Morgan painted this as a gift for me for Mother’s Day after her first oil painting class she took from Majid in Carbondale with her Dad – I have always had it hung by my kitchen to brighten up my day and just like the other picture I showed you of the girl kneeling by an angel – all Morgan’s paintings had a bright white focal point be it a girl or a vase or anything.  I always wondered about that but then I have been told it is a clue to a spiritual center…I wonder if that’s true?  Anyway I just love the colors!

Mother’s Day Oil Painting

I am posting this today, but it will always be available on the upper right hand side at the top of this blog under helpful pages – just click on Morgan’s medical past.

Contrary to what some believe – Morgan’s right to privacy survives her –

• If there was a medication that was involved in her death then that is a different situation that can become public record.
• However; if there is a current or past medication that was not a part of her death then her right to privacy with respect to that information is still in full force and effect.
• The original Toxicology report found ONE MEDICATION and its naturally occurring synthesis. No drugs of abuse, no alcohol, ZERO. Just Amitriptyline AKA Elavil.
• When Dr. Kurtzman performed the autopsy he reported seeing no pills or pill fragments, this led to the conclusion it could not have been a suicide.
• Two facts drove our research and seeking out 2^ndopinions about Morgan’s death.
  • We had to know what killed Morgan as we have grandchildren and wanted to be sure they were not in any danger from an as yet unknown condition.
  • Dr Kurtzman wrote that in view of the stalking at the time of her death, that should additional information be provided he was open to changing her manner of death.  So we wanted to see if such information existed.
• The very first 2^nd opinion was an opinion with no doubt in her mind that this case was not natural causes, but a homicide.  We were not expecting this and were shocked.  And concurring opinions just kept piling up.  Dr. Kurtzman was resistant to this and the lone voice supporting his conclusion.  As we moved toward finding a cause of death and engaged toxicologists we were again shocked to begin hearing the level of Amitriptyline being described as massive.  Once again Dr Kurtzman was the lone dissenter to find Morgan’s level as insignificant, and continues to this day to believe she was prescribed and taking Amitriptyline daily right up to the day she died, she was not, and this is an irrefutable medical fact.  This caused an immediate issue for us.  That she had amitriptyline levels being accepted as the certain cause of her death and she was not taking amitriptyline.  If she ever had in that distant past that would certainly be part of her Medical History and off limits.
• We were being advised by other specialists that Morgan’s death was a homicide based on the super high levels of amitriptyline and possibly contributing could be the fear response to stalking.  Meanwhile; Dr. Kurtzman found her death to be caused by Porphyria – DESPITE THE MEDICAL FACT Morgan had never been diagnosed with Porphyria.  Hard enough to properly diagnose in the living, virtually impossible once deceased.
• Based on expert medical opinions we disagreed with the conclusions being made by Dr. Kurtzman.  This disagreement led Dr. Kutzman to threaten Toni on three occasions to abandon her efforts to see the manner and cause of death corrected from Natural Causes to Homicide.
• The second Toxicology test run in June 2012 again found Amitriptyline. And also the presence of five other drugs commonly referred to and contained on the standard date rape panel. The levels of two were established and the sample exhausted before the last four could be.
• In the second autopsy report Dr. Kurtsman admits to the two drugs with established levels, but chooses to ignore the other four, which were definitely present in Morgan, just in unknown quantities.  Any one, or all of these other drugs could have played a role in Morgan’s death.
• Dr. Kurtzman is credited with having said that upon re-examination of the gastric contents he saw a “granular substance” which he assumed to be Amitriptyline.  This “substance” was not collected, preserved, or tested and is now lost forever.  Based upon this substance and the number of pills he calculated would be needed, in his opinion, he changed her death to a suicide.
• In the state of Colorado we have been told that to find a suicide requires intent to be established.  This is generally accomplished though multiple assessments and interviews with, doctors, teachers, employers, parents and friends.  No attempt has ever been made to establish intent, a requirement under state law.
• I have just started to read police reports.  All references to drug use contained are second hand reports, “hearsay”. This is pure speculation.  That Morgan might have tried something once would be one thing.  I seriously doubt if she would have become a regular user of any drug and there is nothing in the report that establishes drug use as a fact.  Quite the opposite, it is a FACT that her toxicology report is completely clean as to any recreational drugs.  One of the Detectives on this case told me there was probably not a person in the Sheriff’s department who had not tried cocaine at least once.  I do not know what he bases this on, but I doubt that it is completely true.  That Morgan could be just one of those people who choose not to do drugs is very difficult for some to believe -but then her lifelong friends all find it easy to believe – perhaps there is something to that.