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February 1 – 14 , 2012, Day 61 – 74 of Morgan’s Investigation – Why do I not get it!

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Wednesday, February 1st

At 5:00 pm I go to Aspen for my appointment to see someone who is helping me cope with the loss of Morgan, but on the way there I make a slight detour to drive behind City Market and see if K’s car is there.  I see an angry-looking older man, driving a red small Subaru type station wagon or SUV and a younger man sitting next to him in the passenger seat driving in to park in one of the employee spots.  The younger man quickly and obviously holds up a piece of paper or something big and white to cover his face from the eyes down and then looks away from me as I drive by in my car (the same car Morgan always shared with me, but honestly she drove it more than me).  I think it looked like K and he was trying to not be seen, but then again I have never really gotten to see him fully before this.  Is K’s Dad driving him to work, and that is why we haven’t seen his car parked there?  Steve saw K a couple of weeks ago working at City Market (K gave him a cocky smile), but he didn’t see his green car in the employee lot when he left.

Thursday, February 2nd

I drove by the City Market parking lot and saw the little green car there finally, I stopped my car, got out and walked over to the car and took pictures of it front, back and on the side to email to the Felony Stalking Detective, because now the car has a license plate on it finally.  Steve and I went to our niece’s basketball game in Basalt tonight, and had dinner at Steve’s brother’s family’s house

Friday, February 3rd

Tonight is First Friday in Carbondale, so we went with our son, and his family.  We ran into so many people, and it was extremely hard to keep on a happy face, everyone knew Morgan had died, and wanted to give their condolences, which was so nice, but extremely hard on us.

Saturday, February 4th

9:00 am I meet up at the Midland Bakery with my sister-in-law and nephew and S (our old next door neighbor’s daughter).  S works at —— ——– and is the person I believe the pet communicator was referring to when she said Morgan’s soul sister works at —— ——–.  I couldn’t believe she is so much like our daughter Morgan, same size 1, same blue eyes, same color hair, she is a photographer, and an artist, loves to bake, and she was born right next door to the ranch that we built in Old Snowmass.  She was born when Morgan was about 2 years old and we moved from that house when Morgan turned 3, so I had only seen her as a baby, but I remembered her name when I heard it.  I couldn’t believe it was her and I have no idea what a soul sister is – I know about soul mates, but not soul sisters.  Anyway, it was really nice to meet her and she is staying in touch, which is great.

I was very  concerned that S might be the next girl who the stalker was after, so I warned her about what happened to Morgan, but then I found out from S that her Mom had a stalker six months ago, and it ended just before Morgan’s stalking started.  Stalking is either an epidemic that hardly ever gets reported, or I just happen to meet every single stalking victim.  Her mother followed him, found where he lived (in Basalt) and proceeded to tell everyone who he was.  The Pitkin County Sheriff’s couldn’t seem to do anything about it, so between her Mom, and her Dad and her Mom’s friends in Basalt – they managed to threatened the man enough so he stopped stalking her.  Wow, was this why I needed to connect with this girl I had not seen since she was two?  This story seems similar to another story I just heard about a woman in Basalt (same town as the story above) that happened a year before Morgan’s stalking, she was a runner and every morning she went out running until one day she had that creepy feeling (you know “intuition”) that someone was watching and following her.  It turns out she had a stalker.  He knew where she ran, where she lived, everything.  She knew this because once she realized she was being watched she was hyper aware and watched for him.  She called the Basalt Police, but they were never able to see him, so she took self-defense classes to empower herself, got a gun and a concealed carry permit and stalked him back to where he lived.  She then called the police and had them confront him – they told him that she knew who he was, and they now know who he is, and this is a serious crime, and if he continued to stalk her they would arrest him.  She said her stalking stopped.  Which of course is always great, but two things:

  1. One is that law enforcement seems to be having a difficultly “seeing” the stalker, and it is not just the Garfield Sheriffs Department, it happens across agencies in our valley, which is why I always bring up protocol, we need a common and effective protocol adopted.  Our Sheriff’s confronted Morgan’s stalker at a few different times and were “stood up” at his front door even more times, but he didn’t stop – there is a difference in stalkers, many different typologies have been identified and eventually there will need to be a protocol for each one if we are to stop this crime.
  2. Second is a simple question.  Why did they not arrest him right there?   I mean a woman goes out takes self-defense classes gets a pistol, gets certified for concealed carry, gets the permit and while I applaud her I also say there is a failing here.  To do what she did took many months, and stalking victims do have a mortality rate that nobody likes to talk about.  Remember they said Morgan was not killed by a stalker, statistically speaking she was probably not even a victim of stalking and “officially” she committed suicide, and even if there was a shred of possibility, or evidence, to the suicide theory, then wonderful, I’m sure you have heard about the prosecutions of those that drove their victims to suicide around this country, it’s a certified harsh way for a person to get justice, being stamped a suicide, but at least they do.  Does Colorado not believe in holding these perps responsible for their crimes?  When Morgan’s death was “changed” to a suicide the possibility of the stalker being responsible was not even open for discussion.  There is something seriously wrong with this scenario.

That evening we went over our son’s house for dinner – his partner tells us that she has now seen the green car again, driving slowly past her house twice, and her brother has also seen it again on a separate occasion once.  Her brother BW seems to think the person driving the car lives at the trailer park close to their house.  I pass this all along to the Detectives.

Sunday, February 5th

11:00 am Detective Glassmire is coming over. – Couldn’t bring our DVR back as they are having difficulty copying the memory.

An email I wrote to my good friend: “I have to tell you that I just had the most amazing weekend…we have moved into the new house, and that is helping us a lot.  We just met the neighbors on one side of us, and they are a young couple with their first baby, a little 6 month old baby girl named Morgan, with big blue eyes just like our Morgan.  She was so very cute, and smiled and giggled the whole time I was talking to her.  It was really nice.”

Life is full of surprises, so I am trying to stay open to all of them.  Another thing I will credit Morgan with teaching me.

Monday, February 6th

Steve crashed his truck – he can’t seem to stop coughing and crying and he had a coughing fit right before he hit the truck that had stopped on Hwy 133 to turn left into the Coop.  He doesn’t seem like he is coming out of this, and maybe he won’t.  We are still seeing our grief counselor every week, and she is really helping, but how does life go on after your youngest child is stalked/terrorized for 4 months and then murdered and everyone in law enforcement and the Coroner’s office just seems like they want it all to go away?  I think I need to start a discussion with Steve as to how we should proceed with our lives…the truck looks totaled.

 Tuesday, February 7th

Steve goes to see his doctor today – hopefully he can get a handle on this coughing as well as the pain in his heart.  I think he has broken heart syndrome, but I am not a doctor.

Wednesday, February 8th

We had our son and his family over for breakfast – it’s hard for us, but we know we need family even more than ever now.

Thursday, February 9th

Not much happened today – Steve rested in bed.

Friday, February 10th

This is the 10th week since Morgan died and the 10th day of February.  Drove down Corral Drive, but only saw C (B’s mom) walking from J’s house to her house.  But nothing out of the ordinary happened.

4:00 pm I had an appointment with ____ ______ again in Aspen

Saturday, February 11th 

Steve and I watched a video tape of Morgan’s memorial service for the first time since that day and cried all night long.  A really sweet young man who I didn’t even know made the video for us.  It is so amazing how many wonderful people there are in this world, and how horrible a handful of bad people can make it so awful for all of us.  I can’t even explain how during the service I felt like I was in a dream state, and couldn’t really comprehend who was there, and what was going on – I just kept telling myself…keep it together, and I did.  Anyway, seeing it now on the TV and seeing who was there, and what they said about Morgan, and what she had done for them over the years made me realize – our daughter has done more to help people in her 20 short years than I have done in all of my years, and I thought I was really doing things, volunteering now and then for charitable work, etc., but it never even came close to what she has done in her life, quietly, never asking for anyone to give her credit for it…just doing it because she loved helping people, and she loved life.  But why isn’t she here now?  I keep asking myself that question over and over.   She didn’t want to go – this I know for a fact!

Sunday, February 12th 

Detective Glassmire is coming over with the DVR today?  D (Morgan’s friend) came over for dinner tonight.  He was the last person with her on Thursday, December 1st until she stopped by A and K’s to say hello to N and CM for just 10 minutes, while on her way home.  D said Morgan was with him from around 3:00 pm until 8:30 pm or so.  She never ate anything, but was drinking water, and drove him to Aspen to help him apply for a job. She asked his Aunt if she could sleep over, but his Aunt said no (Morgan was obviously feeling vulnerable at our house without a friend there with her since we were all the way on the other side of the house).  I spoke with his Aunt recently and she has been holding the pain inside of her this whole time – she wishes now she had said yes, and Morgan wouldn’t have been home that night.  I told her it wasn’t her fault, if this horrible murderer wanted to kill Morgan he would have done it some other night.  Morgan and D made plans to see each other in the morning, before she was supposed to leave for Frisco to babysit, and she sent him a text at around 9:00 pm when she got home, but by the next morning Morgan was dead, and unable to get back to anyone. Toni finds out from D that Detective Glassmire did interview him about Morgan sometime later on.

Monday, February 13th

Toni calls her friend.

Tuesday, February 14th

Valentine’s Day – Steve and Toni went to see the Grief Counselor again.

At this point in my life during February 2012 I just don’t get what is happening, and what is not happening in regards to our daughter Morgan, and the investigation – we have now joined an exclusive club, Steve and I, a club that no parent ever wants to become part of, and that club is the one that parents that have had children murdered belong too – at this time we don’t know she has been murdered…the forensic pathologist has put her manner of death as natural, and we are still living with that conclusion, but off and on, every cell in my body is screaming at me that something is very wrong with this picture.  In all reality it hurts too much to think about it so for the most part I try not to think about her death, I force myself to focus on her life instead, because there was so much life inside that young woman.

 

Morgan lived her life for something so big, so important, that we didn’t even know until now…there will be change and people will be helped!

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Oh what a tangled web they weave…are stalkers/murderers getting help?

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The Dr. Phil episode of Morgan’s Stalking aired this week in Australia.  No Forensic Psychologists wrote in to us this time, so those who did share their thoughts can’t testify in court about their opinion, but they can certainly have one. And once again everyone thought that B.H. either was – not being truthful, had something to hide, was involved, or some combination of all three.

Steve was always amazed that we went on the show and really presented no evidence at all.  Yet the overwhelming conclusion of viewers not related to K. J. VanG. Who wrote into the blog or submitted a tip over the tip line was that – that girl on the show, B.H. was guilty of something, it was obvious to all.

A real trial with witnesses and evidence is of course a bit more complex, but I’d have to say I too was surprised that just the demeanor of B.H. on stage was enough for most everyone to make their decision.  I wonder what will happen when they watch her being cross-examined before a judge and then they have to decide.  Steve and I have to think actual confrontation on the false statements will tip the scales quite a bit more for Morgan.

This very possibility of “looking bad”I would think drove the decision of K. J. VanG.’s lawyer to not let him appear on the show.  Wasn’t that great by the way?  The 20 second clip of their statement that they regretted not being on the show.  Well wait, wouldn’t the truth for not being on the show be that you feared the potential criminal exposure of your client(s).  Wouldn’t that be the truth?  And if you haven’t done anything wrong, why do you fear potential criminal exposure, still have not figured that part out.  Really, how does that happen?

Back in the states the favorite statement B.H. made was “where’s the proof”, wow did that set everyone off.  She was completely slammed in making, repeatedly, I guess, what was a clear indicator of guilt.  I guess if you had thought you committed a crime and it was a perfect crime, no proof, no chance of ever being caught, a statement like that would make sense.

But then maybe there is no such thing as the perfect crime.  I don’t think the detectives were fooled, they were told to stand down by superiors and they obeyed.  Victims we were long before Morgan’s death, but after she was killed the word victim took on a horrible new meaning.  Our Sheriff Lou Vallario conceded that we were the real victims, and I really hope he meant Morgan too, because she was the biggest victim of us all. Horrific stalking, a horrible death, life snatched from her at age 20, and then to be labeled a suicide, when everything she believed in, and everything she stood for was quite the opposite of someone who would commit suicide. Evidently an entire story is all right there in the lab results.  There just has not been anyone in Garfield County willing or able to read it yet.

Meanwhile, I calmly as I can wait and agree with a group of doctors from many related specialties who say my daughter’s death was anything but natural causes, and certainly not a suicide.  They say it and I just could not agree more. The most revealing thing about this, and I say it with all the sarcasm I can muster, is that the doctors who have these opinions actually have reasons, they explain why in detail as to what they based their opinion on.  And then they are in agreement with one another’s opinions – all agree that is, except for Dr. Kurtzman, some have tried to talk with him about his opinions, he just won’t answer, and now if you are not a forensic pathologist he won’t talk to you at all, because, well lets just leave it at that.  It’s really quite sad, the corner he paints his profession into.  Aren’t forensic pathologists supposed to figure out the cause of death, and then if it is suspicious at all then put the manner down as undetermined until it can be investigated?

Things are not as complex as he is making them, they seem very simple taken one at a time, once they are really explained, for instance the amount of Amitriptyline in Morgan’s blood was a huge, overkill, lethal amount, but the Amitriptyline in her gastric fluid is not even enough to be lethal, and in Dr Kurtzman’s opinion, when he changed her manner of death to suicide he stated that the Amitriptyline in her gastric fluid was the lethal amount that killed her – this is not what killed Morgan.

