December 22, 2015 – Missing Morgan

Another day, as we get closer to the end of the year, and wondering why it is taking so long to get an investigation officially open in Morgan’s case…and at the same time knowing the “why.”  It’s just that I understand the “why” is important, I get that, but at the same time it seems so unfair that it is taking this long.

I miss Morgan’s little feet in her ballet shoes, up on her toes (as in the picture below).  I remember being in the kitchen making dinner and she would walk into the kitchen in her ballet shoes, up on her toes, and show me the latest thing she accomplished in ballet.  She was so happy, and she was proud of herself, and always wanted to share with me.  It is times like this morning that I just want to scream out that it is NOT fair!  It is NOT right!

I want Morgan back.  No one had the right to horrifically take her life her against her will – no one!   But they did, and now we are all left with a gigantic hole in our hearts.

We miss you Morgan…justice for Morgan!

Ballet Dancer

True Love Knows No Goodbyes…

Morgan touched so many with her profound wisdom and loving heart, and she had so many amazing friends that still want to fight for truth and justice for their friend Morgan.

One of Morgan’s former classmates wrote to me and said, “I thank you for continuing to fight for justice for Morgan. She no longer has a voice to defend herself. We must be that voice. I will do the best I can. Truth is sometimes difficult to find but, like gold, it is worth the effort.”

We all will continue to fight for what is right, truth & justice…for Morgan, as well as all others that can no longer speak up for themselves. We won’t say goodbye, instead we will say, “Watch the changes Morgan that we are going to make in your name, and when our jobs are through we will then again be with you.”  Morgan enjoyed reading Rumi and I must admit this great poet was a deep thinker that understood the reality of true bonds of love – the kind that can never be severed, even in death..

Rumi

Amazon has the Discovery ID program “Suspicion – Edge of Insanity” offered for $1.99

Just found this on Amazon, Suspicion – Edge of Insanity. I thought I would let everyone know that the episode that dramatizes what happened to Morgan can be purchased for $1.99 on Amazon for those who are unable to get Discovery ID on their TV sets.

Obviously it is a mini drama and the house, neighborhood, and exact events look different than they really were.  Morgan’s stalking lasted 4 months and the sheriffs were called over 50 times to our house, but the story had to be shrunk down to just over 40 minutes.

One part that was surprising to me was when I heard the actress say, “I have to get out of here” this was strange because in reality in the last month of Morgan’s stalking her sister, best friend, Godfather, soul mate, along with myself all tried to get her to leave to keep her safe, but Morgan would not do it.  She had a small puppy and would not have been allowed to bring her if she were to go stay with one of them.  I told her I would take care of her puppy, but she just wouldn’t leave her.  She felt it was irresponsible for her to not finish her semester at college and to leave her puppy behind so she refused to go.  That was Morgan – she was responsible to a fault.  She should have left.  I should have insisted.  Everyone had a bad feeling, not just me, and in the end when danger is felt you need to run to a safe place.  While victims cannot control the stalking behavior, they can be empowered to take steps to keep themselves, family and loved ones safe. The creation of a safety plan can assist victims in doing this. Trust your instincts.  If you’re somewhere that doesn’t feel safe, either find ways to make it safer, or leave.

The National Center for Victims of Crime suggests you have a stalking safety plan that includes packing a bag with important items you’d need if you had to leave quickly. Put the bag in a safe place, or give it to a friend or relative you trust.

I think Discovery ID did an excellent job on conveying the fear and utter devastation that happened.  I am thankful that this episode has brought more awareness to the seriousness of stalking.  One moment life was beautiful for our family and the next moment a dark presence had penetrated our world and our lives will never be the same again.  In a Colorado minute everything can change…

Wylah looking at the front door

Wylah looking at the front door

A Tree for Morgan…Remember Me Loving You

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Because of the love & kindness of the Rodden family Morgan has her own tree in Carbondale, CO.  It overlooks a wonderful dog park where her puppy Wylah used to play.  This tree was chosen and planted by this wonderful family as a beautiful reminder of Morgan and I know Morgan would be very grateful.

As it grows and produces more shade to all those who stand under it, along with their fur babies, I hope they take a moment and read the plaque that is attached to the tree.  It says, “Remember Me Loving You.”  Morgan Ingram 8.16.1991 – 12.2.2011.  This is a saying that Morgan loved.  Morgan never missed an opportunity to express her feelings – she was very open and honest with everyone.  A day never went by without her verbalizing her love.  You never know when it will be too late to tell someone you love exactly how you feel, but I know that is not something Morgan would have ever needed to worry about – she always said I love you early and often.

I felt it was time to finally post this picture of the Morgan tree.  I am so very grateful to have such loving, caring people in our lives.  Some of which I had never even met until after Morgan’s murder.  Sometimes I feel people like these should be called earth angels. They appear to us when we feel we can no longer go on.  They lift us up with their light and joy and they give us a glimpse of happiness one more time, if only for a moment.  Because of people like this you know you must go on, because with every new day the sun still rises and the leaves on the trees glisten with the fresh morning dew.  Nothing stops.  My whole world will never be the same without Morgan, but the world still goes on.  And every day is a new day in which you can make a difference in this world.  A day that I can honor my child with my love and through my actions.

This coming Sunday, August 16th will be Morgan’s birthday…she would have been 24 years old.  At the beginning of August 2011 her life had changed forever – she had a stalker.  She had no idea at that time who it was, and she was so very frightened.  Because of her stalker(s) that birthday, 4 years ago this coming Sunday, ended up being Morgan’s very last birthday on this earth – she just turned 20.  We talked about where she wanted to spend her next birthday – the big 21.  She said Las Vegas wasn’t really her thing and she was thinking that maybe we could all take a trip to Santa Fe, New Mexico to celebrate.  She loved the art galleries and the people there.  I told her she had a whole year to think about it and whatever she decided would be great.  How could I have ever known we would never have a chance to see her turn 21?

Every day this week as I count down to this coming Sunday I get a little sadder, a little weepier, and my heart aches.  Yet at the same time I feel Morgan’s spirit very, very close.  When I feel Morgan close by it always brings a smile to my face…I love her so much!  This Sunday we will burn a candle for Morgan, our family will cry and laugh and remember all the wonderful moments we were grateful for.  Because of Morgan I promise to never ever take a single day for granted.

Keep the ones you love close, tell them you love them early and often.  Make lots of memories with them and always make them your number one priority in life…because they are.

If you get a chance this coming Sunday, August 16th please burn a candle for Morgan and pray that her investigation is opened and justice is served.   Pray that state officials in Colorado care enough to do the right thing for Morgan, as well as all the other victims of stalking, murder and missing persons.   Your actions, thoughts and prayers really do matter.  Much love to you all.

Stalking & Violence Against Women – it can not be allowed!

morganbackyardHere’s what I do know:

  • These stalkers have engaged in a concerted war on innocent people.
  • And who benefits? Only the stalkers.
  • And here’s the kicker: our own law enforcement is not always on our side, sometimes it seems like they are more concerned with keeping things quiet, protecting the criminal, and not protecting the victim… you guessed it… most of these victims in Garfield County are female, and Morgan’s case is not an isolated case.

It’s a vicious cycle that rewards the criminals with a free hall pass– but keeps the innocent victims with no where to turn.

William Ramsey Clark is an American lawyer, activist and former public official. He worked for the U.S. Department of Justice, which included service as United States Attorney General from 1967 to 1969, under President Lyndon B. Johnson. He supervised the drafting and played an important role in the passage of the Voting Rights Act of 1965 and Civil Rights Act of 1968.  Mr. Clark has said, Who will protect the public when the police violate the law? as well as, “A great many people in this country are worried about law-and-order.  And a great many people are worried about justice.  But one thing is certain; you cannot have either until you have both.”

Everyone needs to heed these words, because if the laws of this nation are not upheld by our very own law enforcement agencies then we’re all in trouble.  Our country was based on checks and balances, law and order.  If there is no accountability, and no punishment for people in a position of power (like law enforcement) then there will be no incentive for this behavior to ever end.

Don’t get me wrong.  I still trust in our system.  I still trust and honor most of our hard working and brave law enforcement agents, but just like in any other walk of life there are the good, and then there are bad people.  When you have the bad, especially if they are in charge then you can have a horrific scenario start to develop and continue on for years in some cases. That is why it is critical that there are checks and balances – another agency that has the authority to come in and investigate when a policeman or sheriff goes rouge.  If this doesn’t happen then not only hurts the victims and co-victims, but it damages the lives of any good officers that work in that department as well.

In Morgan’s case:

Morgan died from a massive dose of a date rape drug called Amitriptyline.  She died during an active investigation into her felony stalking.  Morgan did not have any alcohol or illegal drugs in her system, but her toxicology reports shows prescription drugs that are all on the sexual assault panel (known as date rape drugs).  I know there is credible evidence that points towards foul play in Morgan’s death, and my family insists on an outside investigation into those questions, Morgan deserves at least that.  The Garfield County Sheriffs department can not investigate themselves.

If Morgan is able to receive justice, then there is a potential for change to be made in Colorado. The Garfield County Sheriff not only refuses to EVER investigate Morgan’s death, but he won’t let anyone else in to investigate either.

We want a return to law and order – this will show that everyday ordinary people, like all of us, rose up and fought against the wrongs being done to everyone.  Morgan’s cold case, along with so many other cold cases that are being opened, will be the catalyst for change.  If we are successful in having an investigation into Morgan’s murder opened we believe that Colorado will be forced to make changes that will be for the good of all…except of course the criminals.

Why don’t people come forward with what they know:

When people in power (like the sheriffs office) can make people afraid for their individual futures, then some people will stay silent about injustice. And until families that are unaffected are as outraged as those who are there will be no justice for the victims.

Everyone wonders how Hitler influenced his country to go along with his madness, it was quite simple: make the population afraid for their individual futures and they will stay silent about injustice.

The solution is actually pretty simple.

Good news– we can fix this.  Moving forward we can make changes in the system.

If we want to tackle violence against women, as well as inequality in our country, we need to let our local government, state and federal government know how we feel. We need to let them know this will no longer be tolerated.  Speak out every time you have the opportunity.  Let everyone know that you will not tolerate violence against women – or for that matter violence against anyone.

I believe Colorado Cares and their will be justice for Morgan and other cold case victims in the state of Colorado – it has already started happening.  Kudos to Colorado!