Remember the simple things in life – like brushing your child’s hair…

MorganwithMomI loved Morgan’s hair…actually I love everything about Morgan.  Her smile, her eyes, her voice, her cuddles, everything.  I miss everything about her – I miss Morgan.  Some mornings I wake up and just cry, I know it is the grieving process, but I still tell myself, “I want Morgan back, I want to wake up and see this was all just a bad dream.”  But that never happens, and it never will.  I know, just like all the other parents that have lost a child, that I will carry this pain with me until the day I die.  Don’t believe anyone that tells you it gets better over time – it doesn’t.  I think you just get better at managing it over the years.  But even if you get better at managing it – it still gets away from you at times when you least expect it, and the tears flow.

It always seemed like Morgan loved having me brush her hair and braid it.  Even when she was an adult, she would sometimes ask me if I could put a french braid in her hair before she went to bed.  I think she knew I enjoyed it and it became one of our bonding moments over the years that we did together.  Just like squeezing each others hands to say, “I love you,” without words, or doing a girl’s night together where we would both give ourselves facials and laugh at how funny we looked.  All those precious memories are all I have left of Morgan.  I am so grateful that I have them – nothing can take away the love of a child, not even death.

Parents never think they will loose a child.  We usually think we will pass before our children, and when a loved one is violently ripped from your life your whole world changes. I can no longer see Morgan’s bright light, but nevertheless I can “feel” it.  And I know others can too.  They tell me that the “felt” her right when they needed her.  She still comes to comfort them, and to let them know she is okay.

 

Accessory to Crime in Colorado – you can go to jail!

I would like everyone to know that there are people in Colorado that “know” what really happened to Morgan & “know” who was involved in her murder.  And for those people that “know” I would like everyone to be aware that they can & will be prosecuted themselves under CRS 18-8-105 if they do not come forward before someone else implicates them.

WARNING! It is illegal to assist a fugitive in any way. Accessory to Crime, CRS 18-8-105 Colorado Law states: “A person is an accessory to a crime if, with intent to hinder, delay or PREVENT the discovery, detection, apprehension, prosecution, conviction or punishment of another for the commission of a crime, he renders assistance to such person.” This crime can be up to a Class 4 FELONY, punishable by up to two (2) years in prison and/or a fine up to $500,000.00!

Morgan was stalked & murdered.  There is ample evidence of this, as well as who was involved, which makes it a capital crime with no time limit to prosecute.  So I would like to say this to everyone at this time…Steve & I will never stop fighting until EVERY SINGLE PERSON that has hindered, delayed or prevented the discovery, detection, apprehension, prosecution, conviction or punishment of another in the case of Morgan’s murder is found and prosecuted to the maximum extent possible.  Please know, this is my PROMISE!

Our family has not only suffered, and continues to suffer the loss of our sweet and loving Morgan, but we also suffer through the agony of exposing the cover-up and crime of murder in our daughter’s case.  No family should ever have to do that, and unfortunately I now know many other families that have.  This is so wrong!

If you know someone that may be criminally implicated in this crime as an “accessory to crime” and you care for that person at all I would strongly urge you to have them call or text the Northern Colorado Crime Stoppers tip line with any and all information regarding Morgan’s case.  http://www.nococrimestoppers.com.  By coming forward it will show they are no longer willing to be accessories to murder.

Crime Stoppers provides a way for members of the community, like you, to assist local law enforcement agencies in the fight against crime. Crime Stoppers knows “someone other than the criminal has information that can help solve a crime”. Crime Stoppers offers ANONYMITY to people who provide information about crimes AND pays rewards when the information supplied leads to an arrest.

Crime Stoppers provides three ways for you to provide vital information to law enforcement agencies to fight crime.  You may hold the key to solving a crime. 

