Truth & Love Will Always Win If You Never Stay Silent…

“When I despair, I remember that all through history the way of truth and love have always won. There have been tyrants and murderers, and for a time, they can seem invincible, but in the end, they always fall. Think of it–always.”
― Mahatma Gandhi

As a mom that has had a daughter victimized and murdered, and then the crimes covered up, I had no idea what to think, who to trust, or how much information to give out to the world.  I have been threatened, lied about and attacked, but it hasn’t stopped me from putting forth the truth, at least the details of the crimes against Morgan that I thought would not hurt the eventual criminal trial.  And again, I am not an attorney so I still have no idea how much information to put out on this blog, but be assured the facts and evidence we have discovered over the past 4 years has gone, and is continuing to be given to law enforcement, and I am VERY confident that there will a criminal trial sometime in the future.

With the holidays here, and missing Morgan beyond words, it would be so easy to stop blogging and crawl into a hole along with my grief, but I refuse to give these criminals the satisfaction.  I will NEVER stop using my voice, and my writing, to expose the way of love and truth in this world…never!

Thinking about Morgan every minute of every day, and knowing her spirit is still here watching over the many layers that are being exposed.  I want to keep happy, positive vibrations going, and I ask all of you that have been following this heartbreaking case to keep using your positive thoughts as well – I do believe they have helped us over these past 4 years to expose and unfold all these layers of deceit and evil.  Greatness lies in all of us, and the power of our thoughts is very real.  Great love, great truth, and great joy I wish for all of you over this holiday season.

Morgan and Tessi



“IT WILL REMAIN CLOSED” – Not in a capital murder case it won’t!



In September of 2012 Garfield County Sheriff Lou Vallario told CBS4 News, on camera, that his department spent a lot of time working on the case (referring to Morgan’s case), and that it will remain closed.  I asked everyone back then, and I will ask it again now – how can a sheriff say that a case will remain closed when it was a suspicious death, involving a felony stalking victim, and where there was plenty of evidence of foul play?” I also asked the question, “Even if there is incompetence in the sheriff’s department, how can a sheriff make that statement when they are supposed to always review new evidence that surfaces in a suspicious death that is a possible homicide?”  Well I guess this sheriff feels he can…

Oh, and remember when it comes to a homicide there is no statute of limitation on murder.  And yet, it is interesting that I keep getting emails from anonymous sources that keep telling me to give it up, because the statute of limitation is over…who do you think is making these kind of comments?

Maybe it’s just me, but back in September of 2012 when I heard those words coming from the sheriff I wondered what was really behind that statement.  I truly believe Colorado cares and most law enforcement officers in Colorado are honest, hardworking, and deserving of our trust, but when a few ruin it for the others, not only does the public lose out, but so do all the really good law enforcement officers, and that is just not right.  If one breaks rank and stands up for the truth, because it’s the right thing to do, he or she may lose their job, and in this economy sometimes that is just not an option, and good officers should never be placed in this situation.  BUT standing up for the truth and suffering from what comes from being a good person yourself, actually gives you more opportunities, more respect, and better futures await…it’s just hard to see it at the time, but good officers should never be placed in this situation in the first place.  And maybe it’s just the way my mind works, but I think this is one of the biggest problems that faces our country today – the public loses trust and respect for law enforcement all because of a few bad officers or an unethical person at the top of command, and then all the good officers pay the price.  This is not only wrong, but it needs to stop.  How can it stop?  When officers, elected officials, and citizens say enough is enough – there needs to be transparency, there needs to be accountability, honest officers, and officers that stand up for the truth need to be praised, not fired.

You can listen to the interview by clicking on this link:

CBS News 4 – Parents Say Daughter Was Murdered

On this interview Sheriff Vallario said, “Not enough facts”

He also said his officers were out at our house over 50 times and saw no sign of a stalker – wow, is all I can say about that.  Is he trying to convince everyone that his officers are completely incompetent?  Or does he believe the general public will believe just about anything he tries to float?   It’s true – Morgan’s stalker did not sit on the front lawn and wait for the sheriffs to get there…is that really something a stalker does?  Does law enforcement generally “see” the stalker while the incident is occurring?  I doubt it.

