Shocking But True!

shockMorgan was stalked for 4 months, it was a felony stalking case run by the Garfield County Sheriff’s office, a felony stalking detective was assigned to her case, then only 2 days before her murder we were warned by this detective that he believed her stalker was going to escalate so he would be assigning extra patrols on our home.  Morgan was killed during an active investigation into her stalking only 4 days before she was supposed to testify on camera about her stalkers.

Does anyone really believe that the disposal of a witness to save ones own skin should be allowed?  What kind of world is this?  This is just all too wrong!  Is this how our nation would like to see it’s victims of stalking treated?  Are victims just disposable?

Morgan has gone out of the darkness and into the light, but for others left behind it is still painful and very dark, knowing that her murderer(s) are still running free and they can do the same thing again – and odds are they will do the same thing again.

This was the perfect storm of life-changing proportions.  You can be as hyper-vigilant as you can but there is always that crack…the crack, the perfect storm, whatever you would like to call it when things go wrong and your guard is let down, and these stalkers creep in to your space and destroy everything…they creep, they slime, they move quickly undetected because they are sick – they are cowards – they are criminals.  As the mother of the female accomplice once complained to her friend, her daughter has no soul…I think this mother knew something was very wrong with her daughter, even back then.  It’s hard for me to think of a mom that can tell her friend that she is worried that her daughter has no soul.  Maybe she could tell her daughter did not have feelings like most humans?  I am sure this mom (and she knows exactly who she is) knows her daughter was involved in the stalking and murder of Morgan. I wonder how she sleeps at night? I wonder if she, just like her daughter, has no soul?

Not one day goes by that my husband Steve and I don’t think about Morgan.  Today was another hard one.  I miss her, I wish she were still here.  She would have graduated college, taken her LSAT’s, applied to law school, and been doing an internship by now.  She would look so grown up and would have loved to go camping on the beach with her little niece and nephew.  Today my granddaughter showed me a picture of Morgan.  It was a picture Morgan had taken for her graduation invitations.  My granddaughter asked how old Morgan was in the photo.  I told her she was 19 and it was for her graduation invitations because she had completed her first 2 years of college and received her AA degree.  My smart little granddaughter knew I had been crying on and off all day as the pain of missing Morgan was just too much and she said to me, “Nana think about what Morgan looks like right now because she’s older now, she is so beautiful.”  I think she was trying to cheer me up and direct me to remember that Morgan is still here and always will be, just not the way she was before.

I am so very grateful to have such loving and wise grandchildren.  They keep my heart from totally disappearing at times when the heaviness of this world seems to be crushing down upon it.

Going forward, if any of you have any wonderful ideas about how to raise even more awareness please write in to me and let me know…forward movement is the best medicine for my soul.  Thank you!

STAND & FIGHT FOR WHAT IS RIGHT!

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Our family is still standing & fighting for what is right – and we will never quit!  Behind the scenes we are pursuing our fight in many different directions, all at the same time.  One of those directions is a writing campaign that I am starting.  I would like the esteemed Senators and Legislators in Colorado to know what has happened to one of their own citizens, and at the same time offer them the chance to assist us in our fight for justice.

I am drafting a letter and would appreciate any feedback you would like to give to me.  It is so hard to keep a letter to officials short, considering there is so much credible information about our daughter’s stalking and murder.  Anyway, here is what I have come up with so far.  Let me know what you think.

On August 2, 2011 our 19-year-old daughter Morgan Ingram became the victim of a predatory stalker.  Seven weeks after her stalking started, and after numerous calls to the Garfield County Sheriffs, it became an active felony stalking investigation case #11-20197.

Then four months after her stalking had started, and only two days after the felony stalking detective warned us that her stalker was most likely going to escalate, we found her lifeless body in her bed.  This was the morning of December 2, 2011.