1 – Phone Number:  1-800-222-TIPS (8477)

2 – Text to: 274637 (crimes) Keyword: NOCO [followed by your tip]
Click here to learn how to text a tip

3 – Internet/Web Tips:  Click here to submit a tip

There is also a way you can help solve Morgan’s case by donating to the reward fund at Crime Stoppers.  Your donation is completely tax refundable as they are a 501 (c)3 nonprofit organization.  They have put a direct link on the first page of their website, towards the bottom of the page, just for donations to the Morgan Ingram reward fund.  If you decide to contribute, even as little as a dollar, please know that our family is extremely grateful for your support.

To Donate to the Morgan Ingram Fund

 

To send us Donations via mail: Northern Colorado Crime Stoppers P.O. Box 18063 Boulder, CO 80308-8063 (if you choose this option please remember to write in the note section of your check that it is for the Morgan Ingram Fund).

Halloween 2011…I see her over and over again

morganhalloweenI see my sweet youngest daughter, over and over again every Halloween, just as you see her here in her mouse costume.  Did you notice the heart drawn on her shoulder?  She put hearts everywhere – it was a Morgan thing. 🙂  This was her last Halloween.  She was having fun with her friends after they all came over to carve pumpkins & roast the seeds.

I see Morgan’s sweet face and wish with all my heart that I could kiss and hug her again…I know until the day I die I will wish the same thing.  How could people live among us in this world that can take a life and not care?  I have been told over and over again that there are many people in this world that are sociopaths and for them other lives have no meaning.  But as a mother I want to scream, “Why my child?”  She did nothing wrong…she was a loving, giving soul.  Then I think back on all the children that have been taken over the years.  It doesn’t matter what they were like they were still loved and their parents are still fighting for justice.  You should hear some of their stories…it is just not right…no one has the right to end another’s life against their will.  It is not right, and never will be right.

It is really hard some days with all the holidays coming up.  I want my baby back, but I know I can’t have that one wish.  The pain never goes away and I am pretty sure it never will.  I am no longer the person I used to be because a piece of my heart called Morgan disappeared the day she died.  That missing piece will never be replaced.  But a funny thing happened tonight that made me want to write this blog.  I was lying in bed feeling very sad and all of a sudden I saw a “flash” picture of Morgan pop in front of my face, she was upside down smiling to surprise me.  It made me smile and disappeared just as fast as it came.  Maybe most of you think I must have been dreaming, but I wasn’t.  My eyes were closed, but I was wide awake and just sad – I can feel Morgan around me most of the time, but it is really a wonderful surprise when she pops in to cheer me up.  So now when I see her Halloween picture I am reminded of all the fun we all had and I am grateful for that.  Still sad because I can’t have future holidays with Morgan, but grateful for all the wonderful times we did have together…I feel blessed.

All evidence will not be revealed…

Aspen tree in fall

Aspen tree in fall

I would like to thank all of those many people that have written in to me (mostly privately) to try to help solve Morgan’s case.  I greatly appreciate all your ideas about how to go about finding more evidence, exposing those involved as well as getting her case opened.

What I would like you all to know is that we do have all the physical and documented evidence that shows this was a murder, as well as video and audio recordings of those who have engaged in this coverup.  And after all these years of doing our due diligence we know who was involved as well as who joined in to protect those involved, but this evidence is not for the people out on the Internet to see, most of who are connected to the criminals. Those people pretend to be armchair sleuths that know what they are doing, but they want to ignore the facts and instead state lies that are not even close to being true – things they have made up, kind of like the stalker’s family that sent me 3 different emails to tell me he wasn’t even in the state when Morgan was murdered, but clearly his work timesheet shows he checked in to work that very night at 2:00 am at a job that was less than a 5 minute drive from our house.  So no, this evidence is for law enforcement to use when the time comes for a REAL investigation, and please be assured it will be.

Cover-ups do happen and they are not always just about what you may think they are about.  This cover-up is very multilayered and involves more than just Morgan’s case.  It is very upsetting and sickening to now know what we have been up against from the very start.  I am actually glad we didn’t know at first or it may have been much for us and too overwhelming to continue on, so in a way ignorance is bliss.