But as far as evidence of the stalker goes, they had a huge amount of evidence, and the sheriffs know it.  We supplied them with photos, video, personal statements of sitings, and much more.  Morgan identified her stalker.  I saw the stalker.  Other people heard the stalker bang on Morgan’s window in the middle of the night (but I am not about to give away the names of those witnesses here on this blog).  The sheriffs had a timeline of most of the incidents, they assigned a detective to Morgan’s case, and classified it as a felony stalking case.  They knew who the main suspect was, as well as his accomplice, the names were written up in the reports (stating ‘suspect’ many times), there was even a flyer produced by the detective in Morgan’s case that was distributed to all the patrol officers as well as Carbondale police.  They produced posters with the suspects picture, as well as a picture of his car, to hand out to all the officers so they could be on the lookout.  The suspect was referred to over 60 times in the sheriffs reports, and he was interviewed by them.  The suspects work hours were requested, but not picked up until months after Morgan’s murder.

The suspect and his accomplice were never “cleared” of the crime.  He never took a polygraph test.  His shoes were never turned over to the sheriff’s, in fact after an eyewitness stated he saw the suspect wearing shoes that might have matched the footprints that were found under Morgan’s windows, the detective went to the suspect’s place of business to speak with the suspect, and I was then informed that the suspect was wearing black leather shoes, not purple entries, to which I replied, “Don’t you think he might own more than one pair of shoes, and maybe, just maybe the dress code at work doesn’t allow him to wear purple tennis shoes?”  Call me crazy, but I don’t think you have to be a detective to figure that one out.

The sheriffs detected deceit in the accomplice & suspect’s answers, but never followed through on proving the deceit.  We were told by the lead detective that if someone lies to him there is nothing he can do about it…does Sheriff Lou Vallario really believe that criminals just blurt out their guilt when asked?  Call me crazy again, but I think most criminals never really admit they are guilty…most are sociopaths & psychopaths believe law enforcement, as well as everyone else on this planet, are completely clueless – sociopaths & psychopaths think they are the only ones that are smart, and they think they can fool anyone.  So as far as not enough facts – how many “facts” would have been enough?

Then Vallario went on to say there was no suspicion, and no probable cause of a suspect. That is absolutely false.  They knew who Morgan’s stalker was, as well as the identity of his accomplice.  The lead detective in Morgan’s felony stalking case, just 2 days before her murder, stated that he felt he was very close to making an arrest and that if anything he believed her stalker would escalate his behavior…if you were Morgan’s mom how would you have reacted to that statement?  I was petrified.  Morgan was frightened as well, and that same night (Tuesday night, November 29th) was one of only two nights that week that her ex-boyfriend did not sleep over on the couch.  The only other night he didn’t sleep over (Thursday night, December 1st) was the night she was murdered.  She tried to have him sleep over every night that week, but that Tuesday night (November 29th) he couldn’t come home with her to sleep over so she came home by herself, earlier than usual, spent some time with Steve and I and then tried to get some sleep.  We were all so exhausted we didn’t even realize the sheriffs were called to our next door neighbor’s house because they had been robbed.  Yes, robbed – sometime before midnight that same night.

Then around 12:40 am (it was now technically Wednesday am on the 30th) Morgan came into my bedroom.  She was dressed in regular clothes and had her puppy on the leash, keys in hand, and she woke me up.  She said the stalker has been banging on her window for 15 minutes and she couldn’t sleep, every time she went to sleep he would wake her up, she was afraid, and wanted to leave and go to her friend’s grandma’s house to feel safe and get some sleep.  She asked if I could walk her out to the car.  (I shouldn’t have to explain this, but I will – she never left the house after dark without Steve or I walking with her because she was scared for her life – she had a stalker!  Also please note…most stalking incidents do happen at your place of residence.  Sure stalkers follow you, but from all the stalking incidents around the world that I have read about, and all the victims I have interviewed I would have to say 90% of all incidents at least, evolve around their home.

