Morgan tells us in the morning she has decided that she will just send me text messages from her cell phone whenever she hears a noise on the closet window (she is still sleeping in my closet), this way nobody can hear her call out to me in the room.
Morgan’s car is no longer running, so she either takes my car, or the bus, or gets a ride with friends when going places. Morgan goes up to Aspen to drop off something as a favor for me, and also to visit with friends. She sends me a text message at 1:53 pm, “Delivered :)”, I wrote back, “Perfect/thanks!” Then at 7:32 pm I sent her a text that said, “Just passing the airport. Where should we meet??” We are going into Aspen to pick her up and bring her home. Morgan texted back, “I’m at Paul’s. Gonzo’s right next door.” I sent her a text back, “K – be there soon.” Morgan sent back, “K”, then I sent back, “We are here.” “We” meaning Steve and I, so we now all drive back down valley to go home together. We get home by 9:00 pm tonight. Tonight we think we hear noise outside our master bedroom…Steve does a loop around the house with a flashlight, but doesn’t see anything. Steve and I are being very careful not to talk above a whisper, while in the room. Morgan is still sleeping in our closet with her puppy, unless she sleeps at a friend’s house.
Thinking back on what happened last summer I can see there were so many signs, and so many warnings that I was receiving from my intuition – it was trying to tell me there was danger, and what I should do…but I didn’t listen to my intuition – I listened to other people’s advice. Morgan’s dad and I thought we were coming up with “logical” solutions to this problem, and we had no idea how bad this problem really was. Now today, Morgan’s dad, Steve, and I are left with a deep, deep hurt that will never go away. It hurts every day. We try to put on a happy face, and go on with our lives, but when we are alone, or with each other, we break down and weep, and try not to think about how we failed Morgan. We never thought last year, in August of 2011, that in four months our youngest child, Morgan, would be dead because of her stalker. We never thought the justice system could fail our daughter, and us so miserably. Now our life’s mission is clear, get justice for Morgan, raise awareness, and save others. I just wish we could have saved Morgan!
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you couldn’t have known, sweet lady. i am so sorry this has happened to you but please, please do not let the guilt consume you. morgan wouldn’t want you to live with so much pain and guilt over something you never could have imagined happening!
She’s right. You had no idea. I’m so sorry for your loss. I can’t even imagine. Just know that there are so many people praying for you. And praying that we will catch this creep. Sending all my love.
You never failed your daughter. You did everything you could at that exact time to protect her. I am so sorry for your loss, but know that you were wonderful parents to her and I am sure she would have wanted you to know that.
You can’t use what you know now against yourself like this! From what I have read, Morgan was well loved by you and Steve and protected by every means you knew at the time.
You DID NOT FAIL Morgan!!! You did what you thought was best. I am deeply sorry for your loss! She is watching over you!!
You didn’t fail her – there’s no way you could have known. I have my own trauma I play over and over in my brain wondering how I could have seen the signs to make the outcome different. There’s no way…but I understand the feeling.
You are succeeding, though. There are a lot of people reading Morgan’s story right now.
Thank you so much – I am sorry about your trauma…it would be so nice after you are born into this world if it could just be a happy life, but unfortunately evil is out there. I appreciate the understanding…I am not trying to ever beat myself up over this but it rises to the surface every once in a while and I let it out. I do feel like we are succeeding – I just wish it were faster.
I am very sorry for your lose! I don’t think you failed her
My prayers are with you that you will no longer feel guilty. You couldn’t have known this would happen. I’m so sorry. 🙁 Praying that you find out who did this.
I am sorry for your loss, pain and suffering. I want to say you didn’t fail your daughter. My mother couldn’t always protect me, I can’t always protect my son and he won’t be able to always protect his children. There is danger around every corner. She could have passed in a car accident or other ways that can’t be predicted. Blaming yourself is only a road block. Forgive yourself, I believe your daughter would want that. Have you ever thought about seeking a medium? Just an idea.
I was just recently made aware of what happened to you and your family from the Dr. Phil show, and it was heartbreaking. I am truly sorry for the pain you and your family has been going through, and my heart just breaks for the hell Morgan went through. I can’t believe people can be so cruel. I know that we don’t know eachother, but I just wanted to let you know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. I know it doesn’t make things any easier for you, but the way I tend to deal with loved ones that I have lost is tellin myself that it is NOT “Goodbye”, it is “See you late.” Because you will see Morgan again when it is your time. Just remember she is in the most wonderful place now, where there is nothing but happiness and peace… HEAVEN. Jesus is taking very good care of her now, and when it is your time to go, Morgan will be waiting for you with a bi smile on her face, and until then she will always be in your heart. When I get down about the loved ones I have lost, I just remind myself of that, and it seems to make it a little easier for me to get through it. I believe things will work out, and the people who did this will get their punishment… It is all in Gods hands now. Stay Strong, and have Faith… God Bless You and Your Family.
Thank you Janna and everything you said about Morgan we do believe as well…we know she is in a wonderful place now and we will see her again. Take care!