And again…here is a picture of Morgan – peaceful, loving Morgan.  Of all the people in the world to lie about how could they have chosen to lie about Morgan? Those who knew Morgan, those whose lives were touched by Morgan know that the things these “others” have said about Morgan are not true.  People that NEVER knew Morgan at all think they can just make up things about Morgan…and they can, but do other people believe their lies?

Did you know Morgan was a voracious reader? In her room she had many, many books.  In the bins that she had already started to pack up for our move, she had many, many books.  She was a student of LIFE.  She wanted to know everything, and anything.  She did research constantly teaching herself how to crochet, knit, read music, play the piano, learn different types of yoga & languages, meditation, how to prepare healthy organic foods, bake, paint, create crafts, design clothing, and much more.  She did not sit around playing video games or partying, she liked to be fully engaged in life – not avoiding it.  I guess the way she lived her life, in a way, angered some other young adults that felt as though Morgan thought they were beneath her.  They were wrong – Morgan did not think about them at all.  She was only concerned about how she was living her life.

Morgan was a passionate student of philosophy, and she studied many different religions.  She had many passions in her life, but her main passion was life itself.  Just walking around town she would stop to admire a beautiful flower, or a dragonfly momentarily touching down.  Driving through the valley as a passenger in the car she would point out how beautiful and different Mt. Sopris was on that day, compared to the day before.  She would point out the elk in a distant field, or get excited when we drove by someone she knew.

She would “squeal” when her friends would run up to her on the street – always so excited to see them, even if she had just seen them the day before.  That was Morgan.  She was sweet, kind, loving and appreciated her life.  She never took life for granted – she was passionate about life.  For the person she was I am grateful – she lived her short 20 years to the fullest, in kindness & love, without regrets.

And her life should never have been taken from her by jealous and obsessed people that have no real purpose in their lives.  These people that were involved in her murder know exactly who I am speaking about, as I know they read this blog. I would like them to know they have been lucky up until now, but that will not continue to be the case.

Until now the Garfield County sheriff & coroner have been able to cover-up Morgan’s murder by using misleading and false statements, along with both of the incorrect manners of death, all in order to derail any investigation into her suspicious death.

Original jurisdiction (Home Rule) in Colorado allows local authorities, like the coroner and sheriff, to keep any other law enforcement agency from investigating. It is a law that allows an agency that is corrupt to exist in Colorado. Fact: Morgan was a victim of an active felony stalking investigation at the time of her murder.  Fact: The ONLY drugs found in Morgan’s body were date rape drugs, ALL were listed on the Sexual Assault Panel at the lab.  Fact: Both of Morgan’s toxicology reports dispute the coroner’s findings of natural causes and then suicide. Fact: There is evidence that her body was moved postmortem (after she was already dead), it was a staged crime scene.

Morgan’s case will be investigated, and there is more than enough evidence already to have people stand trial for her murder.  It won’t bring Morgan back, but hopefully it will bring about changes in the way victims of stalking and murder are treated, and will make very needed changes in Colorado law.  We will absolutely NOT give up until these things have happened.

This brings me to one of the reasons I am writing this post – please know that we do not live in a world in which we are able to sit back and not make choices – inaction is a choice.  The Garfield County Sheriff has created false statements about Morgan, including trying to misdirect people into thinking she wasn’t even a victim of stalking, which is absurd.  She was a victim of an active felony stalking investigation at the time of her murder!  But I know exactly why the sheriff has chosen the stance he is taking – he can not afford an investigation into Morgan’s murder, because he can not afford an investigation into his own office.

To Morgan’s murderer: Heaven & earth are coming for you & for all those that have helped you, and are continuing to help you. Morgan’s life mattered.  Morgan was loved and had her whole life ahead of her. 

If someone chooses to stay silent about a criminal act, an act that they know is criminal, then they are not only morally wrong, they may also be charged as an accessory to a crime, and that also goes for people in law enforcement as well.  I know there are officers in the Garfield County Sheriff’s office that know the truth about Morgan’s case, and have not come forward yet.  I’m sure they fear they may loose their jobs if they come forward, but then again, is it right to stay silent?  What happens when the truth comes out and these officers are questioned?  What happens when more than one officer start to tell the truth?  This recently happened in Pueblo, CO in the case of the missing young woman Kelsie Schelling http://www.chieftain.com/news/crime/3969128-120/schelling-police-pueblo-case.  The police officers in Pueblo towed the big blue line until too much evidence came out, and the media, as well as the justice system, became involved.  Those officers finally did come out with the truth about what happened, against their superior’s wishes.  In my heart of hearts I believe that most people deep down inside are good people, and when they know something terrible is being covered up they will come forward because it is the right thing to do…but maybe I am too much of a dreamer.  Maybe it won’t happen until indictments are made.

I loved Morgan’s hair…actually I love everything about Morgan.  Her smile, her eyes, her voice, her cuddles, everything.  I miss everything about her – I miss Morgan.  Some mornings I wake up and just cry, I know it is the grieving process, but I still tell myself, “I want Morgan back, I want to wake up and see this was all just a bad dream.”  But that never happens, and it never will.  I know, just like all the other parents that have lost a child, that I will carry this pain with me until the day I die.  Don’t believe anyone that tells you it gets better over time – it doesn’t.  I think you just get better at managing it over the years.  But even if you get better at managing it – it still gets away from you at times when you least expect it, and the tears flow.

It always seemed like Morgan loved having me brush her hair and braid it.  Even when she was an adult, she would sometimes ask me if I could put a french braid in her hair before she went to bed.  I think she knew I enjoyed it and it became one of our bonding moments over the years that we did together.  Just like squeezing each others hands to say, “I love you,” without words, or doing a girl’s night together where we would both give ourselves facials and laugh at how funny we looked.  All those precious memories are all I have left of Morgan.  I am so grateful that I have them – nothing can take away the love of a child, not even death.

Parents never think they will loose a child.  We usually think we will pass before our children, and when a loved one is violently ripped from your life your whole world changes. I can no longer see Morgan’s bright light, but nevertheless I can “feel” it.  And I know others can too.  They tell me that the “felt” her right when they needed her.  She still comes to comfort them, and to let them know she is okay.