So I jumped out of bed, put on a robe and walked her out to the car.  Watched her lock the doors, drive out of the driveway, and made sure another car wasn’t following her.  I then went in the house and called sheriff’s dispatch.  Morgan sent me a text when she was safely locked in her friend’s grandma’s house.

I was on the phone with a deputy explaining what had just happened.  He said they had just been at our next door neighbors house investigating a robbery and just returned to Rifle so it was going to take them a long time to get back to our house.  We were used to this – most times there was not a quick response to an incident of stalking.  About an hour later an officer walked up to Morgan’s window and shined his flashlight around on the ground.  The officer would travel on foot from the back of the house to the front of the house all on the side of Morgan’s bedroom, this was a typical response.  How this would ever have a positive outcome on “seeing” or “catching” a stalker is beyond me.  Especially since her stalker was sitting up on our roof undetected laughing at the sheriffs.

Deputy responding to stalking incident

Vallario then repeated what his officers said the morning of Morgan’s death that there were, “no signs of foul play, no trauma, no sexual assault,” but what he left out was his officers also said there was no sign of suicide.  We were blessed with many medical, criminal and forensic experts that reviewed Morgan’s case pro bono and disagreed with the sheriff & coroner.  These experts, not us, said Morgan did not die of natural causes, the evidence pointed to foul play and her case needed an investigation.  When these experts told the forensic pathologist the coroner changed her manner of death to suicide.  Trying once again to get us to “back off.”  It wasn’t obvious to us back then because of the shock and grief we were dealing with, but to other experts it was obvious that something was very wrong with how Garfield County was treating Morgan’s death.  From the very morning of her death they were trying to get us to stop asking questions.  That would have been a much easier path for us to take…we didn’t want to imagine that her stalker got into our house and murdered Morgan, but it did happen and pretending it didn’t wasn’t something we could do once the evidence started to be revealed.   What they were trying to convince us wasn’t the truth, they just wanted us to believe what they “needed” us to believe, but the things they were saying didn’t add up and when we wouldn’t stop asking questions, I was threatened, and when that didn’t stop me from asking questions they changed her manner of death to a suicide with absolutely no evidence, but this was just another way to keep her case from being investigated.

Contrary to what Vallario said, not only were there signs of foul play, trauma and a possible sexual assault…all this evidence was there the very morning of Morgan’s death.  The sheriffs and deputy coroner saw all of it – of that I am positive.  So once again, did they follow the evidence and let it lead them to a conclusion, or did they have a big giant broom to sweep it all under the first rug they could find?  And why?  We believe now we know the  why.

Have any of you been reading about the Ashley Fallis case out of Evans, CO?  Ashley was murdered exactly one day short of the one month anniversary of Morgan’s murder.  The coroner in Ashley’s case put down suicide, but it wasn’t – it was murder.  Almost 4 years later Ashley’s family has fought and been able to see Ashley’s murderer arrested and awaiting trial BUT there is more, they allege a cover-up by law enforcement and the truth is finally coming out…read about it here:

And to my utter dismay this type of cover-up in Colorado is not exclusive to Morgan or Ashley – I believe it has been going on for a long time and because of Colorado’s antiquated coroner’s system and home rule it is allowed to happen.  Here is a current case that I just read about in the news in Colorado  So what good are crime statistics when young men and women can be murdered, but then written down as suicide or accidental deaths?  The fact is that in Colorado if someone is listed as a homicide then after 2 years the Colorado Bureau of Investigation is allowed to investigate as it is considered a cold case, but if they are never listed as a homicide (as in Morgan’s case) then they are never allowed to be investigated by the CBI.  In Morgan’s case the CBI has offered to come in, multiple times, to investigate (at no cost to the county), and they have been turned away by Vallario – why?