From the very beginning I have tried to express to everyone that I would only be releasing a small portion of what we have and that is exactly what I have done.  The people involved in Morgan’s murder and cover-up would love nothing more than for me to show them all the evidence so they can try to figure out a way to spin it in their favor.  Remember when people know they have done something wrong, something that could possibly carry a jail sentence, that gives them all the more reason to keep covering up their actions.  I have never heard of many people that admit they were breaking the law when they know they are in danger of doing time in jail. So the bottom line is this…no one has received ALL the evidence YET and until we are assured that a law enforcement agency outside of Garfield County is ready to open an investigation ALL the evidence will not be released to the public.  Garfield County Sheriffs and Coroner can not investigate themselves period!  And they have already shown that they do not want to investigate those involved in Morgan’s stalking and murder so an investigation in a different jurisdiction will need to happen and luckily for Morgan she can still receive justice as there is NO statute of limitation on murder.

There are amazing detectives in the U.S. that really do care about solving crimes and we have been extremely blessed to have had some of them involved in Morgan’s case.  This case will get opened and there will be justice.  It won’t bring Morgan back…she should be off on another adventure between college and her passion for travel and women’s rights, but she has been taken against her will and is no longer here, so we have to be her voice and stand up for justice.  And we are and alway will be her voice, as well as the voice of other victims.

And on a side note, for the others involved in hiding the truth, you know who you are…you are co-conspiritors that are involved in covering up Morgan’s murder – you might not want to be the last one to come forward with the truth because if you are you will also be implicated and arrested as a co-conspiritor, ultimately you will be involved in a murder case.  Just know there will be justice for Morgan and all other victims of stalking!

 

WHAT IF?

MorganandWyI find the best way to get to an answer is to “ask” a question.  So I would like to ask “what if?

I hope people will understand when I talk about the what if’s of the past.

Have you ever had something horrible happen in your life and then you wondered what if you had done something different?

This happened to me so many times in the first month after Morgan was murdered that I lost count.  I’m sure it is something many parents of murdered children experience.  In Morgan’s case one of the what if’s that I thought was, “What if she hadn’t had her little puppy Wylah May, would she have gotten away in time and would she still be alive?”

So earlier today I was talking to my sister-in-law about Morgan.  Just so you know, I think my sister-in-law is one of the kindest and most logical people in this world.  She is also a mom of four, and a good listener.  Her family is everything to her, as it should be, and she is a great person to talk to.  Back in 2011, after the first month of Morgan’s stalking, she was one of the many relatives that spoke with Morgan, Steve and I about ideas that we could try in order to stop the stalking.

Today I admitted to her that in the first month after Morgan’s murder I was so angry that I even felt that her little puppy Wylah May was partially responsible, as she was the reason Morgan would not leave when the danger was starting to become obvious to so many people.  It is ludicrous to think about it now, but it is true…I even blamed the puppy.  I know it sounds awful, but at the time I felt that if it hadn’t been for her puppy Morgan most likely would have left Colorado in time and maybe she would be alive today.

Morgan’s sister had been franticly calling Morgan asking her to please get on a plane and fly to the west coast to stay with her – she was so worried that something bad was going to happen.  Morgan adored her sister, but said she wouldn’t leave because of her puppy.  Her sister was living in an apartment that did not allow dogs.

Then Morgan’s Godfather called her and asked her to please come stay with him and his wife in Kauai to get out of Colorado, as he feared she was in a dangerous situation, but Morgan told him she did not want her puppy to be quarantined when she arrived into Kauai, so she wouldn’t do it.

At the same time Morgan’s soulmate had been calling her and begging her to fly out to Georgia to get out of Garfield, but again she could not bring her puppy.  So finally at the beginning of her last week I spoke candidly with her about everyone’s concerns.  I told Morgan that I too would feel so much better if she did go away for her safety, at least for a little while, just until her dad and I got the rest of the house packed up and moved, as that was our plan – we did not want our family to continue to live in the house where Morgan was being terrorized – we wanted her hidden from her stalker.  Morgan was happy we were going to move.  She had already packed up a few bins with her books and personal things, which were staked up in our dining room, but she was adamant that school would be over in 2 weeks so she wanted to wait at least that long. She said she would consider leaving for a week or so, but she did not want to just leave her puppy any longer than that because Wylah was too young and she felt that she needed her.  I tried to reason with her, but to no avail.  When Morgan made up her mind that was that.  She loved her puppy so much.

