We Want Justice & Only Justice!

justiceThe only thing we will accept for our daughter is JUSTICE!  This December 2, 2015 will mark the 4th anniversary of her murder.  It is time – it is way past time for justice…

Our daughter Morgan was a victim of a felony stalking case (case #11-20197) with the Garfield County, CO sheriffs.  She identified her stalker, there was ample evidence to arrest and charge the suspect(s) before she was killed, the lead detective said he was getting ready to make an arrest and then she was murdered.  A stalking victim murdered in order to silence her as the witness.  Then it gets worse, it is then covered up so none of the irregularities or atrocious practices of the sheriff & coroner’s office can be revealed.

According to the Colorado Constitution victims should be treated with dignity, honor & respect.  Morgan got none of that in Garfield County.  I believe the state of Colorado cares, but I do not believe the officials in Garfield County care.  What can be done about that?  Can they just remain on the outside of Colorado law?  I don’t think so – not for much longer.

60% of all homicides are not solved.  It is then left up to the families to become their own detectives and to investigate the murder.  Not an easy task when critical information is being withheld by law enforcement and the coroner, but not impossible.  We have been extremely lucky to have so many wonderful people, in positions of authority, that are willing to help us, and for all of those people I am EXTREMELY GRATEFUL!  Good people doing the right thing is what is going to help change things in this country.

This has been a travesty of justice for Morgan, her family, and friends as well as all other victims of stalking in this country.  A stalker/murderer remains free to do this again to another innocent victim, because of the actions of Garfield County.  This needs to stop and this needs to stop now!

A visit from a red dragonfly – what an amazing sign..

Morgans face on my cell

I think of Morgan every single moment of every single day.  She is never far from my thoughts. I see her sweet smile every time I look at my phone.  I remember all the dragonfly things she had around her bedroom every time I see a dragonfly circle around me.  I also feel a stab in my heart every time I here a song that reminds me of her.

Whether a memory makes me happy or sad I am continuously grateful that everything reminds me of her.  I would never want her memory to fade from my mind.  She will always be in my heart, and always very loved.  Morgan deserves the truth to come out, Morgan deserves justice for the crimes that were inflicted upon her, and in my heart I truly believe she will receive justice…especially when I receive positive and encouraging signs.

reddragonfly-on-stalk

Yesterday I had a magical visit from a little red dragonfly.  Now, having a visit from a dragonfly is not that unusual for me, I have had many visits from dragonflies since Morgan died, but this one was very different.  I have never seen a red dragonfly before. This dragonfly acted different, it hovered right in front of my face as though it was looking right into my eyes, then it would circle and come right back to hover again right in front of me.  It almost seemed as though it was trying to communicate with me.  I smiled feeling like this definitely was a sign from Morgan.  For the next 10 minutes or so I was transfixed –  it continued to do some very amazing things.  I loved this special gift, and I am very grateful for the visit.

I was speaking to a friend about this last night and she sent me the following information that she had found somewhere on the Internet.  Dragonflies are said to show the presence of loved ones.  The Japanese believe they represent good things, they embrace the dragonfly as a symbol of courage, strength and happiness, while the Native Americans speak of the dragonfly as bringing a time of rejuvenation after a long period of trials and hardship.  Both of these interpretations bring us hope after the death and loss of a loved one.  Further, the Native Americans perceived dragonflies as the “souls of the dead” so a dragonfly visitation around a loved one’s death could well signify the loved one’s soul taking form in the spirit of dragonfly.

I just felt like this special red dragonfly was a sign from Morgan.  A sign that good things were about to happen after such a long wait.  And if just like magic today ended up being a very important day for Morgan’s case.  I felt like I have been climbing up and up forever and the top of the mountain was still so far away but today I felt as though I finally reached the top of a mountain.  I know it sounds a little strange but maybe this is all happening right now for a reason.  Maybe because it’s August and almost Morgan’s birthday, or maybe just because it is the right time.  Since Morgan is no longer here with us we can not celebrate with cake and candles, but I think the things that are now being put into play will be an important and wonderful way to celebrate her birthday.