I believe that Garfield County Sheriff Lou Vallario does not want ANY crimes against women investigated – not just Morgan, but all women of Garfield County are included in this group.  I have spoken with too many others in Garfield to know that this is a reality in Garfield County, and I am sure many more will continue to contact me through this website.  I don’t understand how women’s rights could have fallen so far that women have no rights when it comes to Garfield County – are women just desposable?  What does the rest of the country have to say about this?

These are the battles we as women need to fight in order to keep equality and our lives. It’s not just compensation in the workplace, it is also equality as a human being.  Everyone, no matter what your gender, color, ethnic background, or religious belief, every human life is important and deserves to be treated equally.  We can not turn a blind eye when it comes to things like this.  The sheriff is an elected official – I would think that women who care about their rights would not want to see this kind of elected official in their own county.

The hardest part of this for me has been the harsh reality that we have been deceived, and our daughter’s murder was, and is being covered up, and it is beyond devestating.  I have been proud of my family members that have had careers in law enforcement, and Steve and I have both helped law enforcement over the years, and still do.

I have always had a great deal of admiration & respect for law enforcement, but I don’t envy them.  I feel sorry on some level because just like in all walks of life there are good ones, and unfortunately some bad ones.  And when the bad ones make it into a supervisory position or actually run the department then it gets really bad for the good cops.  Good cops get involved because they truly care. They are optimistic and they have passion. Once they get in a department that may not really be looking to protect and serve, it seems like they are beat down. They can’t walk down the street without noticing the fear and distrust in people’s eyes.  The only way I can see the trust and faith towards law enforcement come back to people is to demand full transparency.  Support officers that come forward with the truth instead of allowing them to be fired.  Give the good officers support from the state and make accountability a priority.  For me, seeing a few bad officers, or officials ruin the credibility and trust of the majority of law enforcement, is just not right.  It should not be like this.  This country needs law enforcement to regain the trust of the people, and in my opinion the best way to do that is to make sure there is accountability.  Officers that break the law (just like anyone) should be accountable for their crimes.  This will not only help them to regain the trust of the citizens of the U.S. but it will also help honest and caring law enforcement agents. They will no longer need to fear the loss of their own jobs if they come forward about another officer that broke the law.  It would be the taking down of the big blue wall.  It would be a win-win for everyone. Just a thought, but one can hope don’t you think?

 “For a community to be whole and healthy, it must be based on people’s love and concern for each other.” ~ Millard Fuller

A little brightness of the world - captured by Morgan Jennifer

A little brightness of the world – captured by Morgan Jennifer



This is where Morgan should be right now…

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Morgan loved nature, she loved the rivers and she really loved hammocks.  This is exactly where Morgan should be right now while getting ready to celebrate her 24th birthday on Sunday.  It makes me so angry that my sweet and gentle youngest daughter will never again be able to do the things she loved most.

Morgan’s 24th birthday is coming up…she would be turning 24 this Sunday, August 16th, but she is no longer with us…she was stalked and murdered by her stalker(s) when she was only 20 years of age.  Her life was cut short by her stalker.

I want so very much to keep Morgan’s memory alive – I want people to know she was an amazing human being, someone that was meant to help this world.  One minute her life was full of promise and the next minute she had a stalker.  That stalker(s) tried to take away all the joy in her life, but Morgan fought back refusing to allow it, then her stalker took her life.  My intent is to use Morgan’s story to help others.  I want to raise awareness not only in the general public, but in law enforcement and the judicial system as well.

Morgan was stalked, murdered, and covered up…her father and I, plus many others, have fought for over 3 long years to have a real investigation into her suspicious death, and we will never give up our quest.  Things need to change.  Stalking victims need to know someone will help them.  The families of murder victims need to know that law enforcement and the judicial system will do the right thing and not try to bury the truth.

Citizens need to remember they are the ones that can make the changes, changes that are necessary in order for us to not lose our rights of liberty and justice, the rights that we are supposed to be guaranteed, the rights that our forefathers fought so hard for…liberty & justice for all (they are not just words).

