November 29, 2018 – remembering all the fun trips with Morgan…

The pain is almost to much to bear…this Sunday it will have been 7 years since Morgan was brutally taken from us.  No one has the right to take another’s life…no one! Morgan didn’t want to go – she loved her life and she loved her family, her friends and her pets. She had her whole life mapped out – she was excited about her life, and then it was taken from her. She was so scared – the night before her murder she asked for a knife from her dad – he bought it for her and it was found next to her body in her bed the morning we found her. Before she came home that night she asked a friend’s Aunt if she could sleep over – she was afraid to sleep at home alone in her room, but unfortunately it didn’t work out with her friend’s Aunt. So then she drove, on her way home, to ask another male friend if he could sleep over, but again, that didn’t work out either…she came home that night exhausted, stressed and scared and in hindsight she was right…the “gut” feeling she had that she was in mortal danger was absolutely correct and her life was taken from her. What a coward to attack an innocent victim while they sleep – do you think they would have much of a chance of defending themselves? And yet she did fight back. You can witness that from the crime scene photos. Three nails on her right hand are torn, along with abrasions on the top and bottom of that hand…abrasion on her wrist and chest…blood on her head and mouth with a smashed nose and fat lip. Clean folded clothes tossed all over the floor of her room and the vacuum knocked over, amount much more evidence of a struggle, attack, theft and murder.

We will never give up fighting for justice for Morgan. Her family and friends are now her voice and we will not be silenced…there are too many of us – they can’t silence all of us.

Please keep Morgan in your heart and pray for justice in 2019.

November 28, 2018 – remembering that Morgan loved the Spice Girls…

Morgan grew up believing she could do anything she put her mind to. During the 4 months she was stalked she still believed this…she posted on her Facebook page (during the stalking) asking her friends if anyone was interested in joining her in a grassroots effort to start a Chapter of The National Organization for Women (NOW). NOW is an American feminist organization founded in 1966.

Here are some of the notes I found in her stuff after she died…yes, I have kept almost all of her things. She still inspires me and I love her.

Circumstances created who I am today…I will never be the same person I was before Morgan was stalked & murdered…

FOR ANYONE READING THIS, WHO MAY QUESTION WHY I WOULD ACCUSE SOMEONE OF BEING A STALKER…READ ABOVE FOR YOURSELF, MORGAN WAS STALKED & THERE WAS A SUSPECT – MORGAN WAS ALSO MURDERED, AND NO MATTER HOW HARD  YOU MAY TRY TO PRETEND IT DIDN’T HAPPEN – IT DID.

MORGAN WILL GET JUSTICE, BECAUSE I WILL NEVER STOP PUSHING FOR JUSTICE!

It is true – circumstances created who I am today, and I will never be the same person I was before my daughter was stalked & murdered…how could I be? My youngest child was murdered – there is no “moving on,” or “getting over it.” Nothing can “fix” my heartache. I have had to learn to continue to live without Morgan. Her father Steve, has had to learn to live without Morgan, as well as her sister and brother, grandparents, Aunts & Uncles, cousins, niece & nephew, friends and soulmates. And why? All because a sick and horrible monster decided to take her life.

Now we are getting closer to the holidays…those are some of the worst times. Everything I see, everything I cook, everything I do, reminds me of Morgan. From pomegranates to Nosa yogurt, all Morgan’s favorite foods tug at my heart. Seeing snow on the mountain top reminds me of Morgan saying, “Mom, look at the mountain, she changes every day and she is so beautiful.” I could go on and on about every single little thing that makes my heart feel like it’s being crushed, while I try so hard to keep from crying.

I know I am not alone, many other parents of murdered children feel the same way I do. It is one of the most extreme traumas any parent can experience, and it changes you forever. There is anger and deep pain.

I want justice for my precious daughter Morgan for many reasons, and one of those reasons is because I can’t bear the thought of another family going through what our family has gone through if and when Morgan’s murderer has the opportunity to kill again…so I continue on every day with my fight for justice…there really is no other choice, just like I am sure you would do if it were your daughter. Please pray for justice.

#JusticeForMorgan!