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Not Everyone Feels Their Humanity…

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being human

It has been almost 4 years since Morgan was murdered…yes, murdered in what was a premeditated murder.  That’s what you call it when the murder is planned ahead of time, the instruments to cause such a death are brought with you, and then taken away by you.  It is considered a planned murder especially when the crime scene is “staged” as it was in Morgan’s crime scene.

I can’t seem to get into the mind of these delusional people that find pleasure in stalking their prey, then torturing and murdering that prey, I have tried to understand what they could possibly be thinking, but I just can’t seem to be able to comprehend how they can  think the way they do.  The only thing that makes sense to me so far is that these predators are not like the general population, they are sociopaths and psychopaths, maybe they were not even born with natural humanity – they have absolutely NO FEELINGS, no soul, it does not bother them to inflict pain upon others, in fact to do it and get away with it just bolsters their feeling of superiority over others, which in some cases is extremely important to them, especially if they perceive that they do not have all the opportunities or gifts their target has.

That being said what I wanted to talk about in this post is about humanity in people that are good people.  Humanity that we are born with, but then somewhere along the way we forget about that humanity.  There have been so many people in positions of authority that could have stopped this deliberate attempt to deceive – a deception that has been perpetrated by the Garfield County sheriff & coroner’s offices.  There are people in those very agencies that know the truth, but have not come forward in order to keep their jobs, but their silence is at the expense of sacrificing their humanity.  Doing THE RIGHT THING isn’t always the easy thing.  When you take the easy way out by looking the other way and doing what you know is wrong…something that is a lie, a lie that you don’t speak up about it goes against your humanity, and it will end up eating away at you for the rest of your life.  You might be able to push it down most of the time, but it will always be there every time you look in the mirror.  It becomes YOUR LIFE’S LESSON.

Then there are others far more removed from Garfield County – let’s say at the state level.  Yes, there is home rule in Colorado so the sheriff & coroner can sit back and say they will never allow anyone to come in and investigate Morgan’s case, BUT there are ways the Governor & Attorney General’s office can take over when there is an obvious case of a cover-up as it is in Morgan’s case.  If the representatives at the state level decide not to investigate Morgan’s case and continue putting us in a circle, stating they can not do anything, then they are sacrificing their humanity as well.  To not investigate Morgan’s murder, as she was a victim of an active felony stalking investigation at the time of her suspicious death, and since there is a huge amount of physical evidence that contradicts the manner of death that Garfield County would like everyone to believe, is again turning a blind eye on evil and going against their own humanity.  Everyone in this world is given chances to make the right choice…to help their fellow human beings.  If they take the easy way out all they are doing is allowing a murderer(s) to remain free in order to stalk and murder again and again.  It will be on them for choosing the easy way out.

Now, last but not least are the people in the Roaring Fork Valley in Colorado that KNOW things about Morgan’s stalking and murder…and there are quite a few.  They know they know, some pretend they really don’t know anything because they are fearful of retribution.  They fear the rath of the perpetrators, they fear the sheriffs, they fear what their other friends will think about them (one young man actually told me Morgan is gone, there is nothing I can do about that now, but ______ is still here so I have to change my support to her.  I get it – they have to live in the same place as the perpetrators, but does that make it right?  Is covering up evil the right thing to does that make them just as evil?  What I do know is this…these people that are covering for the criminals will live with the knowledge that they did the wrong thing till the day they die.  Consciously they may not realize how much damage they are creating in their world, but subconsciously their soul understands, when given the chance to do the right thing, to be human, they know they have failed that test, and will know it in their very souls for the rest of their human lives.  Also, what they may not know is that the law views people as co-conspiritors when they are aware of a crime, but choose to cover it up by not coming forward.  Yep – it’s true.  Not only will your own soul haunt you to the day you die, but if someone comes forward before you and implicates you as knowing what really happened then legally you can become a co-conspiritor in a capital crime.  Just food for thought.

So once again I will say it has been almost 4 years since Morgan’s murder.  Morgan needs justice.  Morgan’s friends and family need justice.  All other victims/survivors of stalking need to see Morgan get justice.  Why?  Because if with all the evidence in Morgan’s case, crime scene 101 basic real evidence, can’t get people to open her investigation so she can receive justice then how will any of us ever feel like we are safe?  People will loose even more trust in our system…a system that is suppose to insure us life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness.  Are these all just words or do they mean something?

 

About the disappearing ranch…

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Aspen Equestrian Ranch and TCThis is a picture Morgan took of the ranch behind our house.  The ranch was originally called Preshana and had been around for many, many years, but was later bought and renamed Aspen Equestrian Ranch.  As per the Post Independence, “Preshana in the late 1970s and ’80s, was a facility for horse-boarding, equestrian events and polo. . When our family moved into the neighborhood called Aspen Equestrian Estates we boarded Morgan’s horse TC at that ranch.  You can see TC (the brown & white Paint horse) on the left side of the photo.

Morgan was so happy that TC was so close and loved to walk down the street to go be with her horse.  After Morgan’s murder TC was never the same.  He knew she was gone, he loved her and I believe he knows who was involved, lucky for them horses can’t talk, or can they? About 2 months after Morgan’s murder I woke up one morning after a horrible dream about TC – the dream left me with a feeling that he was in danger and I had to move him FAST.  So I did – I was able to move him to another ranch only a couple of hours after I woke from that awful dream.  I was able to breath a sigh of relief.  Morgan loved that horse – she used to say she felt like he was her little brother.  Kind of strange considering he was a 1,200 lb horse.

