Yesterday I woke to a dream & Morgan was there…

Yesterday was my birthday…it has been 11 years now since I spent my last birthday with my sweet Morgan, and as you can probably understand, it was an emotional day for me.

I remember how excited Morgan was to watch me open the present she had given to me on that day in 2011. It was a black iron cow bell that I could hang on the outside of the house – the kind you ring to let everyone know it’s time to come in for dinner. I loved it!

Steve had designed and built, with his own two hands, the horse ranch that we lived in in Old Snowmass, CO. It was the place where Morgan was born. She knew I missed the ranch – there were so many wonderful memories made there. This present brought tears to my eyes. We were planning on building another home where we could have a ranch again…those plans disappeared, along with Morgan, 5 months later.

This is where Morgan was born, learned to walk, learned to talk, learned her love for nature, and all creatures large and small.

I love all my beautiful memories of Morgan, but they also bring tears to my eyes, especially on days like yesterday. Even though it was an emotional day for me, I am also extremely grateful…Morgan was in my dream that night, and I remembered every little detail of the dream when I woke up on my birthday morning.

It was a happy dream, it was as if she was there with me, celebrating my birthday. In the dream, the two of us were walking out to the driveway, we were going out for a birthday lunch. We were going to meet friends, Morgan forgot something and went back into the house, while I waited by the car. Just then, two hats fell out of the sky. Then Morgan walked back out of the house and I asked her, “Where could these hats have come from, they just fell out of the sky?” Morgan smiled and said, “They are probably a sign from the Universe.” Then she showed me her cell phone, to show me that one of the friends we were on our way to meet for lunch, was on television, receiving an award – that friend was wearing a sparkling, rhinestone studded hat, something I don’t think she would ever wear, but here it was, on her head and she was smiling. I then said to Morgan, “If she is being filmed how will she be able to meet us for lunch?” Morgan just smiled and said, “Mom, it was probably filmed earlier and she will be there.”

It made me happy. It really felt like all was well in the world and I truly appreciated spending a little more time with Morgan…and that is exactly how I felt when I woke up.

Was it a dream? Was it a sign? Or did Morgan just pop into my dream to give me the best present I could have ever asked for…just a little more time to be with her.

 

 

Father’s Day 2021

Morgan wrote this about her Daddy when she was very young – he had had a very bad fall, and fought hard to physically come back to his full potential. Morgan knew how hard it was for him, she knew many people worked against his full recovery, and she was always so proud of him because he NEVER gave up. And we will NEVER give up in our quest for justice for Morgan. #JusticeForMorgan

We love Morgan every minute of every hour of every day, and will for all of eternity.

 

* HAPPY NEW YEAR 2021 *

WISHING YOU ALL A VERY HAPPY & HEALTHY NEW YEAR!

As our family welcomes this new year, our intentions are focused on getting justice for our youngest daughter, Morgan. December 2021 will be the 10th anniversary of her horrific murder…it is so very unimaginable to even try to wrap my mind around that date in 2021.

We believe the things we have been waiting for to happen, in Morgan’s case, will happen in 2021 – so as we enter the new year, we believe, with all our hearts, that Morgan, and our family, will find justice.

There are many wonderful warriors in this world, those who are not willing to stand by and ignore injustice in this world – these warriors are not always out in the limelight, but work hard, behind the scenes, to right many wrongs…these are our heroes and our family thanks them for all their help!

#Justice4Morgan

Take a leap of faith and begin this wondrous new year by believing. Believe in yourself. And believe that there is a loving Source – a Sower of Dreams – just waiting to be asked to help you make your dreams come true.” Sarah Ban Breathnach

 

9 Years Ago Today…

Our dragonfly candle is burning today for Morgan (our little dragonfly baby). It has now been exactly 9 years since I woke up, on that cold Friday morning, December 2, 2011, and found Morgan’s body…there are no words I can ever use to describe what that felt like. The pain was indescribable, and still is.

This morning, Steve said to me, while choking back his tears, “They murdered our baby, then lied about it!” What can I say to him? There is nothing I can do to change what was done to her, or how officials circled the wagons, and lied in order to change the truth, to cover up a murder. It is all so very wrong, but I know life is not always fair and never has been.

So, in all these past 9 years, Steve and I have pushed forward, trying everything we could think of to have Morgan’s case investigated (her murder was NEVER investigated). We are not giving up – we are gearing up for another big push. Every year we receive more and more information and evidence, as to what happened to her, and who was involved in her murder, and the subsequent cover-up of that murder.

Today & tonight, our family will grieve over the loss of our special and much loved Morgan. I know she will be wrapping her arms around us while we cry – I only wish we could see her again, hug her again, and kiss her once more.

My heart is breaking, but I still believe in “Lady Justice” and will continue to fight, till my dying breath, to see justice served for Morgan. I am determined to see the scales of justice balanced, for Morgan, as well as all victims of stalking and murder. This determination is the biggest reason I have not curled up into a ball of grief, sadness, and suffering. Determination, against all odds, keeps me focused, and hopeful. Never give up on hope, with hope, anything is possible.

Call me a dreamer, but I still believe in miracles, truth, honesty, fairness and love, and most of all I truly believe, if you never give up the fight for justice, you can move mountains. So, wish us luck, in the next 12 months we intend to move mountains…

Morgan – You were supposed to be here…

My sweet youngest daughter, you were supposed to be here to see and enjoy your big sister’s first baby. Your sister really wished she had you with her to help and share in all her “first” moments with her new little one.

You were supposed to be here for your older brother’s third baby, Steven. This little one is always smiling, just like you, and even has your beautiful blue eyes and the same hair color as you.

You were supposed to be here to enjoy your niece’s 11-year-old birthday party and your 9-year-old nephew’s celebration. All our family’s happy moments are bittersweet because you were not here to enjoy them with us – it always feels like something is missing…you 🙁

You were supposed to have your own engagement, wedding and first born. But a “stalker” stole that away from you, and us, when he took your life. We miss you every day. You’re never far from our thoughts, and will always be in our hearts…forever!

Rest in heaven my sweet baby girl.
8/16/1991 – 12/2/2011

#JusticeforMorgan