This is where Morgan should be right now…

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Morgan loved nature, she loved the rivers and she really loved hammocks.  This is exactly where Morgan should be right now while getting ready to celebrate her 24th birthday on Sunday.  It makes me so angry that my sweet and gentle youngest daughter will never again be able to do the things she loved most.

Morgan’s 24th birthday is coming up…she would be turning 24 this Sunday, August 16th, but she is no longer with us…she was stalked and murdered by her stalker(s) when she was only 20 years of age.  Her life was cut short by her stalker.

I want so very much to keep Morgan’s memory alive – I want people to know she was an amazing human being, someone that was meant to help this world.  One minute her life was full of promise and the next minute she had a stalker.  That stalker(s) tried to take away all the joy in her life, but Morgan fought back refusing to allow it, then her stalker took her life.  My intent is to use Morgan’s story to help others.  I want to raise awareness not only in the general public, but in law enforcement and the judicial system as well.

Morgan was stalked, murdered, and covered up…her father and I, plus many others, have fought for over 3 long years to have a real investigation into her suspicious death, and we will never give up our quest.  Things need to change.  Stalking victims need to know someone will help them.  The families of murder victims need to know that law enforcement and the judicial system will do the right thing and not try to bury the truth.

Citizens need to remember they are the ones that can make the changes, changes that are necessary in order for us to not lose our rights of liberty and justice, the rights that we are supposed to be guaranteed, the rights that our forefathers fought so hard for…liberty & justice for all (they are not just words).

Please take a moment this coming Sunday, August 16th and light a candle for Morgan if you can, along with sending positive thoughts and feelings into the Universe so that Morgan’s case will get an investigation and justice will finally be served.  Please send those positive thoughts also to her friends and family so we will all finally receive peace.

Thank you all so very much – I am grateful for you all!

 

 

A Tree for Morgan…Remember Me Loving You

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Because of the love & kindness of the Rodden family Morgan has her own tree in Carbondale, CO.  It overlooks a wonderful dog park where her puppy Wylah used to play.  This tree was chosen and planted by this wonderful family as a beautiful reminder of Morgan and I know Morgan would be very grateful.

As it grows and produces more shade to all those who stand under it, along with their fur babies, I hope they take a moment and read the plaque that is attached to the tree.  It says, “Remember Me Loving You.”  Morgan Ingram 8.16.1991 – 12.2.2011.  This is a saying that Morgan loved.  Morgan never missed an opportunity to express her feelings – she was very open and honest with everyone.  A day never went by without her verbalizing her love.  You never know when it will be too late to tell someone you love exactly how you feel, but I know that is not something Morgan would have ever needed to worry about – she always said I love you early and often.

I felt it was time to finally post this picture of the Morgan tree.  I am so very grateful to have such loving, caring people in our lives.  Some of which I had never even met until after Morgan’s murder.  Sometimes I feel people like these should be called earth angels. They appear to us when we feel we can no longer go on.  They lift us up with their light and joy and they give us a glimpse of happiness one more time, if only for a moment.  Because of people like this you know you must go on, because with every new day the sun still rises and the leaves on the trees glisten with the fresh morning dew.  Nothing stops.  My whole world will never be the same without Morgan, but the world still goes on.  And every day is a new day in which you can make a difference in this world.  A day that I can honor my child with my love and through my actions.

This coming Sunday, August 16th will be Morgan’s birthday…she would have been 24 years old.  At the beginning of August 2011 her life had changed forever – she had a stalker.  She had no idea at that time who it was, and she was so very frightened.  Because of her stalker(s) that birthday, 4 years ago this coming Sunday, ended up being Morgan’s very last birthday on this earth – she just turned 20.  We talked about where she wanted to spend her next birthday – the big 21.  She said Las Vegas wasn’t really her thing and she was thinking that maybe we could all take a trip to Santa Fe, New Mexico to celebrate.  She loved the art galleries and the people there.  I told her she had a whole year to think about it and whatever she decided would be great.  How could I have ever known we would never have a chance to see her turn 21?

Every day this week as I count down to this coming Sunday I get a little sadder, a little weepier, and my heart aches.  Yet at the same time I feel Morgan’s spirit very, very close.  When I feel Morgan close by it always brings a smile to my face…I love her so much!  This Sunday we will burn a candle for Morgan, our family will cry and laugh and remember all the wonderful moments we were grateful for.  Because of Morgan I promise to never ever take a single day for granted.

Keep the ones you love close, tell them you love them early and often.  Make lots of memories with them and always make them your number one priority in life…because they are.

If you get a chance this coming Sunday, August 16th please burn a candle for Morgan and pray that her investigation is opened and justice is served.   Pray that state officials in Colorado care enough to do the right thing for Morgan, as well as all the other victims of stalking, murder and missing persons.   Your actions, thoughts and prayers really do matter.  Much love to you all.