Then sometime after that the ranch was bulldozed down to the ground.  Strange – right?  It’s being used as polo grounds again, which is good I guess, but I still have to wonder if the razing of the ranch had anything to do with the fact that the equine amitriptyline that killed Morgan most likely came from that ranch.  Just some more food for thought.

And then the word #stalker came into play – another story that needs to be shared

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stopvictimblamingPlease read the story below – I really shouldn’t say it is a story because what it truly is is another human being’s current reality due their stalker.  It is horrifying, it has affected her children, it has completely changed her life, and it is so very wrong. The judicial system needs to understand how serious stalking is. Changes need to be made – criminals should not have more rights then their victims!

This is an email I received this morning:

My case with a stalker is going to jury trial very soon.  Due to this, I’m doing my research on Victim Blaming as I’m sure the defense will use this heinous tactic, and that is how I found your site.  My story began 6 months ago while breaking it off with a short-lived relationship.  Although, due to an alcohol problem with this man, I did get  a simple domestic violence restraining order, which of course I thought would be all I would need.  That day would prove to hold so very much more.  I now carry 3 criminal protective orders, he has been incarcerated for 2 months on a no bail warrant.  All I wanted was peace, but his insistence that God told him not to stop pursuing me, several texts and voice mails, him showing up at my house refusing to leave, and my visions of waking up with him standing over me, the “If I can’t have you….” attitude, and finally after several times of calling law enforcement and 2 arrests of violation, the word “stalker” came into play.  He found my new phone #, found me on social media, and followed family members.  One message reads: “If I can’t find you, I’ll have 20 people looking for you”.  As of today (10.13.2015), a new judge said he would grant another bail hearing next Tuesday.  Of course when you’ve gone into hiding twice, and you are looking for yet another safe place, this decision fills you with fear.  The word “Stalker” is used lightly, as it was with me before this time.  But my world has now become a reality of always looking over my shoulder, protecting my loved ones and myself from whatever the “next step”, the “next move” could be.  In all of our minds no one wants to believe these things truly happen, and of course we would rather blame the victim with “if only they had done something different”.  I know I will face that kind of mentality soon as part of the defense, and I dread the day I re-live it all in a twisted story by a defense attorney.  It is my hope my story will one day inspire others to do what they must to protect their family, and never minimize what a person is capable of.  Stalking is a very real crime and like Morgan, your first prison is when it all starts.  My business was shut down, my life has had to start over, and the paralyzing effects of fear are more than one can bear.  Leaving your home alone, being alone, and even falling asleep become burdens you try to avoid.  My heart goes out to all victims of any crime, and if any have had to experience victim blaming, I’m positive it made a negative emotional impact in an already devastating circumstance.  Thank you for allowing me to e-mail this to you, it was only today in what was supposed to be a Felony Settlement Conference (another one) that the decision to revisit bail was put on calendar.  The plethora of charges against continue to mount with not only the felonies, but 8 misdemeanor charges as well.   Please keep me in prayer, and tell others to always be very careful.  If there is one red flag, there are many, many more.  Be safe as you possibly can always.  This is my new reality.

Then she wrote:

Truly one of the hardest things to deal with is the “unknown”  Never knowing the next move, the next step. You can try to block it but it sits in wait in your head. I am not looking forward to taking the stand. I’m doing my homework on Victim Blaming which is a natural response in most people’s minds. People want to believe others would not instill fear, and there had to be a reason, thus blame the victim. In my case he believed in his head, we were going to be together no matter what. It got to a point my 14 yr old son slept with a kitchen knife next to him, my daughter moved in with me.  Two months ago I moved and have basically been in hiding even with him incarcerated. Of course he proclaims innocence but doesn’t realize imprisoning someone emotionally, constant emotional manipulation, is wrong. No one knows if he will attack, take hostage, to get what he wants or not. That is the worst part. And now the judicial system may consider bail after two months of no bail. I want what is fair and just for all of course. It seems as though me having to give up my life, rebuild, start over and continue to wonder when and if he will be out again, does not come into play.  This story needs to be told for anyone who remotely believes it can never happen.
Please post my story, and please feel free to use this as well.  Maybe with more awareness people will realize “stalking” is not only physical, you become emotional prey for the predator. They stalk your mind in order to get their way, and you must do all you can do to protect yourself because, despite what others believe, you do not know what the next step will be, and it must be stopped before it is taken.  Be strong as possible. Be wise. Never minimize.  And do your homework, research, be prepared if it comes to a courtroom.
I hope after reading this you will have a more intimate understanding about the emotional devastation that stalking creates.  Her story should be shared as often as you can in order to help raise awareness about the seriousness of stalking.  Thanking you ahead of time for sharing!

A Must Read – Every Move You Make, by Victoria Heywood

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This is a must read!  The new book that just came out, Every Move You Make by Victoria Heywood includes a chapter about Morgan’s stalking.  

I just finished reading it and I must say it is an extremely well researched book and a very powerful read…I could not put it down. You can get the Kindle copy on Amazon for just $9.99.

Every Move You Make: Chilling True Stories of Stalkers and Their Victims starts out with the author talking about what makes stalkers considered stalkers…typologies, etc. (please pay close attention to the explanation about predatory stalkers, this was exactly the type of stalker Morgan had) then she recounts the story of her own stalking.  There are good tips given for app security, etc.  Included in the book are stories about a death trap from a Facebook stalker, a murdered woman at the hands of her stalker/fiancé as she was planning on leaving him, the stalker that made it over the walls of Buckingham Palace to get to Princess Kate, the stalking of Princess Diana, the stalking of Alec Baldwin, Michael Douglas, and much more.

After you have read the book I would love to hear from you – please let me know if you were illuminated by anything you hadn’t previously known before about stalkers.