Oh what a tangled web they weave…are stalkers/murderers getting help?

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The Dr. Phil episode of Morgan’s Stalking aired this week in Australia.  No Forensic Psychologists wrote in to us this time, so those who did share their thoughts can’t testify in court about their opinion, but they can certainly have one. And once again everyone thought that B.H. either was – not being truthful, had something to hide, was involved, or some combination of all three.

Steve was always amazed that we went on the show and really presented no evidence at all.  Yet the overwhelming conclusion of viewers not related to K. J. VanG. Who wrote into the blog or submitted a tip over the tip line was that – that girl on the show, B.H. was guilty of something, it was obvious to all.

A real trial with witnesses and evidence is of course a bit more complex, but I’d have to say I too was surprised that just the demeanor of B.H. on stage was enough for most everyone to make their decision.  I wonder what will happen when they watch her being cross-examined before a judge and then they have to decide.  Steve and I have to think actual confrontation on the false statements will tip the scales quite a bit more for Morgan.

This very possibility of “looking bad”I would think drove the decision of K. J. VanG.’s lawyer to not let him appear on the show.  Wasn’t that great by the way?  The 20 second clip of their statement that they regretted not being on the show.  Well wait, wouldn’t the truth for not being on the show be that you feared the potential criminal exposure of your client(s).  Wouldn’t that be the truth?  And if you haven’t done anything wrong, why do you fear potential criminal exposure, still have not figured that part out.  Really, how does that happen?

Back in the states the favorite statement B.H. made was “where’s the proof”, wow did that set everyone off.  She was completely slammed in making, repeatedly, I guess, what was a clear indicator of guilt.  I guess if you had thought you committed a crime and it was a perfect crime, no proof, no chance of ever being caught, a statement like that would make sense.

But then maybe there is no such thing as the perfect crime.  I don’t think the detectives were fooled, they were told to stand down by superiors and they obeyed.  Victims we were long before Morgan’s death, but after she was killed the word victim took on a horrible new meaning.  Our Sheriff Lou Vallario conceded that we were the real victims, and I really hope he meant Morgan too, because she was the biggest victim of us all. Horrific stalking, a horrible death, life snatched from her at age 20, and then to be labeled a suicide, when everything she believed in, and everything she stood for was quite the opposite of someone who would commit suicide. Evidently an entire story is all right there in the lab results.  There just has not been anyone in Garfield County willing or able to read it yet.

Meanwhile, I calmly as I can wait and agree with a group of doctors from many related specialties who say my daughter’s death was anything but natural causes, and certainly not a suicide.  They say it and I just could not agree more. The most revealing thing about this, and I say it with all the sarcasm I can muster, is that the doctors who have these opinions actually have reasons, they explain why in detail as to what they based their opinion on.  And then they are in agreement with one another’s opinions – all agree that is, except for Dr. Kurtzman, some have tried to talk with him about his opinions, he just won’t answer, and now if you are not a forensic pathologist he won’t talk to you at all, because, well lets just leave it at that.  It’s really quite sad, the corner he paints his profession into.  Aren’t forensic pathologists supposed to figure out the cause of death, and then if it is suspicious at all then put the manner down as undetermined until it can be investigated?

Things are not as complex as he is making them, they seem very simple taken one at a time, once they are really explained, for instance the amount of Amitriptyline in Morgan’s blood was a huge, overkill, lethal amount, but the Amitriptyline in her gastric fluid is not even enough to be lethal, and in Dr Kurtzman’s opinion, when he changed her manner of death to suicide he stated that the Amitriptyline in her gastric fluid was the lethal amount that killed her – this is not what killed Morgan.

Dr. Kurtzman (8 + months after Morgan was murdered) changed her manner of death from natural causes to suicide based on a new test with Morgan’s gastric fluid.  He stated the Amitriptyline in her blood was insignificant on the first PER, but then changed her to suicide after the gastric fluid was tested, but get this, the Amitriptyline that was in her gastric fluid wasn’t enough to kill her.  Morgan supposedly killed herself by intentionally taking 18 – 25mg. pills. First, we now know you can never tell how many pills someone took.  Nobody can calculate that number.  So why do we have a guess as to how many pills she took?  What was the reason?  Then is gets better, 18 – 25mg pills is 450 mg., simple math 18 X 25 = 450.  And it is not a lethal dose, yes you read that right, 450 mg. is not a lethal dose.  Once again I welcome you to find a qualified expert who will testify that 450 mg. of Amitriptyline is a lethal dose.  You’ll have better luck trying to find a qualified expert that believes, and will testify that you can’t take 18 pills and not regurgitate at least part of them back up.  Yes, that is just another issue in Morgan’s death.  So he says she took 18 pills when no one can say how many pills anyone took, did not regurgitate any of them back up, as is most common with Amitriptyline, and she had the full 450 mg., which is not a lethal dose, and that is how she supposedly committed suicide, according to Dr Kurtzman.

Ever hear of the body of evidence?  Morgan’s body was cremated, but guess what?  They have all the samples that were taken at autopsy and tested, and we have the results of those tests.  Doesn’t matter if the test results were read incorrectly at the time – there are experts that can and have made sense out of them, and they are part of Morgan’s body and they are evidence, and they do tell a story…a story of murder.

Stalkers can not be tolerated if we are all to live in a safer world

Snow on Mount Sopris

Snow on Mount Sopris

Today seems like one of those oh wow moments.  I have wondered, and I have really questioned the actions of some people out there who seem to take absolute enjoyment in painting Morgan into something she was not…not even close.

I raised all my children to question, and I believe that is healthy.  Accepting things at face value is easily the best recipe for disaster.  But then, stalkers are just plain bad people, no ifs, ands, or buts about it.  Peeping Toms, perverts, invaders of privacy for sexual gratification, or whatever else you want to call them – they all fall right into the same bad group, and I believe with all my heart Morgan’s perp was all of those.

So assuming we are people of the earth that care, how or why in the world would you do anything to support these creeps. C. H., who lived down the street, separated from J. H. at the time, and mother of B. H., whom you saw on the Dr. Phil Show, developed this pattern where she would spread a rumor, a falsehood, a big old lie about why the Sheriff’s Deputies were in the neighborhood, the following morning after an incident happened at our house.

Some of those lies might sound familiar now as I hear they keep making the rounds on the social media sites.  First was, Morgan went missing last night, that’s why the Deputies were at B.H.’s house last night, pounding on the door off and on for a half hour.  Never mind B. H. came out asking if they had a search warrant, and insisted the person they were there to talk to, K. J. VanG., she said was sleeping soundly, and could not be disturbed.  We could hear the knocking from our house, and we were only 3 houses away!

Then there was a story that she told the neighbors that the stalker was Morgan’s ex-boyfriend, Morgan had two ex-boyfriends, but to make it easy both were REALLY out of the state for most of the entire time of her stalking.  Then came, “the stalker was caught, no more need to worry.”  Why would someone cook up these stories lacking that oh so important element – truth?  These lies were to protect a stalker, diffuse attention, muddy the waters – who was she trying to protect?  And here is the thing about that.  Either you are against stalking, and want it stopped, or you don’t.  I can’t see how you can have any middle ground on this one.  Stalking is bad, its horrific, or do you think stalking is just fine?  There is no kind of ok when it comes to stalking.

My position is simply stated, there is absolutely no place in this world for stalking.  I’m against it 100%.  Now if you make up stories about the Deputies being in the neighborhood for an innocent reason when they were really there because of a stalker, what is your motive? The Deputies even knew the door to knock on to talk to the stalker, he just never answered.  Was it because he was dressed in black with mud on his elbows from crawling through the bushes?  But that is for another day.

After separate interviews with B.H. and C.H. about these very rumors, Morgan’s lead detective came back finding humor in the fact the B.H. said she got all her information from her mom, C.H. and C.H. said she got all her information from her daughter, B.H.  Talking to Steve and I later, he wondered aloud, “wouldn’t you think they could at least get their stories straight?”  He noted in his report that he detected deception.  The joke of it all was instantly gone I’m sure when Morgan was found dead.  Not really just an innocent series of lies then is it?

Then C.H. took the opportunity of Morgan’s death to say she had heard that Morgan committed suicide, nice rumor.  But this was six months before Dr. Kurtzman changed his mind, and did change it to suicide, her manner of death for the first 8 + months was natural causes.  Could she have known something we did not?  Was Morgan’s murder supposed to look like a suicide?  And her ex-husband J.H. said he heard from someone that Morgan said Steve and I were overreacting to the stalking situation.  Come on J. H., she was killed, overreacting?  If anything wouldn’t you think we totally under reacted?

So since today many seem to be questioning what really did happen to Morgan, I might as well fan the flames.  You see we now know that Morgan was killed by chemicals, a toxic mixture of chemicals.  This fact was not known for months after her death on December 2, 2011.  Dr. Dobersen was the first to confirm that fact back in April of 2012, many months before Dr. Kurtzman would decide that an additional test was needed, and then based on those results decided basically the same thing, except for the suicide angle, that was thought to be off the table, something I didn’t have to worry about, because, well the facts just didn’t support it.

Getting back to the chemicals, many doctors have looked at, and interpreted those chemicals, the levels, the timing, the locations.  And making another analogy completely different you can agree there is an amount of alcohol that says you can’t drive a car safely.  No matter how tall or short or heavy or thin, or even what time it is, or what you had your last meal…nothing matters else matters, your blood alcohol is all that matters – one amount for the whole country.

The chemicals that killed Morgan are not all that different.  What chemicals do in a human body can be predicted accurately enough for a conclusion.  The amount that would kill Morgan can be accurately predicted, and what would happen to those chemicals in her body after she died can also be predicted, less accurately, but far, far closer than they were.

The fact that Morgan was killed by a toxic mix of chemicals should have been known right when the first toxicology results came back.  So many specialists have looked at Morgan’s results since, and have been unanimous, 100%, no one can see how that level was ignored and called insignificant.  They say it in different ways, but in the end  you can’t ignore an Amitriptyline level of 7,909 ng./mg. in a 115 pound woman less than 16 hours after her death even with Postmortem Redistribution (PER).

If you are really bored try to find someone qualified who thinks it is even remotely possible that this level was insignificant.  Steve and I have not been selective at all.  We looked for the most qualified doctors, with the best credentials and they just happen to all agree.  Which of course means they all disagree with Dr. Kurtzman (the forensic pathologist), and how is that?  If it was 6 yes, and 6 no, I probably wouldn’t still be writing a Blog about her death, I’d be focusing on stalkers, but first things first here.  Steve and I have had the big toxicology book spun around, and slid across desk tops with a single finger tapping on the all important number in the chart, usually followed by words of pure certainty.  Some of them do the math in their head, reporting the progress out loud until they arrive at a number, which is then compared with her toxicology report number of 7,909 with all the same words of certainty.

And then comes the certainty of what happened to Morgan that night.  It’s not just in the magnitude of that one number, but in a human response to that level in a stomach vs. the blood, and ratios, and volumes, and locations.  It is quite a science, if you know what you are doing, which Dr, Kurtzman obviously did not.  A point Steve and I have heard far too many times when it was our daughter who was the one that died.  Especially when it all adds up to a killer still on the loose.  And yes, not to be any more vague than I have to be, this is all based on one assumption I am allowing myself.  That one assumption I am allowing myself is just this…that the stalker, the peeping tom, the pervert, the person that was basically thumbing his nose at law enforcement the night our camera caught him watching the Sheriff’s Deputies leaving, as he was standing in our driveway – and the person who gave her all these chemicals – are one in the same person.  Even Dr. Phil raised the question, and in case you missed my answer to him, it hasn’t changed – I can not believe that the person terrorizing Morgan for 4 months just decided to take that night off, and some random stranger just broke into our house and decided to kill Morgan…that is a little too far-fetched for me.

I believe the person who stalked and terrorized my daughter for four months is the same person who killed her that night.  There was not suddenly a new person for the evening.  But then I guess that will hopefully be up to a jury someday to decide, to look at everything that happened, and how it happened, and what all these numbers really add up to, and then make a decision, beyond a reasonable doubt or not.  Kind of like are you for stalking or against it, no middle ground, just yes or no, a black or white decision.

You may question this all so much that you really can’t tell, not yet.  And I really would not hold that against anyone.  If you are not sure if Morgan’s murderer was the same person that stalked her right up to that night or even if she had a murderer at all, that is your opinion.  But then again you don’t have all the information and evidence we have, and unfortunately we can not put it all out there yet.

But let’s at least stay together on one thing.  Stalkers are bad people, they cause massive emotional destruction, and physical damage to their victims, and they need to be stopped, every last one of them, if we can.  To be believed, and to be protected would mean so much to so many victims out there – and they deserve it – just because no one deserves to be stalked and live in fear.

The day when it all goes wrong…we didn’t listen to our intuitions

Morgan's ferret Mocha peeking out of a bag

Morgan’s ferret Mocha peeking out of a bag

There is such a day… and over the past year I have looked back on that day so many times.  We all knew there was danger, Morgan, Steve and I, but obviously we did not really know the extent of the danger.  But that is the story you know from the Blog of Morgan’s Stalking.  There are many other stories of the past year ,and now I want to share this one with you.

Very surprisingly, and unexpectedly since the day that Morgan was murdered, I have met people who have been through similar situations, all with different outcomes; however with a very similar thread to all our experiences.

We all thought we were being abundantly cautious.  We had all taken protective measures that may seem extreme to others, but were obviously not extreme enough.  And we all had that one night where one breakdown followed another until, much to our total dismay, our defenses were down.  And we all sort of independently thought, on that particular night, what are the odds? Or even, just this once, I can relax for one night, and everything will be alright.  And we did – relax that one night – and no, it was not alright.  Far from alright, it all went wrong, so horribly wrong.  Not just for Steve and I, and Morgan, but for many others who have shared their experiences with me.

As the last two weeks of Morgan’s life have been pieced together with as close to microscopic precision as Steve and I, and so many others helping us have been able to achieve things have surfaced.  So many things came to light that we would have never known.  So many seemingly innocent incidents that added together for Morgan to even be home on the evening of December 1st.

The night before she had a pleasantly unexpected ex-boyfriend sleep over on our couch – he wanted to add his watchful eyes and ears to ours, and on the night before that, she “felt “the stalker’s” presence, and heard his noises”, until she could take it no longer and went to the home of a grandmother she baked with.  The next evening (the evening after she was murdered) she would most likely have been gone for the weekend babysitting for our proud military families at their retreat in Frisco, CO.  And the move of our family would have officially begun in all likelihood the next week after that.

And here was that one night, as Steve and I have fatefully learned, where so many things were stacked against Morgan.  We learned that Morgan had asked to sleep over at a friends aunt’s house that night but it didn’t work out so she came home.  Whereas Tessi (our dog) was closed up in the back of the house in our room, very unusual.  Where I took extra sleeping aids because the exhaustion of Morgan’s Stalking had become too much.  When Steve moved a key motion detector because the suddenly increased Deputy patrols with their equipment laden trucks were setting it off at all hours of the night.  When an inside monitor suddenly failed, and was left off for the night.  And at least a few more I just can’t remember right now.  And we all know the outcome, sorry Louise, Morgan did not take her life, and even if she had it would still be a crime caused by the stalker, and his accomplices, and those covering for him.  But far too much evidence exists to dismiss the presence of at least one other in Morgan’s room that night.  We now know with complete certainty the reality that no parent ever wants to believe…our daughter was murdered in her own room, while we were sound asleep on the other side of the house.

In my grief I heard similar stories, and they did not register until much later.  Something that has been with me very much so since Morgan’s death.  Stories of alarms that were malfunctioning, and off for just one night.  Of tarps, and scaffolding in place at the neighbor’s house that conveniently concealed the criminal.  Of car keys that were thought to be missing, but were not missing at all, instead in use by the criminal with a new perfect hiding spot.  Of dogs that were at the vets for overnight observation, after suddenly taking ill.  The list goes on and on.  And because of all these mishaps that took place, something horrific happened to others on that one particular night when everything seemed to have gone wrong.

MISTAKE – letting your guard down in a crisis situation.  Stalking is a crisis situation, invasion of privacy for sexual gratification is a crisis situation.  The only thing you really know is how long it has been since the last time your perpetrator terrorized you.  And you know very well that most likely there will be a next time, and while you accept that fact, you do not know when it will be.

While you should not have to ever live in fear, you must also be extra vigilant on those nights when it seems like things are randomly, suddenly all going wrong.  Human nature to accept that there is a simple explanation for it all.  I did, Steve did, and now I have met many others who did.  We might have all been worried, but convinced ourselves that everything was going to be just fine.

Which brings up an obvious point, when I look back on the combination of events that came together by coincidence for one night, and I say coincidence, because there are events that were beyond the control of Morgan’s tormentor.  How much of a coincidence is it that is the night he chose too?  Too much of a coincidence?  I think so.

I think that stalkers and sexual perverts either get quickly exposed, and caught because they are inept at remaining undetected.  Or they have mastered remaining undetected and are rarely, if ever, caught red-handed, or have eyewitness testimony, and things of that nature.  They are only caught through trace evidence, DNA matches, a fatal slip up they never realized they had made until it was too late for them.

This all leads to one explanation that most do not like to think of.  What if your tormentor is there far more often than you ever realized?  What if sometimes you are aware of his presence and other times you are not?  What if the time that all seems so quiet and calm is the most dangerous?

My goal is not to further frighten other victims, but to further raise awareness of managing the dangers.  Because to help save others is to help make their radar one degree more intense.  Maybe the world is just not as safe a place as it once was, and we are all adjusting to that.  But I also want you all to know, parents and children alike, that to be just a little more cautious is a good thing.  To trust your instincts, even when your mind tells you something else.  Morgan was definitely not alone statistic wise, and the last thing she would wish is for you to join her.  Be happy, enjoy life, but please, be safe.

The Unimaginable Life

Morgan always with her camera

Morgan always with her camera

Living through four months of stalking and terror…it seemed so unbearable at the time, but now it seems like just a walk in the park compared with what came next. We couldn’t protect our little girl, Steve and I, and we will live with that crushing emptiness for the rest of our lives, just as so many others are forced to do.

Everyone has their way of dealing with the tragedies in their life. Maybe for Steve and I writing a blog, and helping other victims of stalking in the memory of Morgan is our way. It does help us, yet I know all too well the accomplishments become a part of Morgan’s legacy so that gives every little thing a far deeper meaning. And as her legacy has, without doubt, been treated unfairly and unjustly by those with something to hide, there is much work still left to do.

It was so unexpected, but it was also so predictable. That the relatives of the suspects would go to any length to protect them by attacking the victim and even us. These are people who know all too well of the criminal pasts, and the criminal ways.

And isn’t it so true, that in the aftermath of a mass killing, either an evening in a movie theatre, or over many years, and across many states, leaving victims dumped or buried across the country, there are always the parents of the perpetrator that knew at the least something, and at times quite a bit. Why is it that some freely admit they knew this horrific outcome was a possibility, while others feign shock or disbelief, and then there are the most unbelievable of all, they defend as if it never happened, and anyone who thinks it did is the one with the problem.

Steve and I certainly have our weak points, but we have never had to go trolling the internet engaging in impersonation, threats, false names, twisted truths, and on and on to protect our wayward children from eventual justice. With great certainty, I know there are facts that are know by very few, but that does not stop some from presenting what they would like to be believed in Morgan’s case as if it is the obvious truth, that all should know, when it is nothing more than lies.

To date, since her untimely death, Morgan has had many doctors review her case, all specialists in what they do. Most shocking to all is how Dr. Kurtzman (the forensic pathologist) can completely ignore an Amitriptyline level in her blood perhaps less than 12 hours postmortem, and certainly less than 18 hours of 7,909 ng/ml. When 800 ng/ml would have killed her, how is she found with a level of 7,909? How was it introduced?

A research scientist, and doctor who works at a pharmaceutical company has assured us there is no way Morgan could ingest enough Amitriptyline to produce that level without vomiting it up. It can’t happen. Is this all the proof? Certainly not, just one piece! Is this the “smoking gun”? Again, certainly not! Those pieces wait patiently for their day in court, but that is not the point. The point is we know the facts, we and many others that were not willing to stand by idly and watch what was happening to Morgan have worked hard to assemble the truth. It waits for its day, and like I always remind myself, the truth never changes.

The two primary detectives on Morgan’s case had a period when they were not sure who the “ringleader” was and who was being led along the wrong path. Many conversations took place over that fact, and they assured Steve and I that they bantered the question about endlessly. Notice that the issue was not who the two perpetrators were, there was no doubt of that. The issue was, who was the leader, who was the person in charge. They finally arrived on K.V.G. with B. H. just along for the ride – we agreed with that only after an event the day Morgan’s body was found. Steve calls them pennies in a jar, all these little bits of truth that add up to the conclusions I share. What really happened to Morgan the night she was murdered has been largely constructed from those many “pennies in her jar”.

You can bet I am not about to spill any of the pennies I have been asked to keep to myself until the time comes. It is such an odd existence to maintain this silence, especially for an Italian, I grew up beating the drum when it needed beating, not maintaining silence. Not sitting by in silence, biting my lip as others draw up grandiose conclusions as to what really happened when they do not have much more than a tiny clue as to what the real facts are. I guess Dr. Kurtzman did the same thing, he was just the first. An officer with the Garfield Sheriff’s Department who prefers to remain anonymous was the first to tell us that Dr. Kurtzman does not like to be wrong, and boy was he ever right about that. Good attitude for a profession where new evidence presents itself all the time. Ditto for the Sheriff when he proclaimed he would never open this case. Shocking for people who are supposed to search for the truth.

Now is the time when those with sons and daughters who have strayed a bit too far to do some blind justification for their budding young criminal children, it’s so simple really. If Morgan was not murdered, then there was no one who murdered her. If she was not stalked, then there was no one who stalked her. There is no statute of limitations on murder, so the only way you can claim to be “cleared” is when the murderer is prosecuted and found guilty, oh and it also is not you.

One more thing, if you are identified as a “regular customer” of the cash for gold store, then who cares if on one of your many trips there, Morgan’s gold was not a part of the loot cashed in. What about all of the other times you were there, being a “regular customer”? What was cashed in then? And I really wonder, why do you have so much gold you are a regular?

I have to ask, at some point aren’t they a bit obvious. Doesn’t it become a bit too much like the Wizard of OZ? “Pay no attention to the man behind the curtain”. Pay no attention to the man leaning against the front of Steve’s truck, and watching the Sheriffs drive away. Pay no attention to the young white male on the porch, punching numbers into the door lock at 4:30 am. Pay no attention to the young white male dressed all in black watching you let your dog out in the morning, ten feet away, at approximately 5:30 am in the dark!

And what about all of the foot trails on the berm behind our house, I almost forgot the trails worn into the berm. But wait, there could be a perfectly good explanation, now this is a long shot, but you have to allow for the possibility, it could all be the regulars from Catherine’s Store taking short cuts home. Isn’t that what Louise Bundy would have said? With complete seriousness too. We lived in that house for over 6 years and there never were trails worn into the berm before the stalking started.

And if you took the time to explain to Louise how there is a problem with the theory of Catherine’s Store customers trekking through the ranch on the way home, like the paddocks that look so nice and green from outer space are really full of mud (it’s why there are never horses in the end paddocks), and the irrigation ditch, which really does not show at all, is full of water and makes a big splash, and thud as you trip through it. How there are not really many residents in our neighborhood to go there anyway. And finally the trails over the berm starting behind our house don’t really lead to Catherine’s store. They do lead to the same place as the trails from the walk around in early November 2011 did, to B.H.’s house at the end of the street. But as Louise would say, that is such a minor point…right?

Morgan had her dreams and her goals. She worked very hard at them until the day they were all taken from her. And if Morgan could have one dream right now it would be that other victims do not have to suffer the same fate she did. There is still a stalker/murderer out there that has not been arrested, and be assured he will do it again…he can not stop.

Steve and I are here to make sure that doesn’t happen, for as many as possible. That Morgan’s true legacy can become as bright as her life on earth was, she deserves at the very least for that to happen.

Morgan’s army of angels has been helping us in such a huge way, finding us experts in their fields for their review of the evidence, finding us legal council to help us through all the steps needed to move forward, keeping the pressure on, helping us to advance, and go up the chain of command – if any other angels out there want to help as well please email me through the website on the contact button…be assured, I will answer…the help and advice we have been offered has made all the difference in the world, and I know there are still angels out there that can help even more. Thank you all for your support and help! Steve and I couldn’t do this without you.

Protection Orders – should you get one or not? The million dollar question.

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Ask most any law enforcement officer if they agree with protection orders, and you will most likely get an answer something like, you are taking a big chance with protection orders.  And are they are right, and if so why?  Because too many times a TRO, aka Temporary Restraining Order, aka Protection Order is issued and the person meant to be protected is vandalized, beaten or killed.  Doesn’t sound like a very good thing does it?

But how could this be?  If you are being stalked or a victim of a sexual crime, or domestic abuse you need protection, you deserve protection, your life depends on it.  And once again, why is that?  Because your tormentor, your perpetrator, the pervert who has you in their cross hairs needs to be stopped NOW, and the ugly truth is that at present this piece of paper states simply, “you (the perpetrator) need to stop this, now, or else!  This person is so close to unhinged that a little piece of paper like this could send him or her over the edge, completely unhinged, and they will retaliate, against you, for doing nothing except trying to protect yourself, your children, and your pets.  And your death could be on the table as one of the potential retaliations to this piece of paper.

Then of course there are the less lethal varieties of retaliation, your tires could be sliced, all four, your home may be entered and destroyed, your pets could be threatened, and then killed, on and sickening on, and sickening on.  Doesn’t sound very much like protection does it?  And if your perp is that close to being unhinged to begin with shouldn’t that be a clue as to how dangerousness he is to begin with?

Ever notice that if law enforcement is responding to a call, and there is a warning that the suspect is “to be considered armed, and dangerous” oh boy, there is now an entirely new protocol in place.  Double the responders, weapons all drawn, shoot to kill.  Why is a Protection Order in Place less important?  Why is a suspected felony stalking that includes tapping on windows again any less of a danger?  Why was a call for Morgan less important than “to be considered armed, and dangerous”.  Why is she dead while her tormentor lives on?  To Steve and I this does not seem very fair, or equitable.

Morgan identified her stalker to others, including law enforcement over 35 times.  Five months after her death the Garfield Sheriff’s Department not only had no suspect, they all of a sudden NEVER had a suspect.  Who was it that Morgan was reporting?  K.V.G.,  grand theft auto, trespassing, breaking and entering, theft by receiving (as part of a plea bargain), possession with intent to distribute,  identified by J.H., B.H’s father, as the stalker.  The stalker that I was told with certainty, to the exclusion of all others, by the detective assigned to catch him, only two days before Morgan was murdered.  The same detective that told me that things might escalate.  The young man in question who so quickly pointed the finger at his “ex” girlfriend.  Then pointed the finger at his next door neighbor, sorry Wiley, we know better, but he did try to blame you. The young man in question, that pillar of society, according to his manager at work, caught with a trunk load of drugs, and a scale, who regularly pawned gold for cash to the point they instantly recognized him as a regular customer.  Where is he getting all this gold to pawn anyway? isn’t that worthy of one question?  And in case you forgot, all of Morgan’s valuable jewelry was missing the night she was killed.  Pumped up with at least 2,500 mg of a deadly drug.  While pathologists across the country are lost for an explanation as to how her levels could be just under 8,000 ng/ml, which is ten times the level that would have caused little Morgan’s lethal dose.  You read right, they were ten times what would have caused her death!

Dr. Kurtzman, the Forensic Pathologist that did Morgan’s autopsy had no problem with an explanation, “insignificant”, that’s what he said it was, insignificant even when questioned by other doctors!  Until almost nine months later, when he decides it suddenly becomes “significant”, so much so that it proves her suicide, is this guy really serious?  Did he talk with Morgan’s doctors, any of them? NO!  Did he talk with her teachers, any of them?  NO!  Did he talk with her friends, any of them?  NO!  Did he talk with her parents, yes he did, and when we told him that she wasn’t taking that he told us the parents are always the last to know.  I said that is not true, and he hung up.

I could go on for hours, but I’m sure you get the idea. Did they have a suspect? Yes!  A #1, oh he did it, we are a 100% sure suspect.  They just changed their mind, the Sheriff’s Department, after Morgan was found dead.  Morgan does not get to change her mind, she suffers the consequences of incompetence, forever.  Dead at age twenty, with a book full of plans for her future, only two years left before she can get her Bachelor’s degree and take the LSAT’s to go to law school, and the Sheriff’s department is content to read through her iphone, and decide no evidence on her death existed there.

Then where was it?  The evidence? Or was Garfield County just more concerned with keeping their perfect suicide record they have going?

So what about those protection orders?  I feel like it comes down to who is enforcing them, how, and how seriously.  When I asked in the beginning about a protection order for Morgan I got double talk.  It went like this – If you hold off on the protection order, we can do all these things that we won’t be able to do after you get a protection order.  Sounded good so we held off with a protection order and then they promptly did none of the things they were going to do if we held off with the protection order.  What exactly was the reasoning for that?

Read about protection orders, they travel with you.  It is up to you, but a copy can be filed with every law enforcement agency at places you travel to, and they are required to be upheld.  Are you thinking that only if you travel they are worth it?  Remember my story about different agencies right here in the valley that do not communicate?

If Morgan had a protection order I could have filed it with the Garfield Sheriff’s Department, the Pitkin County Sheriff’s Department, the Aspen Police Department, the Snowmass Police Department, the Basalt Police Department, the Eagle County Sheriff’s Department, the Carbondale Police Department, the Colorado State Troopers, and the Glenwood Springs Police Department.  Then whenever Morgan saw the man, anywhere in this valley, that she had identified over 35 times to others, she would have an agency to call and they would be required to arrest him.  Do you know how I know this?  A lawyer explained it for me last week.  Not Morgan’s detective who told me to hold off so he could implement a few things first, then did nothing.  A lawyer told me.  And this was just one of the many reasons he told us about protection orders, some were good, and some were not so good.

MISTAKE, trusting the local law when it comes to protection orders, see a lawyer or see a judge, and ask their advice, then ask the judge for free legal counsel, call victims rights in your state, and ask them for a referral.  Don’t let your child get killed.  They mean far too much to you, and to the world.  And you deserve answers, early and often, not apologies, and avoidance, long after it is too late.

Morgan prays for all of the victims in the world…Steve and I join her.  You deserve the best – the absolute best.