New Book Released, “Survivors.” Morgan’s story is one of the cases featured in this book…

Great news!!! I am so excited, “Survivors” is now available for order in both paperback and Kindle formats. It will also be available in over 40,000 retail outlets around the world.

I was honored to be one of the co-authors of this book, when I was given the opportunity to write a chapter about our daughter Morgan who was murdered and taken from our family, by a stalker. #JusticeForMorgan!

Morgan’s story is one of many cases that have been shared in Dennis Griffin’s book, “Survivors.” This book is a collection of true stories, stories that are truly shocking, all about America’s pursuit of transparency in law enforcement and the justice system. The book has been written by survivors/co-victims of these crimes in order to raise awareness. I am so proud of every single one of these families who had the courage to share their stories. I truly believe that when you #speakyourtruth you can help many other families that are dealing with the same issues. I would also like to give my heartfelt thanks to Denny, Delilah & Lynda for all of their help making this possible. #nevergiveup #raiseawareness #justiceforallvictims #betheirvoice #beapartofthesolution

Please share the link below with family, friends, and on your social media. I would also like to ask all of you who purchase the book, to please rate the book with a 5-star rating after reading it. As Lynda Cheldelin Fell explains, “Why is that important? A collective push right out of the starting gate is how a book reaches that coveted #1 position. Why is reaching #1 important? Because it reaches more readers. And even more important is the visibility and opportunity to open the dialogue about such an important subject as this. The Amazon ratings change hourly. For those of you on Amazon, would you be kind enough to write a 5-star review? The better the rating, the easier it becomes for readers to find.”

Morgan’s Mini Lava Cakes…

Morgan loved to bake…and as you can see she also loved to photograph everything 🙂

For the first 2 years after Morgan’s murder I could barely breathe. Sounds crazy, I know. I didn’t consciously know I was holding my breath, but I was. When you lose a child like this the pain is so great that it’s hard to breathe.

I was in what I now call “Survival Mode” where I was just going through my normal everyday paces, trying to smile for others, trying to act like I wasn’t falling apart inside…but I was. Confusion, shock, and anger became my daily state of being. I couldn’t sleep – thoughts kept running through my mind, I had so much guilt for not getting Morgan away soon enough, as I knew she was in danger. I was constantly wondering about what really happened to her. Wanting to know if she suffered, and why this happened to her…many times feeling like I was just having a nightmare, and if I could just wake up everything would be fine again and Morgan would be off at college studying for tests.

I wanted to talk to others about Morgan, about what had happened, I wanted to shout it out, I wanted to tell people, “No, I am not okay,” but instead all I could do, when they asked how I was holding up, was to say, “I am fine.”

Six months after Morgan’s murder, someone actually said, “I want my old Toni back,” I was shocked! My mind could not even imagine how those words could come out of someone’s mouth…what had happened to my youngest daughter had forever changed me. and I knew I would never be the same, I could not understand how others could not understand that the old Toni was gone forever, along with Morgan.

So, now over 7 years later, I can finally say that I have come to terms with the fact that this pain will never go away, I have just learned to live with it. I now use that pain and the knowledge that it has given me, to try and help others. Onward I go in the pursuit of justice for Morgan, raising awareness of the seriousness of stalkers, and reaching out to others in need of an ear. Just as Morgan’s story needed to be told, so many other stories as well, they need to be told so no victim will be forgotten…they all matter, they were all loved and they all had hopes and dreams that were violently taken from them, just like Morgan.

#JusticeforMorgan  #JusticeforAllVictims

THE VOICE OF DESPAIR CAN BECOME ONLY A SOFT WHISPER…

I decided, after Morgan’s murder, that I would not allow myself to be a victim – I needed to take action in order to achieve justice for Morgan, as well as for so many other innocent victims in this world.

I get knocked down a lot – and yes, I feel sad and deflated – but the one thing I will never do is give up…every single day I wake up with a passion to get going, to take action and make something good happen. Don’t get me wrong, I make mistakes and I spend a lot of energy going in the wrong direction, but I continue to take action…I always pick myself up and try a different direction. The Universe seems to propel me when I am pointed in the right direction, just as it seems to knock me down when I am pointed in the wrong direction.

Joan Baez was right when she said, “ACTION IS THE ANTIDOTE TO DESPAIR”

As long as I keep moving forward, that little voice of despair seems to become a soft whisper, instead of an overwhelming thundering sound. Onward my friends!

November 28, 2018 – remembering that Morgan loved the Spice Girls…

Morgan grew up believing she could do anything she put her mind to. During the 4 months she was stalked she still believed this…she posted on her Facebook page (during the stalking) asking her friends if anyone was interested in joining her in a grassroots effort to start a Chapter of The National Organization for Women (NOW). NOW is an American feminist organization founded in 1966.

Here are some of the notes I found in her stuff after she died…yes, I have kept almost all of her things. She still inspires me and I love her.

VICTIMS & THEIR FAMILY & PETS BECOME FURTHER VICTIMS…

AEQUITAS

They work hard to hold offenders accountable & promote victim safety

“Typically the perpetrator harrasses and attacks the victims and victim’s family
Often the Offender’s family members and friends attack (they say don’t snitch to others),”  This has all happened in our case and to this day we are still being attacked.

“When members of the criminal justice system do not respond appropriately to intimidation and fail to correct system deficiencies that enable opportunities to intimidate they become inadvertent accomplices to the intimidators.”  This is also very true in our case – very sad, but very true…

“The victim, victim’s or witness’ immediate family, including spouses, children and pets become targets.” AEQUITAS, https://aequitasresource.org In our case even supporters of justice for Morgan have become targets…extremely outrageous behavior by the people involved in the murder and cover-up of our daughter’s murder!

Changes need to be made – #JusticeForMorgan & #JusticeForAllVictims