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The Path Less Traveled

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Hard to remember a time she wasn’t smiling!

In reality this is even more of a seldom traveled path.  On one fork of the trail is that which you know, solid concrete facts and feelings, the comfort that comes from the familiar and knowing where it is going, and what will be at the end.  The other fork is unknown, ever evolving, constantly changing, shocking realizations and the wish for it to come to an end, which, as I am reminded every day, will happen not on my timetable, but rather on its own.  That fork is where I find my life going now – between my job, which I love, and the time I carve out for my family, which I love even more – is this mythical path meant to gain closure for an event in life that should never have even happened.

Such is Morgan’s stalking.  We know she had a stalker, more than one – no doubt.  He was on our porch, in our driveway, left footprints in the planters surrounding the house, he was up on the roof, leaning out and bending steel gutters until one side was torn in two.  He left well traveled trails, worn into the berm 75 feet behind our house, a constant reminder of his presence, even when he was right there, ready to terrorize, and also showing just how often he was actually there.  Seldom seen, but all too often there – waiting for Morgan, waiting for his next chance.

He was not afraid at all, security cameras caught him leaning against Steve’s truck to watch the deputies drive away after yet another fruitless attempt to catch him.  Another deputy, weeks earlier, had demonstrated for me very graphically, that standing in the deep scuff marks he left in the ground outside Morgan’s window, how his face would have been right up against the glass.  His nose just a whisper away as he stared at a defenseless nineteen year old girl at that time.  My back still quivers at the thought.

That was real – far too real.

Along the path less traveled are the actions of the Sheriff.  What do they mean?  If all that was happening to Morgan, and our family, on an almost daily basis and it would be called only misdemeanor trespassing for the first 58 days, doesn’t that mean they don’t take it seriously?  Didn’t their actions scream that they were just waiting for him to give up, and move on – with no meaningful intervention from the Sheriff’s department?  As perhaps this very same tormentor had done to so many other neighbors over the past four years.  Because it certainly seemed like this was the same person that had been spotted peering and tapping on a window of one neighbor, then also spotted in the fenced yard of another, seen staring into a woman’s master bedroom as she changed to go to sleep, and on and on.  Only this time he did not stop, not after a few days, and not after winter came.  One of our Sheriff’s Deputies in the beginning of Morgan’s stalking suggested that he was a “seasonal stalker” and last time he stopped as soon as it became cold or the snow started to fall.  It was as if he knew him personally, a seasonal criminal who will stop soon as it gets cold.  Where does that coexist with meaningful intervention?

A woman tormented by a man of the same description only two weeks before Morgan’s stalking began insisted that the Sheriffs follow-up on her incident, but they did not.  Doesn’t this show they do not care. Never mind it is not a high priority – doesn’t it appear to be a no priority at all?

It also was not reported by the Sheriffs.  A journalist researching Morgan’s stalking and seeking records was first told by the Sheriff’s department that he needed the exact day and address or he could not get any records.  When I got permission to pass that information along and did, he was then told there was no record, ever.  No record of an incident that was reported (Sheriff’s Deputies were at her house) with peeping tom, harassment, and trespassing written all over it.  What does that say about the Sheriff’s department?  About their stand on violence against women?  Because all of these victims before Morgan were women too.

Invasion of privacy for sexual gratification, harassment, eavesdropping, and felony stalking which comes after it’s happened more that once, and it causes you to suffer serious emotional distress.  Serious crimes if you are the victim, the recipient of all this very horrific, uninvited, completely unwanted terror.  Morgan had all of these crimes committed against her during her stalking.  I’m feeling they were also committed against our family as well, and as I read and re-read through the official reports, I have yet to find any of it documented.  Not once!  I was told to document everything, and you can bet that I did.  But then why do the police reports document nothing?  Do they not consider it a crime?

If the paperwork AKA the reports are what convicts the criminal in the end, then what does it mean when there are no reports?  A very helpful FBI Special Agent told me that he could not get involved in Morgan’s investigation, but I had to realize that there was no law against incompetence.  Does that mean he thought the Sheriff’s department was incompetent?  What about when the Honorable DA said that the Sheriff’s Department had so thoroughly botched the investigation that she did not know if there could ever be a prosecution?  What exactly were they doing when the first two independent assessments of their actions as law enforcement professionals are so completely dismal?

When your attempt at intervention is not producing results, and the crime is continuing, escalating, shouldn’t someone step up and say, “this is not working, we have to do better.”  If you care about stopping crime, and protecting victims do you blindly do the same thing day in and day out with no tangible results, and somehow call it a job well done?

Steve and I constantly told each other, “this is not working, we have to do better!”

We bought wildlife cameras, motion detectors, installed more and more motion lights, surveillance video cameras, Steve sat out on the berm behind our house, dressed all in black, for hours at a time.  And none of it was enough for more than a glimpse of him.  The reality, when he lives three houses up the street, is that he can watch and wait and assess, then attack when the “coast is clear.”  He could sit up on our roof in a spot perfectly made to conceal a criminal, such as we had.  Or he could stand and see Sheriffs trucks approaching from far away.  Any thought the Sheriffs ever had concerning any element of surprise working for them was nothing more than a fleeting dream.

Then Morgan, the victim in every sense of the word, of all the continuing crimes, that did nothing but escalate – is murdered, horrifically murdered in her own bedroom, the murder scene complete with so many obvious signs of an intruder being present.  More promises of the how they had collected everything they needed.  There was talk of new detectives, just for her death – once again, all the promises of all the things that would never happen.  Was it because she was a woman?  I have to wonder aloud.  And we kept trusting the Sheriffs – we still believed they were telling us the truth.

While we are constantly reminded by those who have lent their help – Steve and I are not trained investigators, nor are we accomplished hunters, not a legal team, not doctors and not forensic pathologists.  We do understand as it is explained to us, and believe me – understanding what has been, and is being explained to us is not pleasant.

 Unfortunately, all the times we returned to Garfield County with new knowledge to share from a fact-finding trip, we would hear that everything explained to us meant nothing here in Garfield County.  Their mind was made up, no more Morgan, no more stalking.  How can a real Sheriff’s Department ever say that?  Then there was the Coroner, claiming her death is in no way connected to her stalking, it’s natural causes, from a blood disease she never had, and the condition of her lungs indicated strangulation before anything benign.

We wanted natural causes changed because we were told over and over by the best experts we are able to seek out that this is anything but natural causes.  Who wouldn’t?  Those pursuits resulted in threats that her death would be revisited, perhaps changed.  What forensic pathologist does that?  In this country is that even legal?  But the threats registered with us.  We documented them with the Sheriffs and with the Coroner, who was responsible for contracting this forensic pathologist.

I talked extensively with another forensic pathologist that was gracious enough to take time from his busy schedule to intervene and explain the mistakes to our Coroner, he also assured me the manner of death could never be changed to a suicide for many more reasons that I won’t go into right now.  Does this mean he thought the original forensic pathologist would never stoop so low?  Or be absolutely so cavalier with the facts?  Talking about the original forensic pathologist that was a doctor, not an M.D., but some sort of doctor.  It was crippling to me when Morgan was changed to a suicide, such an unbelievable insult for a young woman like Morgan.  The way the system works in Colorado means our legal avenues to have this horrific wrong righted will take many, many years.  Does this sound like justice to you?  When we were threatened, reported the threats, and a man contracted by the County Coroner then followed through on his threats, with never any concern for the truth – shocking!  Absolutely shocking!  Has he been placed in a position that he is completely above the law?  The path Steve and I will travel to right just the wrongs we are aware of now is the less traveled choice.  Morgan was such a bright light in our lives and such a loving daughter I don’t believe any parent put in our position would want to do any less than we shall.  That is our job, to tell the story, and how we believe it could have ended very differently.

I don’t want anyone in this world to ever have to sit where I sit and to ever have to look back on what I am seeing, and being forced to relive everyday.  It is simply impossible to react correctly as such crimes are coming at you, rapid fire, all happening in real-time, completely disrupting your life in an unyielding march to an end that hasn’t quite happened yet, so you have only your hopes, but no real idea what the ending will be, then as swiftly as it began it is over, and it ends up to be so horrifying that it is hard to believe, to process, to pick up the pieces and move again.  That was our reality – now how do we change it? That  is our future path – not just Steve, and I, and all of my loving family, but all of us who inhabit this world…

An interview with Toni & Steve Ingram about Morgan’s #stalking & #murder

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We recently had an interview with Travanti Jaramillo @GFTPOD – we appreciate his interest in the case, and allowing us a voice.  Please click on the link below, and listen to the complete interview – I know it’s long, but we would appreciate any comments.

Thank you so much Travanti.

http://gofromthere.podbean.com/2013/06/21/144-steve-toni-ingram-morgans-stalking/

From Morgan to her Dad on a Father’s Day long ago…Happy Father’s Day to all the other Dad’s out there!

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Why would you ever want to help a #stalker?

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One of the last series of pictures that Morgan took of herself was this picture. This is Morgan holding some ribbon on which she wrote, “Fate, the illusion that you get the things you want without working for them”

One of the last series of pictures that Morgan took of herself was this picture. This is Morgan holding some ribbon on which she wrote, “Fate, the illusion that you get the things you want without working for them”

Morgan truly believed that a person needed to work hard for things that really mattered in their lives – she didn’t think you could just sit back and believe that you deserved them so fate would give them to you some day.  Morgan always worked very hard for everything in her life, and now Steve and I are doing the same thing in our quest to find justice for Morgan.  We can not just sit back and believe that someday it will happen – it has taken a lot of hard work – gut wrenching tears, and tons of support from others all around the world, but we can now see light at the end of this horrible dark tunnel, and we know that our perseverance in the end will also help others that have given up all hope in their situation.  We know Morgan wouldn’t have given up…ever…so we never will either.

And now my question of the day is, “Why would you ever want to help a stalker?”  Doesn’t it seem that if you knew someone close to you was stalking someone, and terrorizing them there would be a moment of “instant distance,” at the very least between you and that person, and you would want to say something to them, or try to put a stop to it?  Or is it just me?  To just ignore, or pretend it’s not happening I could not understand at all.  But that is exactly what happened.

Given enough time to expose themselves, it became painfully obvious that our neighbors helped the stalker.  To what extent, everyone tended to minimize.  Other than the fact that Keenan lived 3 houses up the street, and shared a house with them, not much else was known.  And at first it was the farthest thing from our minds, the Deputies too, and then when Morgan’s case became “felony stalking” and the Detectives came on board, they thought the same.  It seemed to all that it was too big a stretch that two adults, with children of their own, would have the slightest clue, and actually be trying to help the stalker – it was just too strange to believe for any of us at the time.

That was a period of time when we were all confident that when the neighbors reached the conclusion that Keenan, was not only “possibly” the stalker, but most likely was the stalker, all others would take it seriously, and aid in the swift end of this nightmare.

This continued right up until the incident when a group of Deputies descended on the house James Harris was leasing, and tried to question Keenan about the stalking.  There were obvious signs he was there, and Brooke admitted he was, she just would not wake him up.  The Deputy noted there was a freshly crushed beer can in the driveway.  And the Deputy at the door heard a, “commotion,” inside the house as he talked with Brooke.  Since the only living thing inside the house at that time was supposed to be Keenan, the Deputy made a comment about the noise, but was once again denied entry to talk with Keenan.

Further damaging the belief Brooke would have a willingness to help, the next morning Elliott (the neighbor across the street) said he had heard from Christine, Brooke’s mother that the Deputies were at her house the night before because they were supposedly told Morgan had gone missing, and the Deputies had come to ask her about it.  Once I had told Elliott what really happened, and that Morgan had not gone missing, in fact she wasn’t even home while this was going on, that I was the one that got the rock thrown at the window I was standing in front of, that was actually enough for him, he leaped right to the conclusion that they all knew what Keenan was doing, Brooke, and both her parents, and he later told me he called Brooke’s mom back after speaking with me to tell her she better wake up, and do the right thing.

We should have all listened to Elliott, sharing any information with them only served to put Morgan in greater danger.  But I’m getting ahead of myself.

Once Elliott made up his mind there was no turning him back, except he was still a suspect to the Detectives, so it was complicated.

After the refusal to cooperate at her door, and the lies quickly circulating Corral Drive, Brooke was a suspect too, the Detectives would wonder aloud, off and on, about Brooke’s true involvement in it all, but her parents, being adults with children were off the list.

Except Christine had this behavior of coming up with stories about the stalking at well placed intervals.  All of them explaining away how Keenan was not the stalker. After enough of these stories originating with Christine the Detectives went and talked to her, to clear it all up, and it only got far more convoluted.  That was the incident when Detective Glassmire talked to Christine, the mother, who claimed to get all her information from Brooke, her daughter.  Brooke told the same story in reverse, and Detective Glassmire chuckled and thought they could at least get their lies straight.  Morgan is now dead, and I don’t think looking back he would chuckle any longer.  Now if he had to do it over again he would probably keep interviewing Brooke and her mother to get to the “bottom” of who was actually creating the lies to cover for Keenan and why.

In reality we were all under-reacting to the true threat to Morgan, but at the time we thought we were moving toward an arrest.

The absolute worst part of all this was that days before Morgan was murdered Detective Glassmire was talking with James Harris about the case.  This conversation was only because James wanted to be present as his daughter Brooke was being questioned.

James wanted Detective Glassmire to know that he had “heard” that Morgan’s parents were basically overreacting.  James was then told, “Detective Alstatt is going to formally interview Morgan on Tuesday December 6, 2011.”

My understanding of this interview was that it was very important in order for an arrest to be made. The Detective had to talked to Morgan, Steve and myself usually once a week during this case, but a formal interview was now in order.  Morgan was going to be able to tell, in her own words about the Thunder River eyewitness incidents, other eyewitness incidents, and give her statement about the fear, and deep impact this was all having on her.

Morgan didn’t live long enough to have this interview, and tell on video about every time she had seen Keenan in a stalking situation, and everything else that had been going on to terrorize, and turn her life upside down.

The interview with Brooke, with James Harris present, was on November 27th, four days before Morgan’s murder began, and five days before her body was found.  But we did not know the full impact of all this for months, because I was waiting for Detective Glassmire to question a witness that James Harris had left a telephone message for on the morning we had crime scene tape wrapped around our house – the morning we found Morgan’s body.  A voice message that was recorded on a client’s message machine, in which he said the police knew Keenan was the stalker.  Not the suspect, not allegedly the stalker, not believed he could be – James said the police knew Keenan was the stalker.  So of course James also knew that fact very well.

And another pertinent fact came up many months later.  I found out that James explained his actions to his client the following week as only wishing to protect his daughter.  After all this is added up I come to the conclusion that Elliott was right when he said the Harris’ all knew about the stalking.

And once again the totality of events spanning a week, from three days before Morgan’s death to four days after infuriate me, just some of the highlights:

  • Nov 27, 2011 – 2:15 PM James Harris has a conversation with the Felony Stalking Detectives for a moment about the events occurring in the neighborhood as it relates to the stalking investigation.
  • Nov 27, 2011 – after 2:15 PM James Harris tells Detective Glassmire and Detective Alstatt that he had heard from neighbors what was going on, that he had seen some Sheriff’s Deputies walking around in the neighborhood, and that he contacted one of the Deputies who gave him a synopsis of the case.
  • Nov 29, 2011 – before 5:00 PM Detective Glassmire is over at our house and tells me that he is 100% certain that Keenan Vanginkel is the stalker.
  • Nov 29, 2011 – before 5:00 PM Detective Glassmire tells me that he believes the stalking is going to escalate.
  • Nov 29, 2011 – before 5:00 PM Detective Glassmire tells me that he will be picking up Keenan’ s work record from City Market that coming Tuesday (same day Morgan is due to give her official statement), and when he overlays that work schedule with my timeline he is confident he will be very close to making an arrest for Felony Stalking.
  • Unfortunately Keenan knows that his hours for the period of the stalking are being given to the Sheriff’s department because he signed the release, even worse I believe that Keenan now knows that Morgan’s formal interview is to be held on that same Tuesday, Dec 6, 2011.
  • Nov 29, 2011 – Morgan sleeps at a friends’ house – she is so exhausted, and doesn’t want to sleep in her room
  • Nov 30, 2011 – I tell Morgan about all of the promising developments, and how it may be over soon.  She is very happy about this.
  • Nov 30, 2011 – Morgan wakes me up at 12:45 am, and says she has been getting constant tapping on her window for 15 minutes and can’t take it anymore – I go outside with her and make sure her and her puppy leave for safety to sleep the rest of the night at a friend’s house.
  • Nov 30, 2011 – Morgan sees her doctor in the afternoon, and at my request has a conversation about how she is feeling in general, and about the stalker in particular with her doctor.  Her doctor will later state that Morgan had no suicidal ideology, and did not want the sleeping pills, or pills to help her feel better that were offered, her doctor will also insist on talking with the Forensic Pathologist, I will tell the Forensic Pathologist this, but he will never call her.  She will finally get a hold of him on the phone herself, and he will tell her that her findings just back up his.
  • Nov 30, 2011 that evening Morgan has a friend come home with her to sleep on the couch – she doesn’t feel very safe
  • Dec 1, 2011 10:33 AM – Keenan will end his swing shift at City Market
  • Dec 1, 2011 – Morgan will attempt to spend the evening on the couch at her friend’s Aunt’s house, as the stalker has been very active, and she really needs sleep.  It does not work out, and Morgan comes home
  • Morgan is killed
  • Dec 2, 2011 2:00 AM – Keenan will clock in for another swing shift at City Market
  • Dec 2, 2011 6:35 AM – Toni unlocks car, and drives it out into the street.  First responders are on Corral Drive, and headed for the house – Steve needed her to get off the phone with the 911 operator and move the car so the responders could quickly come up the driveway.
  • Dec 2, 2011 6:37 AM – Keenan Vanginkel clocks out for a break from City Market.  Where he goes, and who he calls on his cell is unknown.
  • Dec 2, 2011 AM – James Harris claims that he knows that the police know that Keenan, his daughter’s ex-boyfriend, is the stalker – and tells people this after Morgan is killed!  (Yet, on Dr. Phil James Harris claims, on camera, to not even know there was a stalking or a stalker)
  • Dec 2, 2011 Late morning – Detective Robert Glassmire goes to City Market and talks to Keenan Vanginkel – so yes – all those stories that he was not even in the state when Morgan was killed are nothing but lies – what else is new?
  • Dec 2, 2011 2:00 PM – Morgan’s body is at the morgue, the investigation into her unattended death under suspicious circumstances ended hours ago, and her death was now declared a mystery. Her autopsy was completed in around 2 hours.
  • Blood samples are sent off for a toxicology screen which will come back with a massive level of Amitriptyline 7,909 and no others drugs or alcohol were found in her blood.  Even the prescription drugs the Sheriff’s will suddenly claim in their reports that she was prescribed, and taking will not show up – because she was not taking them, and they were old prescriptions, not current.  Just one thing showed up in her blood Amitriptyline, about ten times the amount that would have killed her.
  • Morgan never stood a chance, and the first of many memorials for our youngest daughter was then held on Dec 5, 2011.

There will be no official interview of our daughter Morgan Ingram, she will never have the chance to recount the face-to-face meetings with her stalker on camera, or anything else about her stalker, or stalking.  All of her jewelry of value that went missing that Dec 2, 2013 will never be found, nor will the PJ’s she wore to go to sleep that night.  Two dark figures will be caught on video surveillance, and the neighbors that saw odd behavior in her bedroom lights will never be questioned by the Sheriff’s Detective.

As if there was ever a doubt it will now be up to her parents (Steve and I), and our supporters, to get justice for Morgan, while Garfield County will throw up every roadblock they can.

Getting to the bottom of it all – #Stalking and #Murder – Part 1

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What does it mean when the suspects don’t like what the victims of a crime have to say?  Really?  Because there are two choices for victims, go away and keep quiet, or tell what you really know, and see just where the proverbial chips fall.

Now of course the “alleged“ stalkers of Morgan, and the “alleged” killer of Morgan would like nothing more than for us to go away and keep quiet.  They have not yet been charged with any crime, and they want to get back to their life.  And does getting back to their life mean a new target, a new victim?  Or is there a cooling off period, as the FBI believes a serial killer will have between kills?  I believe it is some of both.

Morgan’s stalking was so much more than just stalking, when I type the words now, I can’t help but feel that “stalking” completely minimizes the crime(s).  Not only was there stalking, a stranger stalker, bent on remaining unseen at all costs, most times he presented himself in the yard and he was wearing a mask that completely covered his face.  Height and weight are hard to disguise, and he was all too constant with that part of the description.  But then he was unique at times, in that once behind the wheel of his car he must have thought he was invisible, or that his windshield was a one way glass.  And Morgan ID’d him every time, but one.

