A beautiful still shot by Morgan of the yarn she made herself out of old T-shirt material.  It took her so many hours to make the yarn and then use that yarn to make clothing and shoe covers for the costuming for a movie she was working on in Los Angeles.  She worked really hard, she had put in so many hours by the time she was done that she was more than happy to fly back to Colorado towards the end of July 2011 when her job was done.

It was really nice for her to travel during her breaks from school in order to do some creative work and make some money.  She came back to Colorado only for about 2 weeks and then went back to California, this time with Steve & I for a vacation.  That is the vacation we came home from in the beginning of August 2011 when her stalking started.

Morgan was so happy after having the vacation break and spending time with Steve and I and visiting so many relatives.  On her last trip she was working so she was unable to visit with anyone.  We went to the beach, Disneyland, all over, and then on the way back to Colorado is when she picked up her little puppy Wylah May in Arizona.  She was beyond thrilled!

As soon as we returned home she walked Wylah down to the river…one of her favorite places.  Then she walked home to pick up the car and drive into Carbondale in order to show her friends her new puppy.  Two days later she asked if I would go with her to Crystal River Meats in Carbondale.

I asked her why and she said, “I want to make my own dog food from scratch for Wylah May because I feel she deserves it.”  I told her it seemed like it would take up a long time and she is always so busy coming and going, then she said, “Wylah May is now my responsibility, so as her new mommy I need to make sure she has the best food, just like I put in my body, so she will grow up big and strong and healthy.”  That was Morgan for you…no arguing with her logic.  When she decided to do something she felt was right she did it.  So that was the start of homemade, delicious dog food for Wylah May.

Now Wylah, and all the dogs in our family, get fed homemade food…Steve has taken over that job.  The dogs love it.  He uses organic chicken, rice, sweet potatoes, pumpkin, coconut oil and a few other ingredients.  It keeps their coats shiny, their energy level up and they always seem so happy and satisfied.  It’s a lot of work to make such big batches but Steve enjoys it.  There are so many things Morgan taught us over her short 20 years of life and we were her parents, she was the child…funny how that seems to happen I guess.  We were extremely blessed to have such a kind, loving and independent daughter.  We miss her more than words can ever express, and we can still feel her spirit close to us.

It is so hard to keep from having a small outburst of tears, so it still happens every single day.  My heart feels crushed at times and then I remember I have to keep going, I have to stay focused on justice for Morgan and all others so I take a deep breath, blow it out and onward I go.

Thank you all for the many uplifting comments.  It is at those moments that I read them that I feel a wind beneath my wings and I can fly again.  You are all so wonderful and I am very grateful for all of you.

It has been almost 4 years since Morgan was murdered…yes, murdered in what was a premeditated murder.  That’s what you call it when the murder is planned ahead of time, the instruments to cause such a death are brought with you, and then taken away by you.  It is considered a planned murder especially when the crime scene is “staged” as it was in Morgan’s crime scene.

I can’t seem to get into the mind of these delusional people that find pleasure in stalking their prey, then torturing and murdering that prey, I have tried to understand what they could possibly be thinking, but I just can’t seem to be able to comprehend how they can  think the way they do.  The only thing that makes sense to me so far is that these predators are not like the general population, they are sociopaths and psychopaths, maybe they were not even born with natural humanity – they have absolutely NO FEELINGS, no soul, it does not bother them to inflict pain upon others, in fact to do it and get away with it just bolsters their feeling of superiority over others, which in some cases is extremely important to them, especially if they perceive that they do not have all the opportunities or gifts their target has.

That being said what I wanted to talk about in this post is about humanity in people that are good people.  Humanity that we are born with, but then somewhere along the way we forget about that humanity.  There have been so many people in positions of authority that could have stopped this deliberate attempt to deceive – a deception that has been perpetrated by the Garfield County sheriff & coroner’s offices.  There are people in those very agencies that know the truth, but have not come forward in order to keep their jobs, but their silence is at the expense of sacrificing their humanity.  Doing THE RIGHT THING isn’t always the easy thing.  When you take the easy way out by looking the other way and doing what you know is wrong…something that is a lie, a lie that you don’t speak up about it goes against your humanity, and it will end up eating away at you for the rest of your life.  You might be able to push it down most of the time, but it will always be there every time you look in the mirror.  It becomes YOUR LIFE’S LESSON.

Then there are others far more removed from Garfield County – let’s say at the state level.  Yes, there is home rule in Colorado so the sheriff & coroner can sit back and say they will never allow anyone to come in and investigate Morgan’s case, BUT there are ways the Governor & Attorney General’s office can take over when there is an obvious case of a cover-up as it is in Morgan’s case.  If the representatives at the state level decide not to investigate Morgan’s case and continue putting us in a circle, stating they can not do anything, then they are sacrificing their humanity as well.  To not investigate Morgan’s murder, as she was a victim of an active felony stalking investigation at the time of her suspicious death, and since there is a huge amount of physical evidence that contradicts the manner of death that Garfield County would like everyone to believe, is again turning a blind eye on evil and going against their own humanity.  Everyone in this world is given chances to make the right choice…to help their fellow human beings.  If they take the easy way out all they are doing is allowing a murderer(s) to remain free in order to stalk and murder again and again.  It will be on them for choosing the easy way out.

Now, last but not least are the people in the Roaring Fork Valley in Colorado that KNOW things about Morgan’s stalking and murder…and there are quite a few.  They know they know, some pretend they really don’t know anything because they are fearful of retribution.  They fear the rath of the perpetrators, they fear the sheriffs, they fear what their other friends will think about them (one young man actually told me Morgan is gone, there is nothing I can do about that now, but ______ is still here so I have to change my support to her.  I get it – they have to live in the same place as the perpetrators, but does that make it right?  Is covering up evil the right thing to does that make them just as evil?  What I do know is this…these people that are covering for the criminals will live with the knowledge that they did the wrong thing till the day they die.  Consciously they may not realize how much damage they are creating in their world, but subconsciously their soul understands, when given the chance to do the right thing, to be human, they know they have failed that test, and will know it in their very souls for the rest of their human lives.  Also, what they may not know is that the law views people as co-conspiritors when they are aware of a crime, but choose to cover it up by not coming forward.  Yep – it’s true.  Not only will your own soul haunt you to the day you die, but if someone comes forward before you and implicates you as knowing what really happened then legally you can become a co-conspiritor in a capital crime.  Just food for thought.

So once again I will say it has been almost 4 years since Morgan’s murder.  Morgan needs justice.  Morgan’s friends and family need justice.  All other victims/survivors of stalking need to see Morgan get justice.  Why?  Because if with all the evidence in Morgan’s case, crime scene 101 basic real evidence, can’t get people to open her investigation so she can receive justice then how will any of us ever feel like we are safe?  People will loose even more trust in our system…a system that is suppose to insure us life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness.  Are these all just words or do they mean something?