We were told it was a suspicious death, but we were also told that very same morning by the felony stalking detective that her stalker had nothing to do with her death, he said it was a mystery.  Then the coroner’s office told us her manner of death was natural causes, from a disease she never had, and had never been treated for.  Her doctors, other medical experts, as well as Dr. Michael Dobersen (Medical Examiner and now retired Coroner for Arapahoe County) tried to communicate with the Garfield County coroner’s office to let him know she did not die from natural causes, but to no avail, the Garfield County coroner Trey Holt would never speak to us or anyone else about our daughter’s case.

We continued to ask questions, then came the threats by the pathologist (Dr. Robert Kurtzman – he did Morgan’s autopsy).  He was the pathologist who had been hired by the coroner.  Eight months after Morgan’s death they changed her manner of death to suicide, exactly what the pathologist had threatened to do.  Sheriff Lou Vallario went on the news to say he stands behind the coroner’s conclusion of suicide, but what he doesn’t tell anyone is that the coroner did no investigation, the coroner received all his “facts” from the sheriffs, so of course the sheriff was satisfied.  It took us many heart-wrenching years to uncover the falsified documents and statements, illegal acts, as well as to receive the crime scene photos that show it was foul play, and that our daughter fought for her life. She had torn nails, abrasions, swollen lips, blood and matted hair.  Her pants were unzipped and unbuttoned and she had bodily fluids on her chest that showed up under the UV light, spots that were never tested. Her bottom bed sheet was missing off her bed, as were her pajamas, jewelry, and her driver’s license.  The sheriffs had excuses for everything, but the truth was that she was assaulted in her bed, and murdered. Dr. Dobersen established that her body had been moved postmortem, after she was already dead (which means someone was in her room and moved her/staged her body) – the sheriffs knew this fact that very morning, but conspired to cover it up. No parent should have to be their own investigator, and fight against police corruption at the same time – the pain is indescribable.

After all these years of doing our own due diligence we now know with complete certainty that Morgan was murdered, and both the manner of deaths that Garfield County declared (first natural causes, and then suicide) intentionally derailed any investigation into her suspicious death. Our daughter was killed during an active investigation into her stalking and died after being injected with a massive amount of a date rape drug called Amitriptyline. She also had five other date rape drugs in her stomach that had not gone into her bloodstream, as she was already dead when those drugs were put into her stomach.  This we learned from an esteemed forensic toxicologist that volunteered his time to help us with Morgan’s case. She had no alcohol or illegal drugs in her body – just date rape drugs, which the coroner never even mentioned on his reports, but they were clearly on her toxicology reports, and the lab that ran her tests confirmed that they were detected, and were in her body.

Even presented with more and more evidence over the years the sheriff of Garfield County, Lou Vallario, has refused to ever open an investigation into her murder.  He has refused attempts by the Colorado Bureau of Investigation when they asked permission to investigate, he has even become hostile with everyone involved when Crime Stoppers agreed to post a reward for any tips about our daughter’s stalking and suspicious death. To date the Garfield County sheriff’s office has gotten away with answering any questions about Morgan’s death with scripted, false, one-line answers all revolving around the justification that no investigation was needed.  They have no fear of anyone digging any deeper, and up until now their strategy has worked.

Original jurisdiction (Home Rule) in Colorado allows local authorities, like the coroner and sheriff, to keep any other law enforcement agency from investigating. It is a law that allows an agency that is corrupt to exist in Colorado. This law needs to be changed!  So here we are almost 5 years later still fighting to have an investigation opened into our daughter Morgan’s murder.  The loss of a child is devastating to any parent, and to have to fight for years for justice is almost unbearable.

After living in Colorado since the 70’s we were forced to leave in 2013 (2 years after Morgan’s murder) out of fear for our lives, after we were targeted, threatened and attacked.  Whether this was by the stalker(s), their families, or the sheriffs we don’t know, but at the advice of the Colorado Office of Victim’s Rights we entered the Victim’s Address Confidentiality Program in another state where we continue our fight for justice. We have been blessed with many good people in the state of Colorado supporting us and trying to help us get justice for Morgan, but at this time no one has been able to get her investigation opened.

And this brings me to the purpose of this email. We would like you to be an advocate for our daughter, as well as all other victims of stalking in Colorado. The Attorney General’s office said legally they can not investigate our daughter’s murder unless the Governor orders them to do so, again because of original jurisdiction. We would be so grateful if you could speak on our behalf to the Governor.  Please help us by being a voice for our daughter.  Morgan as well as other murdered victims in Colorado can not speak for themselves any longer and they need someone that cares.

Governor Hickenlooper received a petition from us with thousands of signatures and comments from supporters asking him to request the Attorney General’s office to investigate Morgan’s stalking and murder, but we were told by his office that he can not do so because of the look of impropriety…how can that be if the Attorney General’s office has told us that the Governor would be the only one in the state of Colorado that could order them to investigate?  So that is where we are stuck and that is where we are hoping that you can help us.

Thank you for taking the time to hear our plea.  We hope you will reach out to us with any questions you may have.

Sincerely,

Steve & Toni Ingram

 

Can I apologize on behalf of humanity?

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“You must not lose faith in humanity. Humanity is like an ocean; if a few drops of the ocean are dirty, the ocean does not become dirty.”

~ Mahatma Gandhi 

And with that being said I would like to share with you something a new supporter from Canada wrote.  It is beautiful, and to the point – I cried.  She hit it the nail right on the head…throughout this whole ordeal of trying to get justice for our precious daughter Morgan there have been many moments that I felt like giving up on humanity – but then I realized there are thousands of supporters that have written in to me over the years, and all of them are sickened by what happened to Morgan, and they all want justice.  I then understand this world really is made up of many more people that care than the few evil ones that have no soul…so I keep up the fight, knowing truth will win in the end, and evil will not prevail.  The small handful of people, coming on the Internet under many, many “anonymous/fake” accounts are intent on spreading lies and whipping people up in order to create doubt and confusion about Morgan’s case…these people are known by me…I also know they have an agenda.  They feel that people are too ignorant to ask questions or do the research to find the truth.  They feed off the population that only wants to read salacious headlines, but in reality this type of victim bashing happens more and more these days with the widespread use of the Internet.  Yes, it is wrong.  Yes, it destroys our humanity if we go down that path, but we all are given a choice in life, and sadly enough we can not choose humanity for people that don’t care.

This beautiful and profound soul wrote:

Dear Toni and Steve Ingram, First and foremost, my deepest sympathy to you both and also to your family. The depths of your loss is palpable in every word you’ve written on your blog. Just to imagine enduring such a tragedy takes my breath away and leaves me with a nearly unbearable ache inside. I have one child, a daughter, who is all too quickly approaching 15. I, like you, would hope to protect her with my dying breath. She is not perfect but she is wonderfully, uniquely ours and Morgan’s story makes me want to hide her away from the evil that exists in this world. I have a confession to make and I’m terribly ashamed. I have long considered true crime and unsolved mysteries, particularly missing persons, as my “hobby.” I started reading true crime novels in my early teens (long before there even was an internet) and since the advent of the IPad, I’ve frequented websites (usually Reddit) reporting crimes and I’ve delved deeper when I’ve needed more details when a story interested me. I have always been cognizant there is more to every story than posted, always hated sites like Websleuths where people purported to “know” the truth based on their (often limited) research and I have never, ever created an account in order to comment anywhere nor contacted someone as I am doing with you now. Still, it’s hard to gloss over the fact I was essentially entertaining myself while forgetting at the heart of every crime or mystery there are countless people suffering an unspeakable loss. I’m so sorry. Last week I was reading an old Reddit post that asked a question that garnered many, many responses. Something like “what is your unpopular opinion on how a crime occurred?” Of course, the answers contained loads of theories about Maura Murray or Jon Benet or even JFK. As I read through hundreds of comments, one line contained the name Morgan Ingram. I had never heard the name before and, out of curiosity, went on to google it. Thankfully, the first page I came to was the first day of Morgan’s stalking post. I read each of the posts as they were intended to be read, day by day and in depth. For two days, I couldn’t stop. I kept praying the ending would be different even though I already knew the outcome. For the record Toni, I applaud your ingenuity in relating the tale exactly as you did – any other format (such as a fact summary) would have been easier for people to glance over and forget. You invited people into the lives of you, Steve and Morgan, humanizing each of you and making them guests in your home and then, you let them feel the building terror and helplessness exactly as each of you felt it when it first happened. It became immediately apparent you had left a piece of yourself on every single page and my heart broke for your loss while inside I cheered for your resolve to find justice for Morgan. I’m fairly certain if I’d been in your shoes, I would have fallen to pieces and my precious girl’s death would have gone unpunished. While you haven’t found your justice yet, I have every confidence you will. After I’d finished reading your blog, I went back to the original google results. I wanted to read about the outrage everyone was surely feeling on Morgan’s behalf. What I found….Wow, just wow. Can I apologize on behalf of humanity? First, I read so many comments that adamantly declared Morgan committed suicide backed up by things that had already been addressed on your blog and were just factually untrue. These were people who very obviously hadn’t bothered to read what you had written and yet single-handedly had the whole thing figured out! They didn’t even bother to counter the evidence, they just pretended it didn’t exist at all. Assuming I was just looking in the wrong place, I changed my search terms and tried again. That’s when I found the deeper dregs of humanity. “Teamkeenan?, “Truthformorgan?” Seriously??? Not only did these strangers have it all solved, they also decided it was their civic duty to harass and slander your family and supporters despite the fact they didn’t even know Morgan in life??? I can’t even fathom the all-consuming obsession required to dedicate that amount of one’s time to something so counter-productive to truth, justice and basic human compassion. And what for? What does any of it have to do with these horribly inhumane and ignorant people who aren’t even personally involved?? Toni, I can only imagine the super-human strength you must need each morning to rise from your bed and resume your fight. The fact that there are such negative forces at work trying to drag you down makes me want to weep for you. I am disgusted and quite frankly baffled these people have inserted themselves as road bumps in your path to justice. While there are many attention seekers trying to exploit Morgan’s tragedy, I have to believe there are many more people like me who wouldn’t dream of commenting publicly without knowing all the facts yet are silently sending you positive thoughts and prayers. Between that and the countless signs from your beautiful daughter, may you continue to fight for that which you know in your heart to be true. Once justice has been served, the evil lies that have been perpetuated online will explode back in the faces of those who have told them. So if I’ve never before commented or sent condolences on any case I’ve ever read, what is different about Morgan? It’s you dear lady. You have put a human face to Morgan and eloquently captured her essence in your tributes to her and by sharing the tributes of others. I have been so unsettled since reading that first blog page and know something inside me has changed because of it. I can’t get it out of my mind and have even found myself mentally reciting the facts of the case as I go about my day and wondering how there are people who still cannot see the truth. I’ve shared Morgan’s story with my husband (who sympathizes with Steve the most as he said Steve did what Daddies do and then some but probably still feels like he could have done more – yet, how can GOOD people think like EVIL people in order to predict the next move??) and my daughter (who is now reading your account for herself) and yet it’s nowhere near enough. I do know for sure you’ve forever cured me of my “hobby.” I can never again read a second-hand account of any crime and believe I know even part of the truth nor can I ever again read such an account without thinking of the depths of the pain and suffering of those loved ones affected. I will simply have to “pull a Morgan” and teach myself to knit 😊 I’m sorry there is nothing I can do to be helpful. None of us have social media and I’m fairly certain petitioning from Canada won’t do one bit of good in Colorado 😞. If you can think of anything else though, I’m here! Beyond that I will keep following your blog and my family will keep sending positive thoughts and energy to your family along with our wish that justice for ❤️Morgan❤️ will soon be served!

To All The Families Still Fighting For Justice…

cloudsToday is Saturday, July 2, 2016.  I am overwhelmed by all the new information we keep receiving as to what was done to Morgan.  It is really hard not to be angry, furious, and sick to my stomach. Justice will come and I will never stop until that happens.  In the meantime I know I can not let it overwhelm me and take over every moment of my life, or else these sick people will have won again. Something I was warned about 5 months after Morgan was killed by someone who fought for 13 years before his family got justice for their son’s murder.  His son was deemed a missing person that whole time, even though his body had been found…that coroner kept insisting it was not his body, the coroner kept saying the body was that of a 15 year old Hispanic female, but no, it was an 18 year old white male.  Can you imagine the suffering that coroner caused?

As I sit here drinking my coffee I remembered a dream I had 4 years ago on Saturday, August 18th – 8 months after Morgan died.

I started to wake up this morning from a dream of Morgan walking down the driveway talking to Steve and I – she was so happy and said, “Mom why aren’t you happy this is my last semester of school.”  I looked at Steve and he said, “Don’t tell her – just pretend to be happy.”  I didn’t know what to do or say, which is not like me.  Then that dream just “switched” off in my head and Morgan’s voice came to me and said tell daddy I will send him a sign.  And then she said over and over again, very calmly, in a very convincing tone, “Heaven is inside you.”

Morgan is so strong, even on the other side.  She is still on her journey and teaching me things on a daily basis.  This is the source of the strength people keep asking me about. The strength to continue my journey, a journey that no parent should have to undertake fighting against corrupt and lazy people, those who chose to cover up Morgan’s murder.  And now after working with so many families over the years that are going through similar situations with ineffective coroner’s and law enforcement I realize this is my path – changes need to be make.  They need to care.  They need to do the job they were hired to do.  Families are NOT going to just give up and turn away from the truth…it’s hard, it’s painful, and yes, many will turn away, but so many now are fighting back with the truth, and the facts, and working on getting someone in the government to listen to them.

Some of these cases have taken years, but they have gotten justice…as will Morgan. So those of you that were involved, and you know who you are, as do I, we are still coming for you, and time has been on our side, just as the Colorado Bureau of Investigation (CBI) told us in 2013.

 

Angel numbers & Owls…

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On Wednesday, June 15th I couldn’t sleep. I was tossing and turning. Mind racing. That is when I asked Morgan for a sign that she was here. Frustrated I got out of bed searching for my phone and what do I see right when I turn it on 11:11 – angel numbers. So I said, “Hello Morgan so happy you gave me a sign. Miss you angel.”

Over the years when I started to really trust in the signs I was being given I could recognize them every single time.  Then recently I had been walking the dogs down the street in the middle of the day when I heard something fly by me.  I looked up and the most beautiful owl was flying right past me, just about 6 feet above the ground, flying straight down the middle of the street.  I couldn’t believe it!  Probably because I had never seen an owl around that area, had never seen an owl during the day flying around, and even more than all of that it was strange to see an owl fly so close to me (as though it wanted to make sure I saw it) while I was walking two dogs.  Anyway, for some reason I had a very strong sense that it was a message from Morgan, but I had no idea what it was about. owl

Then while I was speaking to one of my good friends she mentioned Morgan was coming through to her showing her an owl…what?  Yes, an owl and I had not even mentioned my owl encounter with my friend yet.  Then to top it off another friend said he had been seeing owls recently every time he was thinking about Morgan.  So now I was really trying to figure out what Morgan was trying to convey, but to no avail.  Sigh – so I asked Morgan to please let me know the meaning of the owl.

My grandson & granddaughter came to visit and I did not share with them about the owl.  Then on Friday morning, June 17th, our 7 year old granddaughter woke up all smiles.  She said she had a dream that she was doing a sleep-over at her friends house and she saw stuffed OWLS in every room of her friend’s house.  She thought they were really cool – then just before her and her friend were going to bed she heard music.  She asked her friend where the music was coming from.  Her friend said, “Behind the curtain.”  She walked towards the curtain and peeked behind it and saw a disco ball turning and lights flashing with OWLS dancing and having a party.  It was crazy she said, but looked like a big celebration…she said it made her happy.

I now know this was a sign from her Aunt Morgan to let us know what the owls meant…there is going to be a celebration!  Yippee, Morgan was able to let us know through her favorite little niece.  I love my family.  Now I am hoping it is the celebration we have all been waiting for…justice for Morgan 🙂