There is always something missing….Morgan.

missing youI can see it in everyone’s eyes – whenever family and friends are together enjoying each other’s company and having a celebration, there is something no one wants to mention, there is always something missing, and it’s Morgan.  Our sweet, gentle Morgan, whom everyone loved.

Morgan’s light was breathtaking…from the moment she was born and she looked into your eyes you would become mesmerized. Morgans iphone self

Now here come the holidays and once again Morgan with not be with us.  It is almost the 4th anniversary of her murder and I am not quite sure what to do.  If any of you have any suggestions as to how to go about honoring her life, and raising awareness on this upcoming December 2nd please let me know.  I would greatly appreciate any suggestions.

Team Morgan, you have been the wind beneath my wings all these past years and I would love nothing more than to feel the force of that wind on December 2nd.  Thank you all so very much!

Does someone in Colorado know where Lea’s body is?

Dianne Derby @ Co. Springs KKTV is running a segment on Mothers of Murdered and/or Missing children. The group segment will air this Monday (tomorrow, November 16th) with 19 year old Lea Porter’s individual story airing on Wednesday. Please share.

Rene Jackson’s 19-year-old daughter Lea was murdered last year in June. Her killer is behind bars, but her body has never been found. Rene believes someone has information that could lead police to Lea’s remains. 

Colorado’s 11 Call for Action Investigates five women and their heartbreaking stories of loss.

Watch and share this short video clip Colorado, Unsolved, Monday at 10 on KKTV 11 News. You or someone you know may be able to help these mothers find peace.

You can click on the short video of Rene that I have posted on https://www.facebook.com/morgansstalking

rene and lea

Does Colorado Protect Rogue Officers?

I just ran across this article http://www.denverpost.com/news/ci_28470805/colorado-laws-allow-rogue-officers-stay-law-enforcement in the Denver Post.

It is titled: Colorado laws allow rogue officers to stay in law enforcement.  Colorado’s rogue police officers continue to stay in law enforcement due to lenient state laws.

They wrote, “Roger Goldman, a nationally recognized expert on officer misconduct who has helped write laws establishing state police review panels, said Colorado’s lenient rules allow unfit officers to continue doing harm.”

It was an eye-opener for sure, and then I saw this article http://www.denverpost.com/news/ci_28952022/colorado-home-second-chance-police-officers-from-other

 I feel that Colorado’s law of original jurisdiction (Home Rule) creates the perfect climate for police corruption, and I truly believe this law needs to change – it needs to be abolished.

All power corrupts

A Father’s Devastation…love NEVER dies

IMG_0857This picture is a picture of a grease board Steve used to keep in the office at his shop.  One day Morgan came by to help out in his office, and she wrote this on his grease board.  She never mentioned that she wrote it, but of course the next morning when Steve opened his office he saw it, and he NEVER erased it.  He kept it on the grease board because it made him smile every time he looked at it.  He still has it today, but because he fears that it may accidentally get erased, he wrapped it in plastic and stored it away.  This is what we parents do when our children are taken from us.  When we no longer can see or hear them, and we do not want to loose the precious items they left behind.  Somehow seeing her writing makes it seem like she is just away at school, or on some grand adventure.

Tomorrow is Steve’s birthday.  It should be a day of celebration, but the days leading up to today have been extremely hard for him.  Every day became more and more emotional.  His heart has been torn in two. It has been almost 4 years since Morgan was murdered and there is no closure.

Morgan was his baby…she was our youngest child.  A surprise gift we received when we least expected it.  At the time she was born we already had a 13 year old daughter and a 10 year old son, but when Morgan entered this world we all fell in love – she completed us.  It is so hard for him, as it is me, to look through all the happy pictures of Morgan…it shouldn’t be, the pictures should make us smile, and they do, but then we start to cry.  It is like someone is pulling our hearts out of our chests.

So tomorrow everyone in our family will put on smiles and try our best to make Steve happy, at least for a little while, but in reality I know even if he can sustain a mask of happiness he will be crying inside.  Anyone can be a father, but only a special man can be a daddy, and Steve is, and was, a daddy to Morgan as well as our other 2 children, as well as to our niece who never knew her real father.  Steve is and always will be a daddy, and I know Morgan will be at his side all day tomorrow, even though he won’t see her – my hope is that he will feel her spirit come through, because of all the love she has for him…death can never destroy that love.  I wish Steve a happy birthday – he is the best daddy I could have ever hoped for as a father to my children, and I love him with all of my heart.

 

MURDERED CHILDREN: ALWAYS ON OUR MINDS, NEVER FORGOTTEN

Morgan is always on Always on my mindmy mind, and forever in my heart – she will never be forgotten.  

This is the same for all those
many other families that I have spoken with over the past few years.  So many are in, or were in, the same situation as ours…their child had been determined to be; a missing person/runaway, suicide, accidental death, or natural causes, when there was credible evidence that these are the wrong conclusions.

I can understand when law enforcement receives a case that they have worked on but can’t ever seem to get enough evidence to make an arrest – of course that happens, and then it becomes a cold case.  BUT there are so many cases like Morgan’s that are never allowed to be investigated because the evidence is ignored.  It is a case (for all different reasons) that law enforcement does not want to investigate – they do not want it to be a homicide and please, don’t believe for one moment in time that this does not happen…it does.

People ask me, “How can you keep fighting for an investigation to be opened when local law enforcement won’t listen?”  It isn’t easy, but just like other parents in our situation, when you have credible evidence, facts that show your daughter or son was a victim of a homicide, you can’t just drop it and walk away.  Sure it may be a little less painful to walk away and pretend it never happened, but you would know that you are allowing a murderer(s) to walk free. That doesn’t work for me, it doesn’t work for Steve and it doesn’t work for so many thousands of other supporters that want to see justice for Morgan…it doesn’t matter how long it takes, we won’t give up.

We are not grieving parents that can’t accept that our daughter is dead – we know she is dead, we know nothing will bring her back. We also know first hand that not every murder that is committed is listed as a homicide.  We have spoken with many other families that have been in the same situation – some of them have fought for 5 years, some for 13 years, some for over 20 years before the truth has come to light, and their loved ones were able to receive justice. Some families are still fighting to this day.  These are cases where their children were not considered victims of homicide – but they should have been.  If you believe for one moment in time that it doesn’t happen, start reading the news. It happens too often, and it is always horrific for the families…how can they do that to parents that have lost a child to a violent crime, and then it is cover up for many different reasons?  To lie and cover up a murder is not only criminal, it is also a crime against humanity.  Human atrocities have happened throughout human existence, because good people have stepped back and kept quiet – they did not stand up for what is right.  Look back on history and ask yourself, “What would I have done?”

Morgan was, and is loved.  Morgan was, and is important.  We want only justice and truth for Morgan – nothing less.  The holidays will be here soon – remember to hold each other tight, and tell each other how much you love them…every day is precious, and every moment together is a moment to make a memory…a memory that you will carry with you forever.

Love & light to you all.

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