#Samson, sung by Regina Spektor…another sign

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Sat down to type on the computer just now, and a song started playing…Samson by Regina Spektor.  And here we go again – here comes a big punch to my heart, and the tears start to flow.  No way to stop them when this happens.

This was one of the songs that Morgan used to play on her keyboard, while singing the lyrics. I love hearing it – Morgan’s sweet voice was so similar to what I am hearing right now that I feel like I am listening to her sing again.  I remember one day, just weeks before she was gone forever, I turned on my phone’s recorder to try to record her, but alas she was just too intuitive, she stopped playing and turned and looked at me with a smile…so I don’t have that recording 🙁

I truly believe that music is another way we receive signs from our loved ones.  It has happened to me so many times since Morgan was taken from this world.  When it happens it is usually right when I need another reminder that she is still with me – she is saying, “Hi mom.”  It is painful, and yet comforting all at the same time…an important song starts to play loud enough to catch my attention.  Not a very subtle hint – more like a statement that is very profound.

I recently read the words of another mother of a young woman that had been murdered over 16 years ago, she said, “Behind every murder victim’s photo and behind every inaccurate article, there was an actual human being with a soul, who won’t go to college now or get married, whose brother will fall into drugs, whose father will have a heart attack, whose mother might never come out of her fog, whose family and community will never be the same because she isn’t here. Who might have done great things in this world, who was taken by darkness and we can’t see any light anymore……..”

This woman did a great job of explaining the domino effect that happens when evil takes an innocent life.  That selfish sick criminal act creates many, many co-victims – co-victims who’s lives are forever changed, and will never be the same.  It’s a hard thing to describe to someone that has never lost a loved one to a sudden act of violence. The pain, confusion, anger and helplessness that hits you causes you to want to want to fold into yourself and sob…sob like you never knew you could.  You want to become a ghost…you no longer want to continue on because you can never view the world as you had before.  Monsters become real and they look like regular humans.  You no longer trust, you hurt 24/7 and yet you sometimes manager to take a deep breath, pull yourself together and face another day.

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Another Sign From Above…a small blue dog?

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I just wanted to share this with all of you.  I know this is a terrible picture…all fuzzy, etc.  I am sorry for the quality of the picture, but I still wanted to share it with you.  I have been in the hospital again after having an acute and very severe allergic reaction – this time they put me into the critical care unit and monitored me until it was safe for me to come home.  Steve has been beside himself with worry, and I feel so bad for him.

But the story of the picture above starts this morning when I unpacked the overnight bag that Steve brought to the hospital for me with some clothes to come home in.  The bag he brought to me was a bag that I had bought a long time ago in Santa Fe, New Mexico while on a vacation with Steve & Morgan.  It had been a wonderful time for all of us, going to the art galleries and churches.  Somewhere during the trip Morgan put this little blue dog in the outside zipper pocket of my bag, and I had forgotten all about it.  That was Morgan 🙂

Morgan on a trip to Santa Fe

Morgan on a trip to Santa Fe

It is so amazing to me that out of nowhere I felt like I was receiving a sign from Morgan – that she is right there beside me.  I unpacked my bag and found this little plastic dog from Morgan…I cried.  They were tears of joy (because I felt she was right here with me) and tears from pain (knowing she can never be next to me again the way she was when she was alive).

So this fuzzy picture of a little plastic blue dog may not mean much to others, but to me it was definitely another sign from Morgan letting me know she is still right next to me and sending me healing light, and love from above.

May you all be blessed with the knowledge that love can NEVER be taken away…not even in death.

Stay Strong!

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“Obstruction of Justice” is a crime that should be applied to those who fail to do all in their power to resolve crimes when they clearly have the ability to.

Please read this – there is something you can do to help.  Right now there seems to be no oversight in our government.  Things can get approved to help our citizens and then people in power can sit back and refuse to be compelled to do what is expected.  This is OBSTRUCTION OF JUSTICE!  We need to use our voices – please write, call, use your voice.  If enough people stand up like our forefathers did we can make this country great again…we can protect our families from repeat offenders.

