The flower photo above is one that Morgan took in her last year of life…I will always honor Morgan by cherishing life as she did. Morgan loved life. Morgan saw beauty in the world at every turn.
Today, as we celebrate the first day of summer, I am reminded that on this longest day of the year, I have so much to be grateful for. I am grateful that Morgan, in her short 20 years, opened my eyes to so many things. She was wise beyond her years and I feel like she taught me more than I ever taught her. I miss her every moment of every day, but still feel her love and wisdom with me in every breath I take…for that I am grateful.
For all mothers who have lost a child, I know your pain and heartache never ceases, but my hope for all of us is that the love we have for our child is greater than the pain of our loss.
Normal was destroyed the moment we knew our child was gone, and that normal will never return, but the courage we show, every day, just taking a breath and trying our hardest to carry on, is what I call real courage.
Please be gentle with yourself on this day…may your smile still come through when remembering your precious child, even though the tears will also come.
May you always see your child’s smile in your mind’s eye and feel the warmth of their love, because death can never take that away from us…death can never sever the cord between a mother and her child – remember that always.
I miss you so much Morgan…I smiled this morning remembering how happy you were when I bought you the frog prince key chain for Valentine’s Day. I wish with all my heart I could give you another present today on Valentine’s Day. I will close my eyes and talk to you about all the little “hearts” you always put everywhere.
Thank you so much for always telling everyone how much you loved them…at the end of every phone call, every time you said goodbye, an every time you had an opportunity, you always told people how you felt, and that my dear daughter was something very unique and precious that I will always keep in my heart when I think of you.
Someone said grief has 3 stages:
First stage is the beginning
Second stage is the middle
Third stage is FOREVER
There is no “getting over” grief there is only learning to live with it and on days like today it hurts a little worse than normal. Miss you baby!
My sweet youngest daughter, you were supposed to be here to see and enjoy your big sister’s first baby boy, Kai. Your sister had a hard time at first, as a new mommy, she really wished she had you with her to help and share in all her “first” moments with her new little one.
You were supposed to be here for your older brother’s third baby, Steven. This little one is always smiling, just like you, and even has your beautiful blue eyes and the same hair color as you.
You were supposed to be here to enjoy your niece’s 11-year-old birthday party and your 9-year-old nephew’s celebration. All our family’s happy moments are bittersweet because you were not here to enjoy them with us – it always feels like something is missing…you 🙁
You were supposed to have your own engagement, wedding and first born. But a “stalker” stole that away from you, and us, when he took your life. We miss you every day. You’re never far from our thoughts, and will always be in our hearts…forever!
Rest in Heaven my sweet baby girl. 8/16/1991 – 12/2/2011
This poster is one that a supporter made for Morgan…this supporter has also lost her sister to murder, in Colorado, a staged crime scene just like Morgan’s with no investigation and her listed manner of death was also “suicide,” when the evidence actually supports murder. What is up with Colorado? Why don’t they let the evidence lead them to the true cause and manner of death? Why do they continue to ignore the evidence? #JusticeForMorgan #JusticeforHolly