Today is New Year’s Day – our loss is so profound there are no words to describe it.  What we will be doing for the next year is not known to us on this day, but we do know that we have a path to follow that we have never been on before.  A path that will be very painful.  A path that we know we need to follow – our hearts tell us this.

This is our first New Year without Morgan – we cried a lot today. Detective Rob & Megan were supposed to come over today, but didn’t make it.

This year is now 2013 and today is February 23rd.  First let me say Steve and I are not professional Law Enforcement agents, nor are we Private Investigators, but we have been blessed with the determination that all parents that love their children have…to follow this through to the end for our daughter Morgan, and all the many others that need us to fight for them – to fight for change.

I wonder if anyone really thinks about what is going on in their neighborhood, I for the most part did not.  I mean do you really know what is going on in your neighborhood?  Wouldn’t you assume that if something was up you should be told about it?  Think about this, have you ever been warned about crimes going on right in your own neighborhood, so you can take appropriate precautions to protect your family?  Have you ever had the police or Sheriffs pass out flyers, or go door to door to warn people to be on the look-out for something?  Have you ever caught someone clearly in your yard, looking in your house, at you, at night, or heard tapping or banging on your window?

Have you ever thought you might be being stalked or actually had someone stalk you?  Wouldn’t you think you should let people know about these dangers?  We were specifically told in Morgan’s case not to tell anyone.  And we really did listen to that request.  But in the real world, to varying degrees, people want to know what is up when the Deputies always show at your house, usually at night.  They wonder if there is something going on they should know about.  In Morgan’s case did it really help to try and keep everyone in the dark?  I honestly don’t see how.

Please, write in to me as a comment to this blog, or using the contact button on this website, you can tell the world about your experiences, if you want you can be anonymous – please don’t suffer in silence anymore.  Let people know how horrible this really is.  By telling your story it helps raise awareness.  I have had many people write in to me about their experiences, and I will start telling the readers about those very soon now.  We can all learn from other people’s experiences, in order to protect ourselves.  Law enforcement across the world can learn things, and have already learned from stories on this blog, I know because they write to me and tell me what they learned.  All that needs to happen is to want to get better, be able to admit you can improve, and you will.  Close that door, and you will stay the same, for better, or more likely, for worse, forever.

I have been warned so many times, since the beginning of Morgan’s stalking, that we have to temper what to expect out of Law Enforcement.  They only have so much time and I was told about the man behind the curtain that controls how much is allocated to what crime.  Morgan’s Detectives worked four days a week and out of those four there was usually a one hour slot allocated for an interview or something else on Morgan’s case.  I no longer accept that because we don’t even have to guess if that was enough, it wasn’t, and how much would have been? We will never know.  Does this mean that we are not really protected? Or are we partially protected, and if your felon happens to have more time than the Sheriff’s department, then what?  I guess you are in for bad news, just be sure to not tell any of the neighbors, am I missing something?

We did always have the Deputies to call on 24/7.  But there was one minor glitch – the response times. 15 minutes was unusually quick, 25 to 45 was more the norm.  So try this experiment, imagine that your daughter just screamed because she saw someone looking in her bedroom window.  She pulls the drapes, you run outside, circle the house, completely caught by surprise, you are unarmed, and even if you were armed would you shoot into the dark when there are houses with innocent people in them close by?  But it does not matter because you don’t see anyone.  You then pretend to call the Sheriff’s department.  Then you sit down and wait 25 minutes and a Deputy arrives.  And together you circle the house again stopping many times as the Deputy shines his powerful light at something nearby.  Do you think it is any more likely you are going to see him this time?   Imagine the guy next to you, on the minuscule chance you did see anything, do you think the two of you could run the perpetrator down on foot, or would you lose him somewhere out in the brush?  I wonder if they keep stats, showing they responded to an intruder call, but didn’t see anything – check this box, or damn if he wasn’t still standing right there at the window – check this box.

When they played that clip on television and the Sheriff Lou Vallario said they were out to our house over fifty times and never saw anyone that is was about the most ridiculous thing he could have said.  Notice there was no mention of the series of wildlife cam photos.  Here is a link in case you have not, https://morgansstalking.com/?p=845.  One Deputy, two Deputies, and then “him”, since they never saw a stalker should we call “him” an Intruder?  And then there he is, the Intruder, trying to knock down the camera.  Deputies come flying back after we see these for the first time, boy are they pissed, he was right there, practically watching them leave.  Could he have been in the back of the truck?  Where was he hiding?  Who is he? Definitely not Morgan’s stalker, because our sheriff in the news clip on TV said they never saw one.

Time for a change in tactics perhaps?  No way, look how close we were that time.  A print out in the patrol vehicles in case he’s spotted somewhere else?  No way, it’s not clear enough to really tell.  But I do not blame the Sheriffs, Steve and I have no one to blame but ourselves.  By the time we figured out that this was entirely up to us to stop – it was too late for Morgan.  Do not make the mistake we did.

We were not alone in our experience; so far, all other victims that have written in to me about their individual experiences with stalkers have said that law enforcement never saw their stalker either.  But then in Morgan’s case, to never use the dogs to track the suspect, especially when they told us they believed he was in our neighborhood, especially after telling us they would bring in a tracking dog next time, but never did, well this is wrong with a capital W.

I now know from others who have written to me that this same peeking in and tapping on the windows happens more often than it is spoken of, It is more an invasion of privacy for sexual gratification than a misdemeanor trespass, and it has been going on in our little area of the valley for at least 4 years.  I truly believe we are dealing with a serial stalker/murderer.   I have had contact from girls and women that live not far away at all, and yes, these incidents were all called in to the Sheriff’s Department.  Did the Sheriff’s ever see the Intruder any of those times that these women were alone in their houses and called up to report the crime?  No!  One time, and one time only, I was told that they actually put the tracking dog onto the scent, even though the responding deputies never saw the intruder, but they lost him.  I also know that two of these times the woman did get a good visual sighting, and gave officers a very good description – would our Sheriff’s now have to say that, like Morgan’s stalker, all those incidents were a figment of their imagination? – That just because they (the Deputies) never saw the stalker he just didn’t exist? The Sheriff’s hired dogs tracked him, all the way to the Carbondale Mini Storage I was told, for a total of about 1 mile before the dog lost his scent.  They had gotten good descriptions of what the guy looked like – just like Morgan gave them a description, and a name, and a car, but no arrests were ever made, and no residents were ever warned.  I saw this because one of the incidents was two weeks before Morgan’s started, same description same M.O.

I am on the Garco warning system and I get a text about highway closures. Would you mind if you received a text that an intruder, unidentified was reported in a certain area?  If you have daughters wouldn’t you want to know?

I would think in every one of these incidents if the officers had warned the neighborhoods close by then there would have been more eyes, and ears to assist in bringing it to an end.  I would think the officers would appreciate the help, since chances are slight they could never make it there in time to actually “see” the perpetrator.  Maybe this little change in tactics would have resulted in an arrest; maybe this would have saved Morgan’s life.  We will never know, but going forward I think this is something to consider…very seriously.  Another thing I just remembered…the felony stalking detective assigned to Morgan’s case printed up a flyer that he passed out one morning to all the Garfield County Patrol Officers as well as the Carbondale Police with the picture of the  “suspects” car, the “suspects picture”, Morgan’s picture, a map of our neighborhood, and other details so they could all be on watch and up to speed on what was happening – now how in the world could this have been distributed, and then after Morgan is murdered the Sheriff’s Department states that they never had a “suspect”?  Once again, am I missing something here?

I also do not believe because you live in a small town and your Coroner needs to hire a subcontracted forensic pathologist that you should just accept a substandard job that gives out a manner of death that no other doctor in this state, or in this country has agreed with, and this lets a criminal walk free to continue to perfect their trade.  We now know, thanks to the many readers of this blog, which include 2 forensic toxicologists, many retired Medical Examiners, another prominent forensic pathologist, many medical specialists, and even pharmaceutical scientists, who have all weighed in on just Morgan’s toxicology results, and explained to us what the findings really represent.  And guess what?  Everyone agrees that it was a lethal dose – extremely lethal dose, and they either do not see how he could have ignored it, or that he should have known it or that he should questioned it, and most all do not see why an investigation was not launched right then and there.

If our “small” town cannot do the right thing with the crime scene or with the forensic findings then they should differ to those who can, and just call in the Colorado Bureau of Investigation – that’s what they are there for…they have the professional equipment, they would have been there that same morning.  The morning Morgan’s body was found (our Sheriff and Coroner state it was under suspicious circumstances, and that is why they had crime scene tape around our house, and took her body for an autopsy – they state she was a victim of felony stalking, so why not call in the CBI?  I still do not have an answer to that question.  Did Morgan not deserve it?  Was it not in “the budget”?  Is there something that can be done differently next time?

I also want the answer to the question of why did Dr. Kurtzman, the forensic pathologist, change Morgan’s manner of death from natural causes (which was incorrect since she had obviously been poisoned with a massive dose of Amitriptyline) to suicide 8 months later after running a different test that actually showed the presence of a concoction of date rape drugs that is conveniently never mentioned in the second report?

I believe this was a murder and the evidence pointing to that fact continues to grow, even in the absence of any investigation, strictly through the efforts of people around the country helping us to seek justice for Morgan.  People can say all these experts are all wrong, or I am making them up, or this is not the conclusions they are coming too, but I know better.  The truth will come out and I keep asking myself how will they try to spin it then?  When the real question should be how can any decent person put a family like us through this kind of pain, because of their incompetence and then blame us,  thinking if we only went away and dropped this everything would go back to normal, and all would be good?  Trust me folks not only does that not work, but it will never work.