Morgan was a Leo…she was born on August 16th.  And she had all the typical characteristics of a Leo.  She was the ultimate friend.  And her friends meant the world to her.  Morgan had all the strengths of a Leo, she was confident, ambitious, generous, loyal and encouraging to all around her.  She gave of herself many, many times as she would put off her own social life in order to do volunteer work for those much less fortunate.  She enjoyed helping others.

On the downside of being a Leo Morgan was always too proud to ask for help…she would suffer in silence many times.  When it came to her stalking I know now that it would have been so much better for her to ask and accept help from her friends.  Some of her friends did step up and try to help, but Morgan would not ask for help.  Please know if you are a victim of stalking please ask for help – you need help from everyone around you. It may be the only way to stop your stalker and keep yourself safe.

Morgan had boundless enthusiasm, and a real zest for life.  She appreciated all the wonders around her.  Morgan was fearless and strong, but she still lost her life to her stalker(s).  The taking of her life will not end now that she is gone, her legacy will live on.  We will honor her always by being fearless and strong and never giving up our quest for justice, for her as well as all others that suffer at the hands of their stalkers.  Morgan will be remembered, and she will still be able to make a difference in this world…through all of us.  She still resides inside so many hearts.

On this coming Sunday, the day that would have been Morgan’s 24th birthday, I will celebrate her birthday by burning a candle for her again.  I still have all the thousands of pictures readers sent to me during the first candlelight vigil that we held for Morgan on December 2, 2012 – that was the date that marked the first year anniversary of her murder.  It’s so very hard to believe that it was so long ago.

If you have a chance please join me in celebrating Morgan by burning a candle for her again this Sunday.  If you would like to send me a picture of your candle to post for others to see please send it to me through this website on the contact form.

Thank you all for the many years of support you have given to me and my family…we couldn’t keep up the fight for justice without you.  Much light and love to you all!

 

 

 

This is where Morgan should be right now…

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Morgan loved nature, she loved the rivers and she really loved hammocks.  This is exactly where Morgan should be right now while getting ready to celebrate her 24th birthday on Sunday.  It makes me so angry that my sweet and gentle youngest daughter will never again be able to do the things she loved most.

Morgan’s 24th birthday is coming up…she would be turning 24 this Sunday, August 16th, but she is no longer with us…she was stalked and murdered by her stalker(s) when she was only 20 years of age.  Her life was cut short by her stalker.

I want so very much to keep Morgan’s memory alive – I want people to know she was an amazing human being, someone that was meant to help this world.  One minute her life was full of promise and the next minute she had a stalker.  That stalker(s) tried to take away all the joy in her life, but Morgan fought back refusing to allow it, then her stalker took her life.  My intent is to use Morgan’s story to help others.  I want to raise awareness not only in the general public, but in law enforcement and the judicial system as well.

Morgan was stalked, murdered, and covered up…her father and I, plus many others, have fought for over 3 long years to have a real investigation into her suspicious death, and we will never give up our quest.  Things need to change.  Stalking victims need to know someone will help them.  The families of murder victims need to know that law enforcement and the judicial system will do the right thing and not try to bury the truth.

Citizens need to remember they are the ones that can make the changes, changes that are necessary in order for us to not lose our rights of liberty and justice, the rights that we are supposed to be guaranteed, the rights that our forefathers fought so hard for…liberty & justice for all (they are not just words).

Please take a moment this coming Sunday, August 16th and light a candle for Morgan if you can, along with sending positive thoughts and feelings into the Universe so that Morgan’s case will get an investigation and justice will finally be served.  Please send those positive thoughts also to her friends and family so we will all finally receive peace.

Thank you all so very much – I am grateful for you all!

 

 

Too young, nice, polite or stupid to commit murder…not really

I hear it over and over again from people, “Come on, that young man is much too young to do anything like that!” or “That young man is so nice he wouldn’t hurt a fly” or “That young man couldn’t have done it because he is so polite, and his manager said he is a model employee” or “He is not that smart, he couldn’t have planned something like this.”

