Missing Morgan…and a little bit about Morgan

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Today was a very busy Friday, and I have pushed back from my desk and am taking a few moments and thinking of Morgan.  Spring is here and the snow is all gone from the yard, not a single patch left, green will soon replace the many shades of brown that dominate now.

Morgan loved the snow and told all her friends how much she loved falling snow.  She loved to try to catch a flake on her tongue with a smile so big it was contagious to anyone who saw it.  I like to think about her love for catching snowflakes on her tongue because it is something she and her father did often when she was young.  It’s hard to catch a snowflake on your tongue sometimes, and it became a little challenge she carried with her for the rest of her life.

The simple things in life were all so Morgan, because it was all she really needed, the simple things.  To paint, capture an image with a camera, walk her puppy to the park, sketch, knit, and crochet mittens for a gift – these were all the simple things she enjoyed.  Camping with her friends… she had an old Landrover with over 300,000 miles and absolutely loved that no matter where the “boys” brought her she would never get stuck, and she would get to look back when they got stuck, and ask “what’s the matter?”

Steve and I were so enormously blessed to have Morgan in our lives for 20 years. It is too easy to forget the true joy she gave us, and I have to do a better job of remembering.

Who knows what would have been her next adventure, but I bet it would have been something simple, and you know it would have been great.

Definition of ACCUSE – to charge with a fault or offense: blame

Morgan with her keyboard and a pile of sheet music. Pure joy for her.

Morgan with her keyboard and a pile of sheet music. Pure joy for her.

Morgan had a chance to accuse with very good reason, completely justified, and it fell on deaf ears.  And just like so many other stalking victims that are not taken seriously by law enforcement, now Morgan has had all she ever had taken from her – her life, and is there any possible level on which that is really remotely fair?  Steve and I will never stop fighting for our youngest daughter.  Morgan has not been treated with fairness by those whose responsibility it was all the way back when she was being horrifically stalked, and dutifully reporting it, and in all the time since her death.

Meanwhile the accusations have been flying – for well over a year now, so many it is hard to keep track of them all, but it had to start somewhere, and I believe the first accusation came from Morgan, and it was about her stalker, could that possible be a surprise to someone?

Morgan told Steve and I, and then the deputies about someone tapping, and banging on her window, but when it first started she had no idea who it was.  She was really scared and didn’t know why this was happening.  She was sure of the tapping, and banging noises she heard.  As it went on she became more frightened, especially after we ruled out trees, small animals, and anything else we could think of that could have had an innocent reason to cause these sounds.

After seven days of trying to solve the mystery noises ourselves, we called the Sheriffs, and the wheels of justice in Garfield County were set into motion on August 9th 2011.  They reprimanded us for waiting so long to call it in.  What else can I say?  I guess maybe they are not very good wheels.

The first task they gave Morgan was to suggest possible suspects, ex-boyfriends, strangers she noticed, it was probably someone she knew, all the usual basic advice.  The deputies did their absolute best, and I will always say they were just saddled with a protocol that, unfortunately for Morgan, did not stand much of a chance against her stalker(s).  They tried a photo lineup that they showed her, but there was no one she recognized.  They surmised almost from the start he/she lived in the very immediate area and ran the plates of most vehicles in the neighborhood.

And then Morgan discovered, thanks to Elliott (our neighbor across the street), that Keenan had moved into the neighborhood just before the stalking started (actually 3 houses down from us), and Morgan immediately sent an email to a deputy, she had seen Keenan once, but did not know him, she had asked her friends about Keenan, as he gave her a bad feeling, and based on what she knew and was told, if they were looking for a possible suspect, they had one now, and Morgan accused Keenan of being her prime suspect.

And then came the accusing,from those who had no business accusing.

Keenan, of course, did some accusing, Keenan first accused Christina Harris as being the source of his knowledge about the stalking – he also accused her of being the neighborhood gossip (you can read this is the police reports).  Brooke Harris was evidently quick to join in on this one, also accusing her mother, Christina Harris of being the source of all her knowledge of the stalking (this is also in the police reports).

James Harris, Brooke’s father, interestingly enough, told detectives that he had heard all about the stalking, not from Christina (his estranged wife, that lived two houses down from him at the time), but from neighbors (this was in the police reports as well), of course I suppose he could have considered her a neighbor.  James Harris was interviewed by the felony stalking detective (as his daughter Brooke was under 18 at the time and considered a suspect in Morgan’s gang stalking (again, this is in the police reports).  Just to be doubly sure, James questioned a few deputies in the neighborhood because of the stalking, and was filled in by them on the stalking, he even admitted to a detective that he knew, from the deputies, that Keenan was “a person of interest”. This is very important, because on the Dr. Phil show, not sure if it made it on to the episode, or it was cut, but James Harris accused me of not telling him about the stalking, claiming at the time he knew nothing about it.  Quite indignant that I did not tell him about such an important thing, until I reminded him that deputies had surrounded his house one evening, returned to questioned him later, as well as his daughter, and at some point he went silent, and a little pale, if you were standing right next to him.

James Harris also accused Steve and I of being overprotective, claiming he had heard it from someone.  This was just days before Morgan was killed!  And we were overprotective?  I hardly think that is even open for discussion.

James Harris also accused Keenan of being a little possessive with his daughter Brooke, and made the accusation that it was the reason for their breakup (this can be read in the police reports).  Just for the record being overbearing and/or possessiveness is considered a trait of stalkers.  Brooke, for her part, accused another ex-boyfriend of being possessive, and overbearing, she told the detective she wasn’t referring to Keenan, but didn’t say who she was referring to.

Somewhere in here, Christina accused her daughter Brooke of being the source of all her knowledge of the stalking – the stalking that James didn’t know anything about, just to keep the story straight for everyone.  And James also defends Keenan, saying he was a “good kid” and “responsible” and just to keep it straight once again, this was right before Keenan was arrested on a warrant on stolen jewelry charges, and found to have drugs in his trunk prepackaged for sale, and was arrested on a felony charge of possession with intent to distribute.

Before this arrest, Keenan accused a neighbor of being the stalker, of course the person he accused did not match the photos of the stalker (not even close), caught by our surveillance system, nor was he living in the neighborhood during the first month and a half of the stalking, but then Keenan was actually quite a good match for the same photos.  Some are very certain it is Keenan in the photos.  And of course Morgan was followed in her car multiple times and identified Keenan to her felony stalking detective.

And on the morning Morgan was found, dead, a story was shared with me, and then verified, that James Harris accused the police of thinking at one time that he was the stalker, but then added that now they knew it was his daughter Brooke’s ex-boyfriend.  Yes, the same Keenan that was a “good kid” and “responsible”, and the same Keenan that was “a person of interest”, according to Jim and actually a SUSPECT, the PRIME SUSPECT in fact, mentioned as a SUSPECT by the sheriffs far more than the fifty plus times that were at our house and never saw a stalker.  And the same James Harris who would go on the Dr. Phil Show and claim that he had no idea our neighborhood even had a stalker.  Give me a break,  who is accusing who, and why are so many tales being concocted by a certain group of people all trying to point the finger at anyone but themselves?

If it was your daughter that was killed, wouldn’t you get frustrated, and upset with all this at some point?  And by the way, just in case you are wondering, their was no investigation into Morgan’s murder, because remember the forensic pathologist stated she died from natural causes for the first 8 1/2 months after her death, so the sheriff’s did not investigate any murder.  That must have made her murderer happy – don’t you think?

Morgan who can no longer speak for herself, identified her stalker many times.  She stopped and got out of her car while he was following her to absolutely, positively identify that it was Keenan following her in his car.  Morgan would also positively Identify him many times after that in incidents that would cause her to suffer serious emotional distress, the standard to establish stalking guilt here in Colorado.  And in the week before she was to go in for a videotaped interview with the Sheriff’s Detective, actually five days before, Morgan was killed in her room.

I knew so painfully well that many things had to change in Colorado after Morgan’s death.  Through this blog about her stalking I have found that it is not just Colorado that needs help, it is our entire county, and then the world.  Safety for our children is not too much to ask.  Being safe ourselves should not be too much to ask either.  And as Steve and I have found out through endless accusations – truth and honesty for all the victims should also not be too much to ask.

Just how smart is your stalker?

lightmorganThis is far more than just a fair question, it is an assessment that has to be made because your safety will ultimately depend on knowing.  Morgan’s stalker was reputed to have problems at school, and be more of a loner than “a group player”.  These are both common traits of stalkers, even serial killers, and while they are great to know, let’s focus on just “smarts”.

Her stalker had hunting “smarts” a trophy hunter for many years.  Bow hunting deer, a Buck, 5X5 at 288 yards with one shot. Wild boar, Alligator, not a little one, 12 – 15 feet I believe.  Wall to wall in my bedroom, most other bedrooms too, I certainly would not want to tangle with that, Steve either.  This along with many other “kills”.

This hunting “smarts” portends of great concealment skills, the ability to avoid detection, while detecting the prey at the same time.  Cornering it, stalking it, tracking it, anything needed for one clean shot.

Steve knows some avid bow hunters, and they tell stories of remaining motionless for hours as the prey approaches.  Just part of the kill, being able to conceal yourself, and then to remain motionless behind a stand of bushes, or inside a stand of bushes, or even somewhere up in a tree.  Does anyone really wonder how Morgan’s stalker managed to avoid the Sheriffs so completely?  Really?  It was child’s play for a young man with his hunting smarts.

Steve and I had no idea this is what we were dealing with.  That knowledge could have been put to use to protect Morgan, but it was not.  The Sheriffs were at the house a few times to “stake out” Morgan’s stalker.  One of the few times we watched a deputy on a video camera for around a half hour.  Amazing how well the light from a cell phone pierces the night when someone is texting.  And the glow in the dark Sheriff’s logo on the back of the uniform – really is that concealment?  Sincerely I hope the goal was not to hide out in our yard, but then why else would you stand there for a half hour?  I have not found a supplemental report on the “stake out” yet so I guess I have to guess what he was doing out there.  And of course I must also wonder if it was one of the fifty times the Sheriff’s were at our house, and did not see a sign of a stalker.

Morgan’s stalker had high skills of concealment without doubt.  But that was at night.  Morgan saw him, many times, during the day.  Why do those reports seem to not be showing up anywhere?  If it was during the day does that make him not a criminal. a felon,  because that is what seems to have happened, at least so far it has.

Keenan’s boss at work gave him high praise, as an employee and a person.  Mere weeks later he was in cuffs along main street Glenwood Springs after selling a trove of treasure at a “cash for gold store”, turned out to be stolen.  During his arrest for that a trunk of drugs was found in his car, all prepackaged for sale, along with a scale, and other drug paraphernalia.  All this right after high praise from his boss at work, and even though Morgan had told her felony stalking detective that she had heard that her stalker was a drug dealer.  I have been told that his boss is an Uncle, after I included that fact in a post I was corrected that he was an Uncle by marriage.  Whichever, by marriage or not, would this give him incentive to exaggerate for his young nephew?  I also wonder if Mogan’s detective, Detective Glassmire knew all this. Actually I know he did not know about the arrest in Glenwood, because I was the one who told him months after it happened.

Using friends is smart, not just any friends either, friends that will help you out of a scrape with the law, cover for you, that is true criminal friend smarts.  Keenan managed to move in right down the street during the stalking, living with his new girlfriend, Brooke Harris.  She covered for him, wouldn’t let the Sheriffs in to talk with him.  The Deputies heard loud noises in the house, and asked about them at the front door, but Brooke said he was sleeping.  Christine Harris, Brooke’s mom spread rumors around the neighborhood to help cover up Keenan’s actions.  And Jim Harris, Brooke’s dad, admits to knowing Keenan was thought to be the stalker by the Sheriffs and let him stay at his house.  That all exhibits people smarts to me.  How to use them, get them to cover for you, etc.

More than once an investigator we have talked with has told Steve and I that a nineteen year old is not capable of all this, even part of it, there was an adult involved.  Austin Sigg, the prime suspect in the Jessica Ridgeway murder, and dismemberment is reputed to be 17 years old.  A perplexing question, are the investigators who suggest a nineteen year old is not capable of carrying out a murder with the sophistication of Morgan’s murder right or was there an adult involved too?

For Austin Sigg, this is not the only crime he is suspected of.  On May 28, 2012, a 22-year-old woman fought off a stranger who grabbed her from behind, and put a rag over her mouth. She told police the rag smelled of chemicals.  There was NO TEST conducted to see if a rag containing chemicals was placed over Morgan’s mouth on the night she was killed.  Just speaking hypothetically if a seventeen year old is allegedly capable of this wouldn’t the prime suspect in Morgan’s case, a nineteen year old, be capable?  Or would adult help be needed?  I truly wonder.

Another most important fact from the Jessica Ridgeway case is that Austin Sigg is reported to have confessed the crime to his mother, and then she reported the crime to the police – part of the solution, not part of the problem.  Has Keenan said anything to anyone, and are these individuals “clamming up”?  In the world of criminal smarts I would think that nothing would be told to anyone, although I have heard that he has bragged about the crime to others.

But then if his mother did know anything would she report it to the authorities?  She denies he ever had behavioral issues in grade school, the perfect student.  Why does nobody else in his class that I have spoken with agree with that statement?  If she won’t admit that he got into fights in grade school I doubt she is reporting anything.  Keenan plea-bargained his most recent arrest in Glenwood Springs – which, as it has been explained to me, means he admitted to some things, and others were dropped.  He was never “cleared” of anything as his mother would like the world to believe.

Cleared of all charges, never mentioned as a suspect in Sheriff’s reports, never had any problems in grade school, sound asleep – can’t be woken up for a talk with Sheriff’s Deputies.  See how this all works?  Unless you are part of the solution, you are part of the problem.  Very disturbing how easy it is to lie, mothers covering for sons, girlfriends covering for their boyfriends, mother’s of girlfriends cooking up stories, fathers of girlfriends sliping-up and admitting who the stalker was.  Yet nobody ever calls the authorities to report anything.  That is criminal smarts to surround yourself with people like that – don’t you think?

And to ignore that your stalker is smart – that is tombstone mentality – which I am embarrassed to admit that Steve and I had.  Please don’t allow yourselves to underestimate your stalker, his criminal intelligence will be inscribed in everything he does, pay attention to it.

December 1, 2011 AM – Day 122 of Morgan’s stalking – What is up?

From just after midnight the motion light on the corner of the garage (by Morgan’s windows) is almost constantly on.  Once it is triggered it stays on for one minute and then goes off unless it is triggered again.  Heat and motion in combination are the triggers.  It is re-triggered every minute and blinking off for just an instant.  Steve thinks it is malfunctioning at first when he watches the replay of the morning.  Except at 12:47 AM a deputy in his truck is patrolling, not our neighborhood, not even really our house, but specifically Morgan’s side of the house. He drives up the street and stops right between our house and our neighbor Rhonda’s house.  There he uses a searchlight to comb the side yard right outside Morgan’s window.

The truck drives on and a minute later returns from the end of the street toward Brooke Harris’ father and Brooke’s mother’s houses and returns to our house, then stops again. The searchlight is on again and it is quite clearly not aimed at the house or the ground as usual, but it is aimed higher, at the roof – why?  Steve assumes that the light has about a 20’ spread after it covers the distance from the Deputies truck to the house and the lower edge of the light is just hitting the wood trim above Morgan’s window.  From that point to the roof is about 4’ and as the roof climbs from the edge Steve assumes that the center of the light is trained about two feet above the roof.  It does not travel up or down from this elevation, but goes from side to side.  It is immediately obvious to Steve that whoever is aiming that light is looking for something on the roof, and once he points out what he is observing to me I am certain he is correct.  We roll back days watching for anything like this and find nothing similar.  What is going on this particular night that we are not privy to?

The neighborhood is quiet until 1:41 AM when another Deputies truck follows almost the same pattern with one big difference, there is no searchlight turned on this time.  Once the truck passes our driveway on the way out of our street it speeds up.

At 2:31 AM it is almost the exact pattern of the Deputy at 12:47 AM right down to the searchlight.  On replay of the tapes starting with the first deputy, and continuing until a while after this patrol, the motion light on the corner of the garage, which was being triggered constantly had now remained off.

Mark, also our next door neighbor came home at 4:21 AM, he was keeping a close eye on our house whenever he left or came home, and we were very thankful for that.  Our transformer had gone out one night in the middle of all this and was quite a cause for concern.  Mark stopped as he saw something going on just to make sure all was well – friends looking out for other friends is quite priceless at times like this.  Mark left this morning shortly after he came home.

Morning was lighting up as a neighbor left at 7:12 AM and a small flow of neighborhood cars came and went as sunlight took away the last traces of darkness.  Morgan sent a text to Calder at 8:11 AM wondering if he was in school yet.  She ran out to the car in her big fluffy pink robe to grab her ballet things from the back seat and brought them in for a load of wash I was starting.

Morgan and Nathan left at 8:56 AM and she made a deposit at the bank in Carbondale for Steve at 9:08 AM.  She texted her friend with an excuse that she would not be at ballet as she sat in line at the bank.  Steve was beginning to pack everything for the move and Morgan somehow thought it was her fault and insisted on helping him.  I told her she could not think like that and he would have lots of help packing up, but she was after all a Leo and very stubborn.  And it meant a lot to her to help Steve get the move under way.  She had walked out looking like she was ready for a job in the coal mines. but then had a great time talking with her brother at the shop.

Nathan was there to help and was catching up with his friends on Morgan’s phone at the same time.  It’s hard to believe we used to turn the big dial with our fingers on phones that were screwed to the wall growing up, but I had given up long ago trying to explain what that was like to Morgan and her friends.

At 10:36 AM I sent Detective Glassmire a text explaining that, “Calder told Morgan in the morning that he is not comfortable giving her Gracie’s number until he speaks with Gracie tomorrow.”  I made a few calls to find Gracie myself, after all Carbondale is not that big, and for some reason Detective Glassmire also jumped right into this issue of Keenan and a mystery girlfriend named Morgan.

By noon I had a call back from Gracie’s mom and told Morgan.  She was headed home for lunch with Nathan and Steve and seemed very happy to be able to send a text to her friend Calder that problem was solved and he shouldn’t worry about it another second.  They were all home at 12:18 PM and Morgan made lunch for us all.

Click here to read the continuation of December 1, 2011 the 122nd day of Morgan’s stalking https://morgansstalking.com/?p=2497

Today it is December 1, 2012 – That day, 12.1.2011, was just like every other in so many ways.  I found Gracie’s mom and when I called Morgan to tell her that I looked in the phone book, found her and called and spoke with Gracie’s mom and got the number for Gracie, I can still hear Morgan telling me that, ” You rock.” and I can still remember how excited Morgan was that I had gotten a hold of Gracie’s Mom.  That is how Morgan was, always, so happy and so excited over the simplest things.  This day a year ago ‘I rocked’ because I found a name in a phone book, and she spent hours helping her father, because she thought she was inconveniencing us, because we were moving, due to her stalking.  Knowing Morgan as I did makes what happened to her all the more painful.  Not that anyone should ever deserve what has been done to her, and her memory, but of all the people in the world . . .not Morgan.

November 30, 2011 (continued) Day 121 of Morgan’s Stalking (PM) – Was something planned by the stalker(s) for this evening?

As Morgan, Steve, and I are driving to Grand Junction for our annual doctor’s appointments, Morgan received a text from Lorraine at 1:48 PM wondering if she could babysit this afternoon.  Steve dropped Morgan and I off at our doctor’s office at 2:15 PM and went on to his appointment.  Once we were in the waiting area, Morgan answered Lorraine, and said she was sorry, but she was in Grand Junction for the afternoon.

I sat talking with Morgan until 2:50 PM when I then went in for my appointment.  We were there for our annual check ups and it was such a long drive (almost 2 hours) that we always combined our appointments and drove together.  Morgan had been texting her friends, and when I came out after my appt. Morgan had already gone in to see the doctor, so I waited for her to come out.  I had talked to her doctor (who was also my doctor) about the stalking before she saw Morgan, and wanted to be sure she knew about what was going on.

Morgan came out just before 4:00 PM, and I asked about her appointment.  Morgan told me she had a conversation with her doctor about the stalking and how she felt.  Her doctor had wondered if she felt like she needed sleep aids or anti-stress pills, because it sounded like a bad situation.  Morgan told me she had told her doctor that she would rather not take pills, and she was getting through it.

We both sat by the front door and waited for Steve to come back after his appointment.  Morgan texted her friend Calder, and at exactly 4:00 PM Nathan called Morgan, using Calder’s phone, with some news that upset Morgan.  Earlier that day a friend of Calder’s had met Keenan, and heard he was going to Grand Junction and wanted to go with him.  He had told her that he was going with his girlfriend Morgan, and she didn’t want anyone else to go along.  Morgan was visibly shaken, wondering if her stalker had followed us to Grand Junction. We all wondered what was going on, and I called Detective Glassmire to fill him in on this story.

Detective Glassmire wanted Calder’s friend’s number so he could check out the story.  Morgan set about trying to get the number.  Steve picked us up and had a few errands to run before we went to the mall.   Morgan was texting with friends and suddenly asked Steve if it would be OK if she had a knife to keep under her pillow – just in case.  Steve wondered if anything had happened, and we told him about the call from Nathan telling Morgan about Keenan having a girlfriend named Morgan.  Then Morgan heard that Morgan was his girlfriend for the last four years, only he was living with Brooke all summer, and many were insisting they were still together, even though they announced their breakup on Facebook in October. Something was not adding up, and Morgan did not like it at all.

At Steve’s first stop Morgan and I waited in the truck, while Steve went inside.  As part of his purchases he bought a folding knife and drew a happy face on the box and gave it too Morgan when he came back to the truck.  I watched her open the box and smile.  She told her Daddy how he was the best, he told her to be careful with it, and we stopped to have dinner together. Here is a picture Morgan took tonight of the box the knife was in – this is the happy face Steve drew on the box…we found the box, with the knife still in it in her bed the morning we found her body…she never had a chance to take it out of the box in time to protect herself…

At 5:01 PM Morgan texted Calder that Detective Glassmire wanted to talk with his friend, and could he get her the number.

Back at the house at 6:12 PM a car came up our street and turned into Elliott’s driveway.

After dinner we decided to skip the mall, and Christmas shopping, because everyone was so tired, so we headed home instead.

Morgan wrote an answer to her friend on Facebook, “I love life.”

We did not know the following until a year later in 2012 – At  6:40 PM on Facebook, Hannah Hurlocker (Brooke’s friend who is staying at her house now) posts on her wall.  Brooke “I CAN”T STOP THINKING…I JUST CAN”T DO IT”

I sent Detective Glassmire a text to tell him we have not gotten the phone number yet, but there is another person you can talk to that knows all of the parties involved.  He does not call.

We arrived home from Grand Junction at 7:49 PM, unload all of our stuff from the day and at 8:06 PM Steve walks Morgan and Wylah out to the car, and they leave.  Morgan visits, texts, and calls her friends.

We did not know the following until 2012 – At 11:39 PM Brooke answers Hannah on facebook – “me either girl”

And at 11:49 PM Nathan and Morgan drive up.  She has a beautiful new French manicure to show me.  Nathan walks around to her window and checks that side of the house, then grabs his backpack from inside the car and goes inside.  We had a large U shape couch in front of the TV.  Nathan was going to go to sleep on the couch in the office, but instead they watch a movie out on the couch.

Here are the “suspects” hours on the 30th – he was free this evening to stalk…his job was less than a 5 minute drive from our house and he was not working this evening…many years later he still tells people he was always working and on camera when any incidents of stalking occurred…just one of his many lies.

Today it is November 30, 2012 – After Morgan’s death I spoke with her doctor at length about that day and anything she might have said during her appointment that would be helpful.  Her doctor remembered the visit well.  She thought Morgan was “very positive” and “upbeat” and shared with her that the detectives thought they were close to an arrest of her stalker and she was very excited about that.  Morgan did tell her that it was stressful and she did feel tired more often now because of the stalking.  Her doctor agreed with her self assessment and found her to be in excellent health.  I asked the forensic pathologist if he wanted to speak with one of her doctors that had seen her last and just a day and a half before her death.  He said yes, but then never called her.  Morgan’s doctor called him herself, long after the first Postmortem Examination Report was released. They did not agree on a lot of things, but that is how it has been. Morgan’s doctor wrote us a letter explaining that Morgan’s examination was completely normal and they also had a talk and Morgan showed no sign of suicidal ideation. No doctor we have ever spoken with has agreed with the pathologist, Dr. Kurtzman’s conclusions, no other Medical Examiner, and no other Forensic Pathologist – no one, except the sheriffs.

But there is much more to tell about the next two days of Morgan’s life and her death that will shed light on that.   I admit it has been much harder than I imagined it would be to write these last few days, and I have had to walk away many times.

Click here to read about the 122nd day of Morgan’s stalking https://morgansstalking.com/?p=2458

Tessi tired after a long trip to GJ and Wylah as if to say, “It’s OK big girl”