Dr. Kurtzman (8 + months after Morgan was murdered) changed her manner of death from natural causes to suicide based on a new test with Morgan’s gastric fluid.  He stated the Amitriptyline in her blood was insignificant on the first PER, but then changed her to suicide after the gastric fluid was tested, but get this, the Amitriptyline that was in her gastric fluid wasn’t enough to kill her.  Morgan supposedly killed herself by intentionally taking 18 – 25mg. pills. First, we now know you can never tell how many pills someone took.  Nobody can calculate that number.  So why do we have a guess as to how many pills she took?  What was the reason?  Then is gets better, 18 – 25mg pills is 450 mg., simple math 18 X 25 = 450.  And it is not a lethal dose, yes you read that right, 450 mg. is not a lethal dose.  Once again I welcome you to find a qualified expert who will testify that 450 mg. of Amitriptyline is a lethal dose.  You’ll have better luck trying to find a qualified expert that believes, and will testify that you can’t take 18 pills and not regurgitate at least part of them back up.  Yes, that is just another issue in Morgan’s death.  So he says she took 18 pills when no one can say how many pills anyone took, did not regurgitate any of them back up, as is most common with Amitriptyline, and she had the full 450 mg., which is not a lethal dose, and that is how she supposedly committed suicide, according to Dr Kurtzman.

Ever hear of the body of evidence?  Morgan’s body was cremated, but guess what?  They have all the samples that were taken at autopsy and tested, and we have the results of those tests.  Doesn’t matter if the test results were read incorrectly at the time – there are experts that can and have made sense out of them, and they are part of Morgan’s body and they are evidence, and they do tell a story…a story of murder.

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Today seems like one of those oh wow moments.  I have wondered, and I have really questioned the actions of some people out there who seem to take absolute enjoyment in painting Morgan into something she was not…not even close.

I raised all my children to question, and I believe that is healthy.  Accepting things at face value is easily the best recipe for disaster.  But then, stalkers are just plain bad people, no ifs, ands, or buts about it.  Peeping Toms, perverts, invaders of privacy for sexual gratification, or whatever else you want to call them – they all fall right into the same bad group, and I believe with all my heart Morgan’s perp was all of those.

So assuming we are people of the earth that care, how or why in the world would you do anything to support these creeps. C. H., who lived down the street, separated from J. H. at the time, and mother of B. H., whom you saw on the Dr. Phil Show, developed this pattern where she would spread a rumor, a falsehood, a big old lie about why the Sheriff’s Deputies were in the neighborhood, the following morning after an incident happened at our house.

Some of those lies might sound familiar now as I hear they keep making the rounds on the social media sites.  First was, Morgan went missing last night, that’s why the Deputies were at B.H.’s house last night, pounding on the door off and on for a half hour.  Never mind B. H. came out asking if they had a search warrant, and insisted the person they were there to talk to, K. J. VanG., she said was sleeping soundly, and could not be disturbed.  We could hear the knocking from our house, and we were only 3 houses away!

Then there was a story that she told the neighbors that the stalker was Morgan’s ex-boyfriend, Morgan had two ex-boyfriends, but to make it easy both were REALLY out of the state for most of the entire time of her stalking.  Then came, “the stalker was caught, no more need to worry.”  Why would someone cook up these stories lacking that oh so important element – truth?  These lies were to protect a stalker, diffuse attention, muddy the waters – who was she trying to protect?  And here is the thing about that.  Either you are against stalking, and want it stopped, or you don’t.  I can’t see how you can have any middle ground on this one.  Stalking is bad, its horrific, or do you think stalking is just fine?  There is no kind of ok when it comes to stalking.

My position is simply stated, there is absolutely no place in this world for stalking.  I’m against it 100%.  Now if you make up stories about the Deputies being in the neighborhood for an innocent reason when they were really there because of a stalker, what is your motive? The Deputies even knew the door to knock on to talk to the stalker, he just never answered.  Was it because he was dressed in black with mud on his elbows from crawling through the bushes?  But that is for another day.

After separate interviews with B.H. and C.H. about these very rumors, Morgan’s lead detective came back finding humor in the fact the B.H. said she got all her information from her mom, C.H. and C.H. said she got all her information from her daughter, B.H.  Talking to Steve and I later, he wondered aloud, “wouldn’t you think they could at least get their stories straight?”  He noted in his report that he detected deception.  The joke of it all was instantly gone I’m sure when Morgan was found dead.  Not really just an innocent series of lies then is it?