Well for those who think like that please wake up and smell the roses!  Young people do commit murder, and lately it’s in the news more and more.  Why?  I have no idea, but it is happening, so people need to stop with the clichés and get a clue…do not overlook the evidence if it leads you to someone that looks and acts innocent, because there is a good possibility that they are not innocent.

For example in Colorado alone, in the past few years since Morgan’s murder, I am providing links to articles that are just 2 examples of heinous murders by young white males:

17 years old Austin Sigg.  He kidnapped and murdered a little 10 year old girl in 2012 http://www.foxnews.com/us/2013/11/18/sentencing-hearing-begins-for-teen-who-killed-dismembered-10-year-old-colorado/

23 year old Christopher Waide confessed to stabbing and strangling Lea Porter in his Westminster apartment last year and disposing of her body.  http://kdvr.com/2014/06/16/murder-victims-stepfather-suspect-had-manifesto-about-capturing-killing-a-girl/  Her family is still trying to locate her body http://www.gofundme.com/dukeanddexter

Remember the old saying about a wolf in sheep’s clothing?  And do you remember the history of Ted Bundy?  So many of these sick, twisted murderers do not get caught for many many years, allowing them to become serial killers and end so many innocent lives.  The two I mention above weren’t able to kill more as they were caught much sooner.

Maybe it’s just me, but I kind of think this type of scenario plays out over and over again because people don’t want to believe what their intuition is telling them…I think deep down inside a lot of people over the years could tell something “wasn’t right” about a person, and yet they choose to ignore that “nagging” little voice in the back of their head.  They didn’t want to believe it so they ignored it.  Sometimes they even participated in defending the perpetrator like they continue to do in our daughter Morgan’s case.

In the more recent case, click on the 2nd link above, you will read in the article that the principal of his high school read his “manifesto” in which he wrote about doing the things he ultimately did to Lea Porter.  Did the principal not want to believe it?  Did the principal alert the police and they didn’t think it was of any importance?  I have no idea, but so many parents, teachers, neighbors, co-workers and on and on know a person has a problem and may be involved in a crime and yet they don’t come forward – why?

In the other case of Austin Sigg above, his mother did do the right thing, she turned her son in.  In my opinion the world would be a much safer place and there would be less serial killers if people did just that.  This type of criminal doesn’t usually stop after their first kill – who is trying to kid who?  These type of young men can and do sometimes go on to kill over and over again, getting better and better at hiding their crimes.

I wonder if small town local law enforcement detectives need training on how to use the F.B.I.’s profiling techniques when looking at suspects that are persons of interest in local murders.  So many times there are clues right there, but they are ignored and cases go cold allowing a murderer to remain free.

Colorado has to date 1,500 unsolved homicides and missing persons’ cases.  While the numbers are small in comparison to larger states with greater populations, they still have more than 10,500 Colorado citizens who are co-victims of these unresolved homicides.  Colorado citizens need to care about this – things need to change.

And not to mention 1,500 murderers who are living amongst us––if not in Colorado, then in your state.

According to the FBI almost 15,000 homicides were committed in 2012 across our country.  That’s roughly five out of every 100,000 people killed due to senseless violence. What the statistics won’t tell you is that many of these homicides remain unsolved today, and join the thousands of cases that date back decades.  Another thing they don’t address is the many murders, like our daughter Morgan’s, that are not even listed as murders…what is the true number of unsolved homicides in this country?

It’s up to all of us as fellow human beings to keep our eyes open to things going on around us.  Watch, listen, pay attention in order to help stop a murder before it happens.  Don’t be afraid to come forward with a little piece of information in a missing persons case of a homicide case…it might be just the little piece that detectives need to make an arrest and stop a potential future murder from happening.

That’s my thought for the day.  I miss you Morgan…my little dragonfly.I miss you

 

 

Honestly, I Just Want To See You Be Brave…was my birthday wish

Kauai rain flowersYesterday was a day I was not looking forward to – it was my birthday.  For the days leading up to it my heart was hurting more and more.  All I could think of was the last birthday that I celebrated with Morgan.  It was a really good memory, but also so very painful for me only because I know I will never have another holiday or birthday with Morgan.  My reality is forever changed.

July 21, 2011 I woke up and couldn’t think of anything that I’d like to do to celebrate my birthday.  Steve & Morgan had both asked me what I wanted to do, but I could not really think of anything.  Then in the late afternoon Morgan came home with Rainer.  Steve said we were all going out to dinner.  It was a great dinner and we all had fun talking and joking about things.  When we arrived home Morgan brought out a birthday cake she had gotten for me, put the candles on and lit them – they all sang happy birthday.  It was really nice.

Then after we all had cake Rainer & Morgan went in her room to get something.  They came out with little sheepish grins on their faces and gave me a present.  I opened the card – it was from both of them.  It was so sweet.  Then I opened the present…I couldn’t believe it.  It was a black metal bell with a figure of a horse on the top.  It was meant to be mounted on the side of the house, by the front door.  It was a copy of one of the old bells that moms would ring in order to “call” their family to the house for dinner.

Morgan knew I missed the ranch her dad had built where she had been born in Old Snowmass, CO.  She knew I wanted so much to build another ranch and she said with this present I would already have the first thing to attach to the outside of the “future” ranch house.  I actually started to cry because I realized from the sparkle in her eyes that she truly believed at that time that her dad would build another ranch.  I love Morgan so much – and I miss her so much, and no, I will never get over it.  I lost Morgan, her family lost her, her friends lost her, the world lost her…she was taken against her will and at the hands of another.  My dream now is not the dream I had of building another ranch, it is now the dream of getting justice for Morgan, and fighting for all the victims and families of stalking, missing persons, and homicide.  My passion now is for justice – but that little bell will still ring one day, maybe not to call everyone to dinner, but it will ring out in celebration because my heart knows someday there will be justice.

Anyway, getting back to my birthday yesterday, it did not turn out to be a sad day for me.  I “felt” Morgan in the morning and throughout the day.  Every time I started to cry she “blasted” me with what I can only explain as a blast of heat that created tingles down my spine.  It seemed like she was saying, “Don’t cry – you have too much to do, and I am still here with you.”  Because of Morgan’s presence, an amazing friend, and my loving family I ended up having a very magical birthday.  Love really is everything!

Then I was given another message, “Don’t have fear.”  I immediately thought, “I am not fearful.”  Calming down and thinking about it I realized that when I get really sad maybe it is caused by fear.  Fear of that 1% feeling that maybe Morgan won’t get justice.  Fear that all these other victims and their families will continue to suffer with no white knight riding in to right the wrongs that have been thrown at them.  With that realization something happened, the song BRAVE by Sara Barellis came on my computer…and it was really loud!  The emotion that I felt when that song came on was immense!  At that very moment I felt all my determination come back – I will not be fearful, I promise you Morgan, I will be brave and I will not allow fear to silence me.

Sara Bareilles – Brave Lyrics

You can be amazing
You can turn a phrase into a weapon or a drug
You can be the outcast
Or be the backlash of somebody’s lack of love
Or you can start speaking up
Nothing’s gonna hurt you the way that words do
And they settle ‘neath your skin
Kept on the inside and no sunlight
Sometimes a shadow wins
But I wonder what would happen if youSay what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be braveWith what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be braveI just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be braveI just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be braveEverybody’s been there, everybody’s been stared down
By the enemy
Fallen for the fear and done some disappearing
Bow down to the mighty
Don’t run, stop holding your tongue
Maybe there’s a way out of the cage where you live
Maybe one of these days you can let the light in
Show me how big your brave is

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

Innocence, your history of silence
Won’t do you any good
Did you think it would?
Let your words be anything but empty
Why don’t you tell them the truth?

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
See you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you

Songwriters: BAREILLES, SARA / ANTONOFF, JACK
Brave lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC