Another soul that was way too young to go, has left us with tears in our eyes…

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The picture above is not one of Morgan’s pictures, but I wanted to put on this blog, and I can’t seem to get the copyright label off of it so please disregard that.  Thank you.

Today I am going to blog about something different from what happened to Morgan – this will not be about stalkers, and the dangers they produce, not about how law enforcement has to step up in some areas, and take stalking seriously.  No, unfortunately today I need to talk about losing a loved one, and how devastating it is for a family when it is a young person, whose life was just beginning on their own.

Last night we received a call about a 20-year-old boy named Adam, Morgan’s cousin.  We have known Adam since he was just a young child.  I remember his adorable freckled face, his exuberance, his constant questions, his sweetness, the years he was acting in movies, and felt so good to be making a paycheck, when he wasn’t even 16 years old yet.  I remember a lot of things about Adam, but the one thing I remember the most was how much we all loved him.

Crying for hours after I received the call I started to question, not out loud, but inside of me, why did this have to happen, and all of a sudden I felt an answer….I felt the same amazing warmth hit me from Morgan, that I have felt in the past, when crying and internally asking a question, and that instantly stopped my crying,  I knew she told me, “Adam is ok mom he is with me, and I will take care of him until his family sees him again someday.”  That helped me smile, because I do believe it to be true.  Morgan always took everyone under her wing, so to speak, and last night I believe she took Adam under her real wing to show him the immense love that is his forever now.

I’m sorry if this sounds a little corny – everyone believes something different, but for me this is the truth that I believe.  When I was 17 I went to the hospital for a procedure, and did not know the dye they would be injecting into me would cause an allergic reaction, and I would suddenly stop breathing after intense pain.  I felt the flurry of activity around me, but I was in extreme pain, and then all of a sudden I was hovering above my body in the little hospital room, in a bright light that felt like love, the intense pain was completely gone, while looking down at the frantic doctors, and nurses huddling over my body, trying to revive me.  I very clearly heard what they were saying, I saw what they were doing, everything was intensified, and I thought this was very odd, my back was up against the ceiling of the room, but I didn’t feel the ceiling against my back I just “knew” it was there, and I could see my body just lying on the table below not moving, , and the only thing I was thinking was, “Why are you doing this?”  I like it like this, because I was happy, I felt a bright white light, and love all around me, and there was no more pain in my body, “stop trying to revive me – is what I wanted to say!”  But they were successful in their efforts (I guess it wasn’t my time to go) and I was immediately thrust back into my body, and all the horrible pain came back.

The reason for telling you my near death story is to show you why I believe that Adam is with Morgan – after my experience of almost passing over at age 17 I never feared death after that.  I knew that at the time of death the pain stops, and you are wrapped in love and a brightness that makes you feel happy.  We will all miss you Adam, so very much – until we see you again remember we all think of you with the love you shared with us all!

 

 

6 thoughts on “Another soul that was way too young to go, has left us with tears in our eyes…

  1. Oh Toni, I’m extremely sorry to hear about Adam’s passing. Yes, it’s extra hard to deal with when such a young person dies. It seems so unfair.
    I’m wishing you much love and comfort, and the strength to deal with this loss.

    Avril

  2. Thanks so much Avril for your kind words. We are dealing with it much better today – I really do feel that he is now safe in heaven with Morgan – my heart just really breaks for his mother, and younger sister, as I know what it feels like now to lose a child, and how hurtful, and confusing it is to lose a sibling.

  3. That is beautifully written, Mrs. Ingram! <3 I'm sorry for your loss of your nephew… May he rest in peace, I'm sure it is lovely to be with his cousin again… Thank you for sharing about your near-death experience, it was very moving… I can feel the love through your words. 😀 ~Love & Light!~

    • Lisa Marie thank you again for your kind words. I had hoped by sharing my experience people could understand a little about why I feel the way I do. We miss Adam and my heart breaks for his mother.

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