The following was written by Robert Wells, Families of Homicide and Missing Persons out of Colorado https://www.facebook.com/FOHVAMP/?fref=nf and their website is http://www.unresolvedhomicides.org

I just returned from another trip to our nations Capital regarding a cold case homicide database. The FBI started VICAP about 25 years ago, the Violent Criminal Apprehension Program. You can read about the database at ; https://www.fbi.gov/news/stories/2008/august/vicap_080408

This is a repository that includes cold homicide cases, however, it is voluntary. No one is required to report to it, participate with it, and it is only for law enforcement and no portion is open to general public access such as our Colorado database. Only 3,800 agencies have used it to date. It is a great start, but until the U.S. Congress compels all law enforcement agencies in every State and Territory to participate, it falls well short of our expectations, let alone our national needs.

ViCAP also offers additional assistance to its partners—including multi-agency coordination efforts, investigative support, case management help, crime mapping, case series matrices, and on-scene case assistance.

Evolving ViCAP access. Back in 1985, ViCAP information sat on a mainframe computer in Quantico, Virginia, accessible only to FBI personnel. Users usually submitted their case information to them through the mail.

In the short-term, the FBI states, law enforcement agencies will reap the benefits of this new and improved ViCAP. In the long-term, it’s the American public—kept safer from violent criminals—who will benefit.

For myself and others, this is the system that can house a mandatory reporting requirement for all law enforcement to report unresolved homicides to, on top of the other violent crimes the database addresses. The issue of additional funds for the project that is a continual discussion, becomes only a matter of data entry personnel who put this data into an already existing system. The only other issue we feel strongly about is this;

The general Public should be able to access a “front Door” portion of the system in order to look up their cases or cases of interest for general information and a primary point of contact with law enforcement should anyone wish to assist these cold cases with new information. Law Enforcement can then use a “Law Enforcement Only” access to review more detailed information on their case of interest. In this mobile society of today, a murderer from Colorado can be the neighbor of someone in Maryland, and in turn murderers from other States can be our next door neighbors right here in Colorado. Given our 1800 unresolved homicides and long term missing persons in Colorado alone, that’s over 1800 murderers living among us. When you look at the National Unresolved Homicide numbers (which are only estimates as we truly have only a very general idea to date) the figures are staggering. NPR reports one third of all homicides remain unresolved.

http://www.npr.org/…/open-cases-why-one-third-of-murders-in…

The following link gives you homicide rates from FBI Crime Statistics since 1950. Try doing the math, its unbelievable.

http://www.infoplease.com/ipa/A0873729.html

Please write your Congressman and Senator requesting that our U.S. Congress legislate the law enforcement reporting requirements that the State of Colorado has enacted for the reporting of cold case homicide and missing persons.

Your help will be greatly appreciated!

Finally, given the new tax revenues enjoyed in the State of Colorado, it is long overdue that Colorado fund the already passed cold case team for the Colorado Bureau of investigations. Again, lets pick up the phones and begin to write our State legislators and encourage them to fund what they have already passed. The funding of a Colorado cold case team housed at CBI. Contact us for more information if your interested in helping this cause!

A closing thought…For me, “obstruction of justice” is a crime that should be applied to those who fail to do all in their power to resolve crimes when they clearly have the ability to. The Governor of Florida vetoing a bill funding a cold case task force passed by the legislature there comes to mind…or not funding a cold case team for Colorado that has already be legislated.

Just a thought…

Robert M. Wells
Executive Director
FOHVAMP
www.fohvamp.org
[email protected]

Since 1985, our Violent Criminal Apprehension Program, or ViCAP, has linked an untold number of seemingly unrelated violent crime investigations…and helped state and local law enforcement solve many of those cases.
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COLOUR MY WORLD…JUSTICE FOR MORGAN

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Who is Morgan Jennifer Ingram?

Morgan was a woman who was literally all about color, from the artwork that she did, to how she looked at life, to the way she inspired others. “As time goes on” I realize just what an amazing woman she was and how she truly did “Colour” the world!

Take a moment to click on the YouTube link to listen to the recording of Chicago doing playing their hit song, “Colour My World.” The image of Morgan isn’t complete without it!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aaMEgI211Pg

Justice for Morgan!
For more information check out Morgan’s Stalking on facebook and her website @ http://morganingram.com/

Again, thank you so much Dennis Crowley from Wheels of Hope for the Missing.