Camera time again for Morgan
Now it’s time to start coming out of the numbing grief that Steve and I have been living through, and doing what our life experiences up to now have taught us – by the end of this summer it will be 2 years since the beginning of the nightmare that we call Morgan’s stalking. It has been extremely challenging for us to do that which we have managed to accomplish over this time – and we are always mindful that Morgan’s challenge was far greater than ours.
What she went through should never have to happen to another person, not any little bit of it. Not the stalking, the terror, the peeping tom, the complete invasion of her life, as well as her murder. What we have all gone through collectively should never have to happen to another family. It quickly expands beyond the immediate family. Our friends and relatives have also felt the impact, and been a part of the search for answers.
All of this we intend to change for the positive, as much as possible. While fear can be so numbing, solutions can be liberating…
Our other kids call us the dynamic duo, but Steve and I know we are not even close. Looking back there was so much more we could have done this past year and a half, but did not for many reasons … number one, no matter how we slice it , we were destroyed over the loss of our youngest child. Other unexpected challenges have reared their head as well, but they are behind us now.
Steve and I have discussed how there were times we felt like we were walking through a tunnel with no feeling, no noise, just walking with no destination. Other times we were so angry, and chose to take it out on each other. Then there were those times, almost every day, that we suddenly found ourselves crying with a pain that was so deep we had never felt anything like it before, a pain that cannot be described. We have lost grandparents, parents, good friends before, but loosing our child as we did was far worse, the undercurrent of complete frustration will become more of a motivating force in the near future I predict.
The good news is thanks to our grief counselor, family, friends and supporters, (so many that we have never even met, but look forward to doing so some day), Steve and I now feel like we have the strength finally to forge forward with Morgan’s investigation… we are armed with far more facts, evidence, and expert opinions that we so sorely lacked at the beginning of our impromptu quest. Where we struggled, and were uncertain it is far more calming to feel that now we know what to do, and we will do it.
We have become more willing to accept other people’s help – up till now I have been very un-trusting of people. And I realize now there are so many wonderful people in the world that want to help, and have very specialized talents in order to help. In doing what we need to get Morgan’s investigation open I truly believe the road map is largely set. And as we are able to document the successes on our journey then others that are going through a similar situation will actually get help. Things will change, respect for the law will change, people’s attitudes will change, and our communities will change…all for the better – actually I should say they will become much safer.
Common-sense precautions need to be put in place if we are to have the safe communities to raise our children that we all want. Steve and I are now embarking on a path of no return. We are now ready to bring everyone involved to task. Stay tuned – I promise to let you in on the ride as we move along.