In addition to stalking then he should also be considered a peeping tom, standing at a bathroom window, and then knocking after some period of just watching.  Some believe that the knocking was meant to startle, because he needed to see that expression of startle and fear too, in order to fulfill his fantasy, as if his existence is in some other realm.  In Colorado it is called “Invasion of Privacy for Sexual Gratification” and that he did, right along with his stalking.

And of course he was eavesdropping, and anyone, “assisting,” him at any time did the same.  How could they not have?  If you are inches from a partially open window and watching, you will hear the talking, it’s hard to miss.  Of all the Colorado Revised Statutes I have read and reread recently, trying to understand it as best I can, this is the simplest, most straight forward statute.  They eavesdropped – all of them.

There was harassment too, and the Sheriffs favorite, trespassing.  I mean he’s standing at her bathroom window, leaving footprints in the soil we’ve been instructed to keep watered, “for better prints,” he’s looking in the window at her, and when Morgan senses this and goes to close the window he bangs on it.  I’m not a criminal law scholar, but does that sound like trespassing to you?  And one last comment on the Sheriff’s, when you show up a half hour later, and he’s not standing right in those footprints at the window, as if he is magically glued to the ground…are you really surprised?  Did you really think, all those times, that if you circle the house with a flashlight you are going to find him?

Steve and I were reacting, assessing, trying to make the world stop spinning after Morgan was killed.  First a mystery, then natural causes, then sitting with the very first person not from Garfield County, not just medically brilliant in her own right, but instant access to all the medical brilliance she needs, just in case.  And for her there is no doubt – Morgan’s death is anything but natural causes, it is a homicide!!!  Try sitting through a meeting like that three months after your daughter’s death, and not being shocked to the core of your existence.

As if we needed it, agreement from those in the medical profession came as fast and furious as we wanted, or could handle.  Then as we shared this with Garfield County, it then had to be a certain type of doctor, because the rest of them can’t testify we were told, when this is such a lie, doctors testify on death all the time, especially on appeal, when it really matters the most. I have read from court case after court case where the doctors testify, cardiologists about heart conditions, psychologists about behavior, oncologists about the behavior of cancers, neurologists about anomalies of the brain.

And right there, front and center, you’ve all seen it in a movie, or TV show, or even real life,  the court reporter taking down every single word, and I have read those words, from doctors, which is why I say it was such a lie what we were told by Garfield County.  But the forensic pathologist that did Morgan’s autopsy wanted a specific medical professional that was also from the state of Colorado to boot.  As if there is different medical knowledge taught in other states, as if it’s not all the same.  Did he want to exclude the uber experts from the world-renowned, top flight universities?

In the end it didn’t matter, because we have some really excellent  forensic pathologists right here in Colorado.  In a fortuitous turn of fate, his request was answered.  And it was not just a difference of opinion between two doctors that quickly followed.  It was a number that simply can not be that high, and ignored.  It was about supposed genetic testing we had to pay 10’s of thousands of dollars for, or else – that on second opinion was not needed at all!  It was about a medical condition that she was absolutely, never diagnosed with, that had found its way on to her Postmortem Examination Report as a cause of death, when it absolutely, positively can not be, and there was no forensic evidence that it was.  It was about a study that was currently being conducted at the Mayo Clinic, another top flight research facility, and medical center that has helped to redefine medical diagnoses and care, also getting right to the bottom of things, and how Morgan’s tissue samples could be sent there for analysis at no cost, there would be answers, ones that you can take to court, but the forensic pathologist that did Morgan’s original autopsy did not send any samples to them.

Unfortunately, none of this ever happened!  Because the contracted Forensic Pathologist the Garfield County hires would never get on the phone with the very person he insisted that we get, or else he would not talk to them.  Confused?  Believe me, so were we, and when it’s all about the murder of your youngest daughter, to call it mere confusion is also completely minimizing the feelings Steve and I were literally flooded with.

A search for the truth being conducted? In a suspicious, and unattended death?  Hardly!  I would call it Prima Fascia evidence of the complete opposite!

Right about this time, in the world that Steve and I were trying to desperately make sense out of, a real expert on National and International Terrorism had a talk with me.  He had insights into what we were going through, and even compared some aspects to the fight against terrorism, that he has dedicated his life to.  And of all the things that came out of that conversation, he ended it with a simple idea for me – start a blog.