Too young, nice, polite or stupid to commit murder…not really

I hear it over and over again from people, “Come on, that young man is much too young to do anything like that!” or “That young man is so nice he wouldn’t hurt a fly” or “That young man couldn’t have done it because he is so polite, and his manager said he is a model employee” or “He is not that smart, he couldn’t have planned something like this.”

Well for those who think like that please wake up and smell the roses!  Young people do commit murder, and lately it’s in the news more and more.  Why?  I have no idea, but it is happening, so people need to stop with the clichés and get a clue…do not overlook the evidence if it leads you to someone that looks and acts innocent, because there is a good possibility that they are not innocent.

For example in Colorado alone, in the past few years since Morgan’s murder, I am providing links to articles that are just 2 examples of heinous murders by young white males:

17 years old Austin Sigg.  He kidnapped and murdered a little 10 year old girl in 2012 http://www.foxnews.com/us/2013/11/18/sentencing-hearing-begins-for-teen-who-killed-dismembered-10-year-old-colorado/

23 year old Christopher Waide confessed to stabbing and strangling Lea Porter in his Westminster apartment last year and disposing of her body.  http://kdvr.com/2014/06/16/murder-victims-stepfather-suspect-had-manifesto-about-capturing-killing-a-girl/  Her family is still trying to locate her body http://www.gofundme.com/dukeanddexter

Remember the old saying about a wolf in sheep’s clothing?  And do you remember the history of Ted Bundy?  So many of these sick, twisted murderers do not get caught for many many years, allowing them to become serial killers and end so many innocent lives.  The two I mention above weren’t able to kill more as they were caught much sooner.

Maybe it’s just me, but I kind of think this type of scenario plays out over and over again because people don’t want to believe what their intuition is telling them…I think deep down inside a lot of people over the years could tell something “wasn’t right” about a person, and yet they choose to ignore that “nagging” little voice in the back of their head.  They didn’t want to believe it so they ignored it.  Sometimes they even participated in defending the perpetrator like they continue to do in our daughter Morgan’s case.

In the more recent case, click on the 2nd link above, you will read in the article that the principal of his high school read his “manifesto” in which he wrote about doing the things he ultimately did to Lea Porter.  Did the principal not want to believe it?  Did the principal alert the police and they didn’t think it was of any importance?  I have no idea, but so many parents, teachers, neighbors, co-workers and on and on know a person has a problem and may be involved in a crime and yet they don’t come forward – why?

In the other case of Austin Sigg above, his mother did do the right thing, she turned her son in.  In my opinion the world would be a much safer place and there would be less serial killers if people did just that.  This type of criminal doesn’t usually stop after their first kill – who is trying to kid who?  These type of young men can and do sometimes go on to kill over and over again, getting better and better at hiding their crimes.

I wonder if small town local law enforcement detectives need training on how to use the F.B.I.’s profiling techniques when looking at suspects that are persons of interest in local murders.  So many times there are clues right there, but they are ignored and cases go cold allowing a murderer to remain free.

Colorado has to date 1,500 unsolved homicides and missing persons’ cases.  While the numbers are small in comparison to larger states with greater populations, they still have more than 10,500 Colorado citizens who are co-victims of these unresolved homicides.  Colorado citizens need to care about this – things need to change.

And not to mention 1,500 murderers who are living amongst us––if not in Colorado, then in your state.

According to the FBI almost 15,000 homicides were committed in 2012 across our country.  That’s roughly five out of every 100,000 people killed due to senseless violence. What the statistics won’t tell you is that many of these homicides remain unsolved today, and join the thousands of cases that date back decades.  Another thing they don’t address is the many murders, like our daughter Morgan’s, that are not even listed as murders…what is the true number of unsolved homicides in this country?

It’s up to all of us as fellow human beings to keep our eyes open to things going on around us.  Watch, listen, pay attention in order to help stop a murder before it happens.  Don’t be afraid to come forward with a little piece of information in a missing persons case of a homicide case…it might be just the little piece that detectives need to make an arrest and stop a potential future murder from happening.

That’s my thought for the day.  I miss you Morgan…my little dragonfly.I miss you

 

 

The Blue Moon…in Aquarius

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Last nights rare blue moon was beautiful, powerful, and extremely bright.  The appearance of this full moon on July 31st was the 2nd in the same month, the first one was on July 1st.  This rare event has not happened since 2012.  Every month has a full moon, but because the lunar cycle and the calendar year aren’t perfectly synched, about every three years we wind up with two in the same calendar month.