One week after my talk with Morgan about leaving she was dead, and not only was I blaming myself for not insisting she get away, but I was also blaming her puppy for making her feel like she couldn’t leave.  I explained to my sister-in-law how bad I felt for blaming her little puppy – especially the sweet adorable innocent little creature that Morgan loved so much.  It obviously wasn’t the puppies fault, it wasn’t anyones fault except the person(s) that killed her.  And you know what my sister-in-law said?  She asked how in the world could anyone ever think that Morgan would have committed suicide?  She was a victim of stalking, she was exhausted and frightened because of her stalker, but she loved her puppy so much that she wouldn’t leave for safety because she didn’t want to leave her behind.  She said it is absolutely ridiculous to think she would take her own life and leave her puppy behind.

This was something I had never even thought of because I knew Morgan had not taken her own life, and this hit me like a rock… how can officials decide to call someone a suicide after 8 months of insisting she died of natural causes, without any investigation, then threatening me when I wanted evidence from her death looked at by others who did not believe for one second that she had really died from natural causes?  If they had done any investigation or asked any questions it would be absolutely obvious she did not commit suicide…they did not interview her teachers, employer or her friends or family and even with all the physical and psychological evidence contradicting the opinion of both natural causes and suicide they still cling to the wrong conclusion.  Why?  I guess you can ask any seasoned investigator and they will readily explain the answer to that question…it is because they “know” by writing down the manner of death to be “natural” or “suicide” it will keep the case from ever being officially investigated.  It is something that has happened again and again over time. The things you learn when your child is killed are sometimes the things you would never have believed…officials have ways to prevent an investigation when it suits them. I have been asked so many times how can a healthy 20 year old woman die from natural causes, who had just seen her Gynecologist for her annual checkup less than two days before.  She was in excellent health, and all of a sudden we were being told she died from a disease she didn’t even have – how can that be? To these experts it meant one thing – they knew, but I didn’t understand, I was still too trusting of the authorities. I didn’t get it back then, I wanted answers that made sense. Morgan was dead and the answers I was getting from Garfield were said to be just about typos, and cut and paste errors, and then I was told by the lead detective that if I found a picture of Morgan wearing each and every piece of jewelry that was missing from her room then they could look into it. For seasoned veterans of homicide the handwriting was on the wall, for whatever reason a coverup was in play. I wouldn’t figure that out for a long time, I still trusted and believed.

So with that I ask another what ifwhat if you were Morgan’s mother and you knew she did not want to leave her puppy behind in order to be in a safer place, would you believe all of a sudden she would commit suicide and leave her puppy behind? After realizing this would you believe what the officials in Garfield County were trying to make you believe, even though all the evidence and forensic specialists contradicted both manners of death?

If you get a chance let me know how you would have felt if you were in my position, and what you would have done.

Thanks so much – always question things, because not everything you are being told, even by people in positions of authority, are not always telling the truth. Just watch the news, every day there is another story about a sheriff or policeman who got caught crossing the line, it happens. In your darkest hour you should not have to be figuring out if law enforcement is there to help you and cares about solving the horrific crime, or if they are lying to you, and busy making sure the truth stays out of sight. Even though it is a small percentage, trust me, it is something you must do – you must question. Because as the days crawl by it won’t get any easier. It has not for me, and it has not for any one of the other parents I’ve spoken with over the years who found themselves in similar positions.

And I would love to hear how you would have handled trying to get Morgan to leave for safety, even though she didn’t want to leave her puppy, with only a couple of weeks left of college, and at the same time a predatory stalker closing in.