Go away, and keep quiet would have been an option if her death had truly been, natural causes, but as the veritable “can of worms” handed to us by Garfield County opened further and further, it was not an option.  By now the threats to revisit her death, if we did not give up, had started.  And when every other doctor is shaking their head at Morgan’s death being natural causes, and the forensic pathologist is threatening you, there is no such thing as middle ground, so along with every other thing connected with her stalking, and death that was happening at the time, the option to go away was simply off the table – completely.

For two adults that are not even sure what a blog is, and having had a daughter that would always tell us that everything is done through social media nowadays, we just had to figure out what a blog was.  It took us a long time, and how exactly it came to be, “launched,” on Father’s Day I don’t remember, but it was.  As for terms, launched was really generous.

Right there, so clearly, and ever-present in my memory at the time was a poem Morgan had written about me of all people.  I shared it with you all back in April and here is the link – A poem from Morgan.  I love to talk so expressing myself in this blog was good for me, our family was so deeply wounded by everything that had, and was happening, and I was also just beginning to find out about the true extent, and reach of the true terror that stalking is.  And I wanted the truth.

Now I wonder if my friend, the expert on terrorism, knew this all along, but chose not to tell me.  The more I told the truth about Morgan’s stalking, and Morgan’s murder, the less the “alleged” staker(s) and the less the “alleged” murderer liked it.  Even their parents joined in with the not liking it, at all.  They threatened, they lied too, and some day we will perhaps sit in a room, and among all the others there will be that court reporter, taking down every single word along with sounds made by the person on the witness stand that are not even words at all, but sometimes the muffled shrieks tell far more than mere words.  Maybe the “alleged” accomplice will have weeks to tell her side of the story, as has recently happened.  And at the end there will be a judgment – one can only wish…  My Nana talked to me about judgment day, I remember it well, I take it very seriously.  And thank you Nana – I love you.

SO THERE – I have written an entire blog, almost, and not named one name, except for Nana, and poor Steve, but he always gets named.  And seriously, has it changed anything?  Has one single fact of Morgan’s stalking, and Morgan’s murder changed?  Has it suddenly changed the fact that the Sheriff’s Detectives were finally 100% certain of the identity of her stalker, just days before she was killed?

Nothing in the facts has changed, not one single bit, because the truth never changes.  There is still the incident when Morgan got out of her car, against all warnings, to see him face to face, just so she could be 100% certain for the Sheriff’s Department, who would accept nothing less.  There are still all the incidents where Morgan saw him, face to face, and knew his name – first, last, and middle – and told the Sheriffs.  There is still the altercation in the subdivision, witnessed and reported.  There is still a crack, top to bottom, in the gutter, centered directly above where Morgan’s bedroom window was.  There are still the figures caught on wildlife cams images, and on video.  There is the person I myself saw on the porch, and at another time running across the driveway, and heard pressing of the buttons on our electronic front door lock.  There is still the person who chose to terrorize Morgan as she let her puppy out to go potty in the early morning darkness, and if he was wearing a mask, and dressed all in black, was he really just trespassing?  There is still the person who stood at her bathroom windows, watching Morgan bathe, and was he really still just trespassing?  There are, without doubt, the twenty pieces of evidence present at her death scene, none of it collected, which is very unfortunate, only eclipsed by the fact that they existed, right there for all to see.  And finally there is the forensic testing of Morgan’s samples, which, interpreted by an expert who does nothing but testify about what drugs do to a person and how they react after that person is dead, the story is all there.  It is a brutal, and very cruel story of how Morgan was killed, and that will never change… and Steve and I can never bring her back – that too, will never change.

Morgan I’m quite certain would want to help others, in her life it was quite a passion of hers, so tightly woven into her planning of her future.  So, still picking up the pieces and looking forward – it is just before 8:00 am in the morning in Colorado, and 117 people so far have entered some term about stalkers, and stalking into a search engine that has pulled up Morgan’s Stalking for them.  And so much more than writing a blog this morning, I wish I could somehow end their stalking, along with all the fear and terror that goes with it, forever, but that is not something I can do… it is something we are all going to have to do together.

Stalking victims need to accept the help that comes, and to also to find help where they need it most, and to never ever forget this –

You did nothing to deserve being stalked!!!  It is your stalker that is breaking the law, and they are the ones that need to be stopped.