This lunar event will not be seen again until January 2018, so “once in a blue moon” is a phrase still worthy of a rare occurrence.  It is said that this blue moon in Aquarius will bring about an expansion of consciousness.  Something that I believe is starting to happen more and more lately – which is a really good thing!  This awareness is essential for beginning the next phase of life.  With the expansion of consciousness, and the awareness that it brings we will all be able to see the changes our world so desperately needs to experience.

I have always been a optimist and I guess I always will be.  I still believe good will prevail over evil and I still believe as people become more aware and educated about the things going on around them they will want to make changes for the better.  When people are kept in the dark they are more easily controlled, but as soon as they become aware of what is really going on around them most people tend to step up and refuse to allow injustice.  Most people really do want a just and safe world.

So here we go…once in a blue moon!  As a moon child myself I caution you all to hang on – change is on it’s way 🙂

 

 

 

Honestly, I Just Want To See You Be Brave…was my birthday wish

Kauai rain flowersYesterday was a day I was not looking forward to – it was my birthday.  For the days leading up to it my heart was hurting more and more.  All I could think of was the last birthday that I celebrated with Morgan.  It was a really good memory, but also so very painful for me only because I know I will never have another holiday or birthday with Morgan.  My reality is forever changed.

July 21, 2011 I woke up and couldn’t think of anything that I’d like to do to celebrate my birthday.  Steve & Morgan had both asked me what I wanted to do, but I could not really think of anything.  Then in the late afternoon Morgan came home with Rainer.  Steve said we were all going out to dinner.  It was a great dinner and we all had fun talking and joking about things.  When we arrived home Morgan brought out a birthday cake she had gotten for me, put the candles on and lit them – they all sang happy birthday.  It was really nice.

Then after we all had cake Rainer & Morgan went in her room to get something.  They came out with little sheepish grins on their faces and gave me a present.  I opened the card – it was from both of them.  It was so sweet.  Then I opened the present…I couldn’t believe it.  It was a black metal bell with a figure of a horse on the top.  It was meant to be mounted on the side of the house, by the front door.  It was a copy of one of the old bells that moms would ring in order to “call” their family to the house for dinner.

Morgan knew I missed the ranch her dad had built where she had been born in Old Snowmass, CO.  She knew I wanted so much to build another ranch and she said with this present I would already have the first thing to attach to the outside of the “future” ranch house.  I actually started to cry because I realized from the sparkle in her eyes that she truly believed at that time that her dad would build another ranch.  I love Morgan so much – and I miss her so much, and no, I will never get over it.  I lost Morgan, her family lost her, her friends lost her, the world lost her…she was taken against her will and at the hands of another.  My dream now is not the dream I had of building another ranch, it is now the dream of getting justice for Morgan, and fighting for all the victims and families of stalking, missing persons, and homicide.  My passion now is for justice – but that little bell will still ring one day, maybe not to call everyone to dinner, but it will ring out in celebration because my heart knows someday there will be justice.

Anyway, getting back to my birthday yesterday, it did not turn out to be a sad day for me.  I “felt” Morgan in the morning and throughout the day.  Every time I started to cry she “blasted” me with what I can only explain as a blast of heat that created tingles down my spine.  It seemed like she was saying, “Don’t cry – you have too much to do, and I am still here with you.”  Because of Morgan’s presence, an amazing friend, and my loving family I ended up having a very magical birthday.  Love really is everything!

Then I was given another message, “Don’t have fear.”  I immediately thought, “I am not fearful.”  Calming down and thinking about it I realized that when I get really sad maybe it is caused by fear.  Fear of that 1% feeling that maybe Morgan won’t get justice.  Fear that all these other victims and their families will continue to suffer with no white knight riding in to right the wrongs that have been thrown at them.  With that realization something happened, the song BRAVE by Sara Barellis came on my computer…and it was really loud!  The emotion that I felt when that song came on was immense!  At that very moment I felt all my determination come back – I will not be fearful, I promise you Morgan, I will be brave and I will not allow fear to silence me.

Sara Bareilles – Brave Lyrics

You can be amazing
You can turn a phrase into a weapon or a drug
You can be the outcast
Or be the backlash of somebody’s lack of love
Or you can start speaking up
Nothing’s gonna hurt you the way that words do
And they settle ‘neath your skin
Kept on the inside and no sunlight
Sometimes a shadow wins
But I wonder what would happen if youSay what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be braveWith what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be braveI just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be braveI just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be braveEverybody’s been there, everybody’s been stared down
By the enemy
Fallen for the fear and done some disappearing
Bow down to the mighty
Don’t run, stop holding your tongue
Maybe there’s a way out of the cage where you live
Maybe one of these days you can let the light in
Show me how big your brave is

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

Innocence, your history of silence
Won’t do you any good
Did you think it would?
Let your words be anything but empty
Why don’t you tell them the truth?

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
See you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you

Songwriters: BAREILLES, SARA / ANTONOFF, JACK
Brave lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC