When I started the blog called Morgan’s Stalking I really had no idea what to expect. How could I? It was at the most unimaginable time, trying to express the most unimaginable thing. One thing has not changed – and never will. Morgan is still my little angel. She is, without doubt, all of the good things that have been expressed about her since the beginning of this odyssey.
Now as Morgan’s Stalking becomes Morgan’s Investigation it is an appropriate time to take a quick look back, give thanks, and see what lies before us.
First to the people at WordPress, the software that allowed me to write a blog without even knowing what one was at the start, and without looking like too much of a klutz in the process, my first big THANK YOU. They sent a web page that told about Morgan’s blog. Things like:
- About 55,000 tourists visit Liechtenstein every year. This blog was viewed about 4,000,000 times in 2012. If it were Liechtenstein, it would take about 73 years for that many people to see it. Your blog had 73 times more visits than a small country in Europe!
- In 2012, there were 320 new posts, growing the total archive of this blog to 327 posts. I’m not sure where the other 7 posts came from but you now how computers are, give them a few numbers and . . .
- The most popular post was “One year ago today Morgan’s stalking started”.
- Most visitors came from The United States, with Canada in 2nd & Australia 3rd, counting everyone there were 117 countries in all!
Things that tell me the story of Morgan’s stalking is making a difference in more ways than I could have ever imagined when I began. She is in so many hearts, in so many places, helping so many people – and she has just begun.
All of you reading, and commenting, and sharing. Of course some of you go far beyond that but without naming names I trust that you all know who you are, if not I promise to do a better job this year and THANK YOU ALL.
Our grief counselor who has been such a steadying rock for me all year, our promotional guru who somehow manages to speed up when the time is right, and slow way down when I need it. The very very esteemed medical professionals from coast to coast and right here in Colorado who have volunteered their efforts on Morgan’s behalf. To those who helped fund the Morgan Ingram Scholarship fund. And for all of you who have so generously donated to Morgan Ingram’s Benefit Fund – Thank you all more than the mere words can ever express, please realize you are helping Morgan help the victims of stalking every day.
Now, about stalking, I have said many times in many ways how this word went from meaning nothing to meaning everything. How on one warm calm summer afternoon we were not the victims of stalking and in the next instant we were.
Looking forward this last year I have learned more about stalking than I ever could have known existed. I also have something to add – stalking is not just a crime, it is at the root of almost all crime. You can call it whatever you want, stalking, observing, recon, even call it surveilling, its all the same, it is stalking. I say this for one simple reason. There are laws written against stalking in all states, but laws against observing, or surveilling? Doubtful.
Predators like mountain lions wait and watch undetected in the tree line watching for the perfect moment to strike. What if almost all of the crimes against humanity start with stalking? Burglary, rape, murder, peeping toms, grand theft auto, first the perpetrator stalks the prey, the victim, the house, the auto, the bank, the young child in the playground, then comes the act, the second part of the crime. It is not just a play on words, it is what happens.
The difference is that up until now the crime started with the theft, or the stabbing, or name your poison. But what if we back up a step and take the stalking more seriously? I will believe forever that Morgan’s murder began with her stalking. That if the stalkers were caught, there might not have been a murder. If the criminal surveilling the children in the playground was confronted, maybe the child left there just a few minutes too long would not have disappeared.
A reader of this blog told a story of how her husband confronted a stranger at their son’s game. A stranger nobody recognized standing all alone across the field. Asked him who he was, and that one question made him turn and run. Suspicious, you bet.
I am very mindful of the fact that we can’t live in fear, but we can be aware. Safety is not a given, it comes with requirements. Just look at all of the tragedies of the past year. Maybe it’s just me, but there seems to be more, and far more deadly every day. So many, we as a nation, and a world find ourselves searching for an answer.
Here is my suggestion, start with taking stalking seriously. If our Law Enforcement is hopeless against catching stalkers, what comes next? I’ve lived it and trust me, it’s not good. This year I will focus on Morgan’s investigation from the morning her body was found, and also revisit a few incidents from her stalking that have had a whole lot of new light shined on them.
More truth, won’t that be a bummer for those working so hard to discredit what anyone has to say about Morgan, even though it happens to be true.
Also I am far more committed to Morgan’s legacy. As in Morgan did not commit suicide. She has an ever growing army of professionals all agreeing that that is not what happened here. In case you keep up with the news and have heard about the horrible deaths of those two young children who were left in an idling car for too long, one dying on the scene and the other a short time later. If any of you have wondered, Morgan lived in Colorado, those two children lived in Colorado. Could the same Forensic Pathologist, Dr. Kurtzman, who found Morgan, first having died of natural causes from a medical condition she did not have, with a level of prescription medications she did not even take, registering in the stratosphere. Then months later, as more and more experts sounded alarms at the massive dose she had in her body, he called it insignificant. Then 9 months later he changes his mind and changes her manner of death from natural causes to suicide, based on “the amount consumed is consistent with deliberate intoxication”. So eighteen pills is consistent with a suicide? Eighteen pills of a medication she did not take? With a little cyclobenzaprine, which she never took in her life, thrown is for good measure. When an esteemed Forensic Pharmacologist has advised on Morgan’s case that estimating the number of pills taken is impossible, oh, and he did have far more questions about other aspects of her case, but that will have to wait for just a little bit. So to the point, the same Dr. Kurtzman was the pathologist for those two children. Google it, and decide for yourself.
Day one of Morgan’s investigation is next up.
I love this positive post! Still always thinking of you and your family.
Thanks so much Melissa…it means a lot.
Googled and read, not sure if it is ok to post a link here but for anyone who is interested just google….HEATHER JENSEN
I will go into more detail tomorrow about the connections and what went wrong.
Toni and Steve you are both doing so much for so many people all over the world. Giving them help, love, support, ideas, and the tools to help them get though these crazy events in our lifes.I give you both THANKS for your love for Morgan and for All your love for all mankind you are a ROCK, solid, firm and powerful. You will make the change the world need.
Miss you! And go get a couples massage with Steve it is so nice.
Ada you are so cute! Thank you.
Great post. I am so glad that a Forensic Pharmacologist is interested in learning more about Morgan’s case. God Bless.
All thanks to you know who…:)
I know how so many people can lie. Again I use the word protectionism, it runs rampant in our world. I have been stalked by a wealthy Arab man for at least ten years. My family, friends, employers, strangers and even women’s rights activist have protected the abuser. People lie and once involved in the lie, they believe the lie as truth.
There are only so many people you can really count on in a situation like this. I know from personal experience. People protect abusers, it is a hard and ugly lesson I learned in life. To this day a man is still stalking and terrorizing me and many many people sit and allow it. We live in a very dysfunctional, addictive and unhealthy world. It is the norm, these days.
But when I read the news and see how things finally catch up to people that lie, like Lance Armstrong, Jerry Sandusky, to name a few, I have hope for people like you and your daughter and myself, that someday our abusers and killers will be caught.
Lynn I am so sorry that is happening to you – you are right there are people that protect these predators and those people need to be exposed and punished as well or the pattern will continue.
One of the main things my therapist hammered home to me when I questioned the fact my stalker managed to spin the guilt and blame around on me up against the HR investigation was the point that it is possible he (the stalker) had told himself I was guilty so many times that he had begun to believed he did no wrong. The one thing I have learned about people with sociopathic tendencies is that they are pros at weaving whatever tale fits any given situation. They might have one story for their relative, another for their boss, etc. It is true crazy making. As of two months ago, my stalker bragged that he loved working for his company because they allow people to get away from almost anything — largely a confession of his abuse in my eyes. Yet, he blamed me and labeled me crazy before mutual contacts of ours. It’s them, not the victims, that are to blame. Even if a victim submits to something, it is not of their own body or mind. The stalker has total control and that does not make a victim guilty of anything other than being at the wrong place at the wrong time, victimized by an ill minded person.
The Daily Sentinel – Grand Junction, Colorado:
“District Attorney Peter Hautzinger said his office is still considering what charges, if any, will be filed in the case.
Hautzinger said he couldn’t recall a case over 20 years in Mesa County when the local District Attorney’s Office filed homicide-related charges after a ruling of accidental death by the coroner.”
As if ‘accidental’ negates responsibility?
Absolutely not, but around here it seems you can get away with murder…but maybe not for long.
Hi Toni,
I came to this part of the blog and had to take pause. I haven’t been able to read this yet. I am praying for you, for strength, guidance, wisdom and PEACE. No one should have to endure all that you have gone through.
I would like everyone reading weather they believe in the power of prayer or not to pray that B.H. make a mistake so grave this has to be given another look and the case reopened. I pray the same for all accomplices. Let’s also pray that the sheriff get a new assignment that is such a blessing he can’t possibly turn it down.
I do plan to read the investigation, for now I want to focus on the positive power of prayer and just know there are a bunch of us holding you high before the throne of God. In his love and light Carolyn
We told the story about Morgan’s stalking, and now by telling about Morgan’s investigation I am trying to shine a light on things that should have, and did not happen, in the hope that people learn what to do, if put in the same situation…awareness, and love of humanity is what I believe to be the key to our future.
Thank you so much for your prayers, and we will see if good will triumph over evil in this case. I have promised Morgan I will not let her down…Steve and I, and all those who love and support Morgan will never give up trying to expose the substantial truth yet to be seen by all, as well as saving others from her fate.
Toni, You and your husband are good, good parents who did right (and are continuing to do so) by your daughter. As a mom, I have felt your pain when reading this blog (I must have followed a link, I can’t even remember how I found this but I do know my eyes are throbbing from having read almost the whole thing in 24 hours!). You talk (write) with so much respect towards your husband, and love for your daughter. I’ve shared your blog with a few people, I hope and pray I never need your advice in order to protect my daughters, but knowing it’s there to help anyone else is comforting. I’ll never understand why some people are pure evil, and I’m so sorry you and your family have had to go through this. You’re all in my thoughts and prayers. Morgan will be remembered.
Thank you so much for your kind and loving words. I am happy you found the blog and happy you will remember Morgan <3