, or did they have a big giant broom to sweep it all under the first rug they could find?  And why?  We believe now we know the  why.

Have any of you been reading about the Ashley Fallis case out of Evans, CO?  Ashley was murdered exactly one day short of the one month anniversary of Morgan’s murder.  The coroner in Ashley’s case put down suicide, but it wasn’t – it was murder.  Almost 4 years later Ashley’s family has fought and been able to see Ashley’s murderer arrested and awaiting trial BUT there is more, they allege a cover-up by law enforcement and the truth is finally coming out…read about it here: http://www.westword.com/news/update-deputy-on-leave-after-new-cover-up-charges-in-ashley-fallis-murder-6623746

And to my utter dismay this type of cover-up in Colorado is not exclusive to Morgan or Ashley – I believe it has been going on for a long time and because of Colorado’s antiquated coroner’s system and home rule it is allowed to happen.  Here is a current case that I just read about in the news in Colorado http://kdvr.com/2015/11/12/investigation-castle-rock-family-seeks-justice-for-holly/  So what good are crime statistics when young men and women can be murdered, but then written down as suicide or accidental deaths?  The fact is that in Colorado if someone is listed as a homicide then after 2 years the Colorado Bureau of Investigation is allowed to investigate as it is considered a cold case, but if they are never listed as a homicide (as in Morgan’s case) then they are never allowed to be investigated by the CBI.  In Morgan’s case the CBI has offered to come in, multiple times, to investigate (at no cost to the county), and they have been turned away by Vallario – why?

I believe that Garfield County Sheriff Lou Vallario does not want ANY crimes against women investigated – not just Morgan, but all women of Garfield County are included in this group.  I have spoken with too many others in Garfield to know that this is a reality in Garfield County, and I am sure many more will continue to contact me through this website.  I don’t understand how women’s rights could have fallen so far that women have no rights when it comes to Garfield County – are women just desposable?  What does the rest of the country have to say about this?

These are the battles we as women need to fight in order to keep equality and our lives. It’s not just compensation in the workplace, it is also equality as a human being.  Everyone, no matter what your gender, color, ethnic background, or religious belief, every human life is important and deserves to be treated equally.  We can not turn a blind eye when it comes to things like this.  The sheriff is an elected official – I would think that women who care about their rights would not want to see this kind of elected official in their own county.

The hardest part of this for me has been the harsh reality that we have been deceived, and our daughter’s murder was, and is being covered up, and it is beyond devestating.  I have been proud of my family members that have had careers in law enforcement, and Steve and I have both helped law enforcement over the years, and still do.

I have always had a great deal of admiration & respect for law enforcement, but I don’t envy them.  I feel sorry on some level because just like in all walks of life there are good ones, and unfortunately some bad ones.  And when the bad ones make it into a supervisory position or actually run the department then it gets really bad for the good cops.  Good cops get involved because they truly care. They are optimistic and they have passion. Once they get in a department that may not really be looking to protect and serve, it seems like they are beat down. They can’t walk down the street without noticing the fear and distrust in people’s eyes.  The only way I can see the trust and faith towards law enforcement come back to people is to demand full transparency.  Support officers that come forward with the truth instead of allowing them to be fired.  Give the good officers support from the state and make accountability a priority.  For me, seeing a few bad officers, or officials ruin the credibility and trust of the majority of law enforcement, is just not right.  It should not be like this.  This country needs law enforcement to regain the trust of the people, and in my opinion the best way to do that is to make sure there is accountability.  Officers that break the law (just like anyone) should be accountable for their crimes.  This will not only help them to regain the trust of the citizens of the U.S. but it will also help honest and caring law enforcement agents. They will no longer need to fear the loss of their own jobs if they come forward about another officer that broke the law.  It would be the taking down of the big blue wall.  It would be a win-win for everyone. Just a thought, but one can hope don’t you think?

 “For a community to be whole and healthy, it must be based on people’s love and concern for each other.” ~ Millard Fuller

A little brightness of the world - captured by Morgan Jennifer

A little brightness of the world – captured by Morgan Jennifer

 

 

A Fairy Wedding…

Morgan 006It was a beautiful fairy wedding, on a beautiful August day in the mountains.  Morgan’s older sister was getting married, the weather was gorgeous, the views were outstanding, the girls dresses, along with their “wings” were ethereal.  Everything was perfect and as I glanced at Morgan’s sweet face I couldn’t help thinking of what Morgan’s wedding would be like someday.

A few weeks later I asked Morgan if she ever thought about what her wedding might look like some day.  Well let me tell you…our very practical little Morgan looked me straight in the eyes and said, “After seeing all the hassle and money spent on my sister’s wedding I have decided I am not going to have a big wedding.  If I decide to get married I will just have a few good friends and you, dad, my sister and brother, and that’s it.”  She told me she would never let us give her a big wedding.  I tried to explain to her that it’s so nice to have memories that come with having a big wedding with lots of friends and relatives, but she held firm.  So I decided to drop it – thinking she would change her mind when the time came…that time never came for Morgan – her life was snuffed away long before she was to ever become a bride.  Morgan was right – we will never be able to give her a big wedding.  She will no longer graduate with a law degree like she planned, she will no longer have 3 children like she planned, she will no longer get to go on a trip to Europe and Lithuania like she planned.  She is no longer of this earth and is no longer making any plans for her future – her future was stolen from her the night she was murdered.  Now instead of planning a wedding for Morgan someday I look into the future and pray for an investigation, arrests and indictments with a trial in order for Morgan to receive justice one day. And I will NEVER stop believing – I know it will happen.

Morgan and Me :)

April 04 014 copyLooking back on old photos and remembering all the fun times we had together.  I am trying so hard right now to focus on all the wonderful times instead of focusing on the fact that Morgan’s case is still not being investigated.

This Thanksgiving I gave thanks for all the magical years I was able to spend with Morgan.  I miss her more than I could ever explain – a piece of my heart will forever be gone with her, but I want to be able to look through pictures of her and smile because those were such wonderfully precious and fun times.

I am also so grateful to all the amazing people that have stood by our family throughout this whole ordeal.  Some people that we thought would always be there for us are no longer around, but others have been there for us the entire last 4 years, and I will never have words that are sufficient enough to describe what their support has meant to me.  I honestly don’t think I could have continued on without the love and kindness of so many wonderful souls.

ying yangThroughout history there have always been good people, and bad people…the dark and the light, the ying and the yang. One can not really exist without the other I have always been told.  After what happened to Morgan it was easy for me to sit up one morning and ask myself, “Why am I fighting for justice when it seems like the whole world is against it?  What is the point?  Bad things will just keep happening to others no matter how hard I try to stop it.”  But then it was almost as if Morgan poked me in my side with her finger – I really did feel a “poke.”  I looked around, no one was there.  But I knew Morgan wasn’t about to let me go down that path.  I snapped out of it, and with renewed determination decided I may be just one person, but I can make a difference, we all can…especially if we try hard enough.  I can’t give up because I have now seen so many wonderful, kind and strong people in the world that are making a difference on a daily basis, so I might as well join in.  We all have a choice in this life and I choose the light.  I have not lost hope in humanity, quite the contrary, I have a stronger renewed view of humanity now after these past 4 years, thanks to the strength and kindness of so many people.  I love them all so very much and I am grateful for each and every one of them.  Justice for Morgan!

The Fourth Anniversary of Missing Morgan

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In June 2011 Morgan scratched letters in the sand in a simple yet beautiful message to say that she missed us. She took this picture, while in Hawaii and texted it to Steve and I, just another reminder of Morgan’s warmth and love, and we were so happy to know that Morgan was thinking of us. She called a little later to say she wished we could be there with her. I still remember that call. I can even hear her voice as if it was only hours ago, while at the same time, it may just as well have been another lifetime.

Morgan was in Hawaii visiting her Godfather and his wife, seeing the sights, catching up on life, and she was absolutely beaming. Steve called it Morgie’s big adventure as he called her trip just before that, and the one just before that. The early summer 2011 had become a collection of big adventures for Morgie. Two trips of travel mixed with working for her, and this one just for fun. It took a lot of hard work and dedication, but Morgan had recovered enough to travel. She had completely rebuilt her health and between her older sister and her Godfather the 19 year old young woman was busy traveling on her own.

She was formulating plans for herself too, by then she was dreaming of, and determined to go to Stanford law school, after finishing a degree in English at CU Boulder, but before that she was after a certification as a yoga instructor so she could work at something she loved while going to school and have a fall back, just in case. The sky up there was the limit, Morgan had her whole life before her.

Missing Morgan

Missing Morgan

Four years and six months later we would scratch letters in the sand and tell her we missed her. Only there was no place to text the picture to. No number to call her to say we wished that she could be there with us. We could only look up to the heavens and say these things out loud feeling like the little angel had heard us and have the overwhelming feeling yet again that it just wasn’t fair. When Morgan scratched her letters in the sand she would see us in less than a week. Her face would light up and she would come running into the terminal when she saw us letting out her typical Morgan squeal of happiness and adding a big tight hug along with it. Our letters scratched in the sand brought nothing close to that feeling.

Love You Morgan

Love You Morgan

20 candles for Morgan’s twenty years of life.  Her 20th year had only just begun, and the 20th candle we lit did not stay lit as long as the other candles – as you can see in the picture above.

Dear family and friends were with us to tell Morgan they missed her too on this fourth anniversary of her death, her murder. It’s been a long four years, years that have brought many changes to our lives. Morgan trusted and loved with all her heart, she shared her zeal for life with all those around her. Those now forced to miss her have only the precious memories of time spent with her. And the dreams of what she might be doing now. Morgan would want us to remember her loving us, and oh how we do.