Please take a moment this coming Sunday, August 16th and light a candle for Morgan if you can, along with sending positive thoughts and feelings into the Universe so that Morgan’s case will get an investigation and justice will finally be served.  Please send those positive thoughts also to her friends and family so we will all finally receive peace.

Thank you all so very much – I am grateful for you all!



Too young, nice, polite or stupid to commit murder…not really

I hear it over and over again from people, “Come on, that young man is much too young to do anything like that!” or “That young man is so nice he wouldn’t hurt a fly” or “That young man couldn’t have done it because he is so polite, and his manager said he is a model employee” or “He is not that smart, he couldn’t have planned something like this.”

Well for those who think like that please wake up and smell the roses!  Young people do commit murder, and lately it’s in the news more and more.  Why?  I have no idea, but it is happening, so people need to stop with the clichés and get a clue…do not overlook the evidence if it leads you to someone that looks and acts innocent, because there is a good possibility that they are not innocent.

For example in Colorado alone, in the past few years since Morgan’s murder, I am providing links to articles that are just 2 examples of heinous murders by young white males:

17 years old Austin Sigg.  He kidnapped and murdered a little 10 year old girl in 2012

23 year old Christopher Waide confessed to stabbing and strangling Lea Porter in his Westminster apartment last year and disposing of her body.  Her family is still trying to locate her body

Remember the old saying about a wolf in sheep’s clothing?  And do you remember the history of Ted Bundy?  So many of these sick, twisted murderers do not get caught for many many years, allowing them to become serial killers and end so many innocent lives.  The two I mention above weren’t able to kill more as they were caught much sooner.

Maybe it’s just me, but I kind of think this type of scenario plays out over and over again because people don’t want to believe what their intuition is telling them…I think deep down inside a lot of people over the years could tell something “wasn’t right” about a person, and yet they choose to ignore that “nagging” little voice in the back of their head.  They didn’t want to believe it so they ignored it.  Sometimes they even participated in defending the perpetrator like they continue to do in our daughter Morgan’s case.

In the more recent case, click on the 2nd link above, you will read in the article that the principal of his high school read his “manifesto” in which he wrote about doing the things he ultimately did to Lea Porter.  Did the principal not want to believe it?  Did the principal alert the police and they didn’t think it was of any importance?  I have no idea, but so many parents, teachers, neighbors, co-workers and on and on know a person has a problem and may be involved in a crime and yet they don’t come forward – why?

In the other case of Austin Sigg above, his mother did do the right thing, she turned her son in.  In my opinion the world would be a much safer place and there would be less serial killers if people did just that.  This type of criminal doesn’t usually stop after their first kill – who is trying to kid who?  These type of young men can and do sometimes go on to kill over and over again, getting better and better at hiding their crimes.

I wonder if small town local law enforcement detectives need training on how to use the F.B.I.’s profiling techniques when looking at suspects that are persons of interest in local murders.  So many times there are clues right there, but they are ignored and cases go cold allowing a murderer to remain free.

Colorado has to date 1,500 unsolved homicides and missing persons’ cases.  While the numbers are small in comparison to larger states with greater populations, they still have more than 10,500 Colorado citizens who are co-victims of these unresolved homicides.  Colorado citizens need to care about this – things need to change.

And not to mention 1,500 murderers who are living amongst us––if not in Colorado, then in your state.

According to the FBI almost 15,000 homicides were committed in 2012 across our country.  That’s roughly five out of every 100,000 people killed due to senseless violence. What the statistics won’t tell you is that many of these homicides remain unsolved today, and join the thousands of cases that date back decades.  Another thing they don’t address is the many murders, like our daughter Morgan’s, that are not even listed as murders…what is the true number of unsolved homicides in this country?

It’s up to all of us as fellow human beings to keep our eyes open to things going on around us.  Watch, listen, pay attention in order to help stop a murder before it happens.  Don’t be afraid to come forward with a little piece of information in a missing persons case of a homicide case…it might be just the little piece that detectives need to make an arrest and stop a potential future murder from happening.