Then C.H. took the opportunity of Morgan’s death to say she had heard that Morgan committed suicide, nice rumor.  But this was six months before Dr. Kurtzman changed his mind, and did change it to suicide, her manner of death for the first 8 + months was natural causes.  Could she have known something we did not?  Was Morgan’s murder supposed to look like a suicide?  And her ex-husband J.H. said he heard from someone that Morgan said Steve and I were overreacting to the stalking situation.  Come on J. H., she was killed, overreacting?  If anything wouldn’t you think we totally under reacted?

So since today many seem to be questioning what really did happen to Morgan, I might as well fan the flames.  You see we now know that Morgan was killed by chemicals, a toxic mixture of chemicals.  This fact was not known for months after her death on December 2, 2011.  Dr. Dobersen was the first to confirm that fact back in April of 2012, many months before Dr. Kurtzman would decide that an additional test was needed, and then based on those results decided basically the same thing, except for the suicide angle, that was thought to be off the table, something I didn’t have to worry about, because, well the facts just didn’t support it.

Getting back to the chemicals, many doctors have looked at, and interpreted those chemicals, the levels, the timing, the locations.  And making another analogy completely different you can agree there is an amount of alcohol that says you can’t drive a car safely.  No matter how tall or short or heavy or thin, or even what time it is, or what you had your last meal…nothing matters else matters, your blood alcohol is all that matters – one amount for the whole country.

The chemicals that killed Morgan are not all that different.  What chemicals do in a human body can be predicted accurately enough for a conclusion.  The amount that would kill Morgan can be accurately predicted, and what would happen to those chemicals in her body after she died can also be predicted, less accurately, but far, far closer than they were.

The fact that Morgan was killed by a toxic mix of chemicals should have been known right when the first toxicology results came back.  So many specialists have looked at Morgan’s results since, and have been unanimous, 100%, no one can see how that level was ignored and called insignificant.  They say it in different ways, but in the end  you can’t ignore an Amitriptyline level of 7,909 ng./mg. in a 115 pound woman less than 16 hours after her death even with Postmortem Redistribution (PER).

If you are really bored try to find someone qualified who thinks it is even remotely possible that this level was insignificant.  Steve and I have not been selective at all.  We looked for the most qualified doctors, with the best credentials and they just happen to all agree.  Which of course means they all disagree with Dr. Kurtzman (the forensic pathologist), and how is that?  If it was 6 yes, and 6 no, I probably wouldn’t still be writing a Blog about her death, I’d be focusing on stalkers, but first things first here.  Steve and I have had the big toxicology book spun around, and slid across desk tops with a single finger tapping on the all important number in the chart, usually followed by words of pure certainty.  Some of them do the math in their head, reporting the progress out loud until they arrive at a number, which is then compared with her toxicology report number of 7,909 with all the same words of certainty.

And then comes the certainty of what happened to Morgan that night.  It’s not just in the magnitude of that one number, but in a human response to that level in a stomach vs. the blood, and ratios, and volumes, and locations.  It is quite a science, if you know what you are doing, which Dr, Kurtzman obviously did not.  A point Steve and I have heard far too many times when it was our daughter who was the one that died.  Especially when it all adds up to a killer still on the loose.  And yes, not to be any more vague than I have to be, this is all based on one assumption I am allowing myself.  That one assumption I am allowing myself is just this…that the stalker, the peeping tom, the pervert, the person that was basically thumbing his nose at law enforcement the night our camera caught him watching the Sheriff’s Deputies leaving, as he was standing in our driveway – and the person who gave her all these chemicals – are one in the same person.  Even Dr. Phil raised the question, and in case you missed my answer to him, it hasn’t changed – I can not believe that the person terrorizing Morgan for 4 months just decided to take that night off, and some random stranger just broke into our house and decided to kill Morgan…that is a little too far-fetched for me.

I believe the person who stalked and terrorized my daughter for four months is the same person who killed her that night.  There was not suddenly a new person for the evening.  But then I guess that will hopefully be up to a jury someday to decide, to look at everything that happened, and how it happened, and what all these numbers really add up to, and then make a decision, beyond a reasonable doubt or not.  Kind of like are you for stalking or against it, no middle ground, just yes or no, a black or white decision.

You may question this all so much that you really can’t tell, not yet.  And I really would not hold that against anyone.  If you are not sure if Morgan’s murderer was the same person that stalked her right up to that night or even if she had a murderer at all, that is your opinion.  But then again you don’t have all the information and evidence we have, and unfortunately we can not put it all out there yet.

But let’s at least stay together on one thing.  Stalkers are bad people, they cause massive emotional destruction, and physical damage to their victims, and they need to be stopped, every last one of them, if we can.  To be believed, and to be protected would mean so much to so many victims out there – and they deserve it – just because no one deserves to be stalked and live in fear.