That’s my thought for the day.  I miss you Morgan…my little dragonfly.I miss you



Honestly, I Just Want To See You Be Brave…was my birthday wish

Kauai rain flowersYesterday was a day I was not looking forward to – it was my birthday.  For the days leading up to it my heart was hurting more and more.  All I could think of was the last birthday that I celebrated with Morgan.  It was a really good memory, but also so very painful for me only because I know I will never have another holiday or birthday with Morgan.  My reality is forever changed.

July 21, 2011 I woke up and couldn’t think of anything that I’d like to do to celebrate my birthday.  Steve & Morgan had both asked me what I wanted to do, but I could not really think of anything.  Then in the late afternoon Morgan came home with Rainer.  Steve said we were all going out to dinner.  It was a great dinner and we all had fun talking and joking about things.  When we arrived home Morgan brought out a birthday cake she had gotten for me, put the candles on and lit them – they all sang happy birthday.  It was really nice.

Then after we all had cake Rainer & Morgan went in her room to get something.  They came out with little sheepish grins on their faces and gave me a present.  I opened the card – it was from both of them.  It was so sweet.  Then I opened the present…I couldn’t believe it.  It was a black metal bell with a figure of a horse on the top.  It was meant to be mounted on the side of the house, by the front door.  It was a copy of one of the old bells that moms would ring in order to “call” their family to the house for dinner.

Morgan knew I missed the ranch her dad had built where she had been born in Old Snowmass, CO.  She knew I wanted so much to build another ranch and she said with this present I would already have the first thing to attach to the outside of the “future” ranch house.  I actually started to cry because I realized from the sparkle in her eyes that she truly believed at that time that her dad would build another ranch.  I love Morgan so much – and I miss her so much, and no, I will never get over it.  I lost Morgan, her family lost her, her friends lost her, the world lost her…she was taken against her will and at the hands of another.  My dream now is not the dream I had of building another ranch, it is now the dream of getting justice for Morgan, and fighting for all the victims and families of stalking, missing persons, and homicide.  My passion now is for justice – but that little bell will still ring one day, maybe not to call everyone to dinner, but it will ring out in celebration because my heart knows someday there will be justice.

Anyway, getting back to my birthday yesterday, it did not turn out to be a sad day for me.  I “felt” Morgan in the morning and throughout the day.  Every time I started to cry she “blasted” me with what I can only explain as a blast of heat that created tingles down my spine.  It seemed like she was saying, “Don’t cry – you have too much to do, and I am still here with you.”  Because of Morgan’s presence, an amazing friend, and my loving family I ended up having a very magical birthday.  Love really is everything!

Then I was given another message, “Don’t have fear.”  I immediately thought, “I am not fearful.”  Calming down and thinking about it I realized that when I get really sad maybe it is caused by fear.  Fear of that 1% feeling that maybe Morgan won’t get justice.  Fear that all these other victims and their families will continue to suffer with no white knight riding in to right the wrongs that have been thrown at them.  With that realization something happened, the song BRAVE by Sara Barellis came on my computer…and it was really loud!  The emotion that I felt when that song came on was immense!  At that very moment I felt all my determination come back – I will not be fearful, I promise you Morgan, I will be brave and I will not allow fear to silence me.

Sara Bareilles – Brave Lyrics

You can be amazing
You can turn a phrase into a weapon or a drug
You can be the outcast
Or be the backlash of somebody’s lack of love
Or you can start speaking up
Nothing’s gonna hurt you the way that words do
And they settle ‘neath your skin
Kept on the inside and no sunlight
Sometimes a shadow wins
But I wonder what would happen if youSay what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be braveWith what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be braveI just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be braveI just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be braveEverybody’s been there, everybody’s been stared down
By the enemy
Fallen for the fear and done some disappearing
Bow down to the mighty
Don’t run, stop holding your tongue
Maybe there’s a way out of the cage where you live
Maybe one of these days you can let the light in
Show me how big your brave is

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

Innocence, your history of silence
Won’t do you any good
Did you think it would?
Let your words be anything but empty
Why don’t you tell them the truth?

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
See you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you

Brave lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC