{"id":8763,"date":"2017-11-30T17:18:25","date_gmt":"2017-11-30T23:18:25","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/morgansstalking.com\/?p=8763"},"modified":"2018-02-12T21:55:04","modified_gmt":"2018-02-13T03:55:04","slug":"to-the-moon-back","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/morgansstalking.com\/?p=8763","title":{"rendered":"To The Moon &#038; Back&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" data-attachment-id=\"9233\" data-permalink=\"https:\/\/morgansstalking.com\/?attachment_id=9233\" data-orig-file=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/morgansstalking.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/11\/love-you-to-the-moon-and-back.jpg?fit=500%2C500&amp;ssl=1\" data-orig-size=\"500,500\" data-comments-opened=\"1\" data-image-title=\"love-you-to-the-moon-and-back\" data-image-description=\"\" data-image-caption=\"\" data-large-file=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/morgansstalking.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/11\/love-you-to-the-moon-and-back.jpg?fit=500%2C500&amp;ssl=1\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-9233\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/morgansstalking.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/11\/love-you-to-the-moon-and-back.jpg?resize=500%2C500&#038;ssl=1\" alt=\"\" width=\"500\" height=\"500\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/morgansstalking.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/11\/love-you-to-the-moon-and-back.jpg?w=500&amp;ssl=1 500w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/morgansstalking.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/11\/love-you-to-the-moon-and-back.jpg?resize=150%2C150&amp;ssl=1 150w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/morgansstalking.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/11\/love-you-to-the-moon-and-back.jpg?resize=300%2C300&amp;ssl=1 300w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 500px) 100vw, 500px\" \/><\/p>\n<p>I always told Morgan, &#8220;<strong><span style=\"color: #800000;\">I Love Y<\/span><span style=\"color: #800000;\">ou To The Moon and Back<\/span><\/strong>,&#8221; and now, through my tears, I tell her, &#8220;<strong><span style=\"color: #800000;\">I Miss You To The Moon and Back.&#8221;<\/span><\/strong><\/p>\n<p>I know she wouldn&#8217;t want me to cry like this, but I also know that she understands. \u00a0An invisible bond exists between a mother and her child &#8211; it forms as they grow inside, before they are even born into this world. \u00a0It is a bond that even death can not sever.<\/p>\n<p>Ever since Morgan was a toddler, her and I had a little secret between us&#8230;whenever we were holding hands we would &#8220;squeeze&#8221; the others hand to say, &#8220;I love you.&#8221; \u00a0No one else would know, and we would always smile after the other one &#8220;squeezed.&#8221; \u00a0I feel so blessed when I remember that even during her last 4 months, even during the horrific, life-altering stalking, we still had moments when we &#8220;squeezed&#8221; each others hands&#8230;I just wish we could still do it. \u00a0<span style=\"color: #800000;\">Now there are times when I feel her close by, and I squeeze the air with my hand in the hope that she still feels it.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" data-attachment-id=\"8811\" data-permalink=\"https:\/\/morgansstalking.com\/?attachment_id=8811\" data-orig-file=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/morgansstalking.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/11\/3709-holding-hands-on-beach.220w.tn_.png?fit=220%2C264&amp;ssl=1\" data-orig-size=\"220,264\" data-comments-opened=\"1\" data-image-title=\"3709-holding hands on beach.220w.tn\" data-image-description=\"\" data-image-caption=\"\" data-large-file=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/morgansstalking.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/11\/3709-holding-hands-on-beach.220w.tn_.png?fit=220%2C264&amp;ssl=1\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-8811 aligncenter\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/morgansstalking.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/11\/3709-holding-hands-on-beach.220w.tn_.png?resize=220%2C264&#038;ssl=1\" alt=\"\" width=\"220\" height=\"264\" \/><\/p>\n<p>It is now Thursday, November 30th &#8211; and I am dreading this coming Saturday, as it will be 6 years since Morgan was taken from us. \u00a0Yes, taken from us at the hands of another. \u00a0One day, when those who were involved in taking her life, are held accountable, we will finally feel like justice was served, but there will never be closure &#8211; how could there be? \u00a0There can never be closure when such a violent, senseless act has stolen the life of your child. \u00a0Morgan will never get to finish her last 2 years of college, never be able to go to law school, never have a career, or a wedding, or children. \u00a0She will never get to go on vacations to Lithuania and Italy, as she planned. \u00a0<span style=\"color: #800000;\">She was teaching herself Lithuanian, and would call me &#8220;Motina.&#8221;<\/span> \u00a0On her cell phone I was listed as Motina, that was how it showed up when I called, or sent her a text message. \u00a0It means mother, and love in Lithuanian&#8230;the sadness that I feel is so overwhelming today, it is hard to put into words, so now, I will stop trying.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I always told Morgan, &#8220;I Love You To The Moon and Back,&#8221; and now, through my tears, I tell her, &#8220;I Miss You To The Moon and Back.&#8221; I know she wouldn&#8217;t want me to cry like this, but I &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/morgansstalking.com\/?p=8763\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":88894,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[7,39],"tags":[1332,1414,1409,1410,1411,1412,1181,1257,1413],"class_list":["post-8763","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-morgan-ingram","category-tonis-reflections","tag-justice4morgan","tag-loveneverends","tag-loveyoutothemoonandback","tag-missyoutothemoonandback","tag-motinalove","tag-squeezemyhand","tag-stalkedandmurdered","tag-stalkedandmurderedincolorado","tag-takenfromthisworld"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p2wvjS-2hl","jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":6989,"url":"https:\/\/morgansstalking.com\/?p=6989","url_meta":{"origin":8763,"position":0},"title":"Full Moon Tonight&#8230;","author":"Toni Ingram","date":"March 23, 2016","format":false,"excerpt":"","rel":"","context":"In &quot;Morgan's Investigation&quot;","block_context":{"text":"Morgan's Investigation","link":"https:\/\/morgansstalking.com\/?cat=490"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/morgansstalking.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/Full-moon-3.23.16-2.jpg?resize=350%2C200&ssl=1","width":350,"height":200,"srcset":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/morgansstalking.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/Full-moon-3.23.16-2.jpg?resize=350%2C200&ssl=1 1x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/morgansstalking.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/Full-moon-3.23.16-2.jpg?resize=525%2C300&ssl=1 1.5x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/morgansstalking.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/Full-moon-3.23.16-2.jpg?resize=700%2C400&ssl=1 2x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/morgansstalking.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/Full-moon-3.23.16-2.jpg?resize=1050%2C600&ssl=1 3x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/morgansstalking.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/Full-moon-3.23.16-2.jpg?resize=1400%2C800&ssl=1 4x"},"classes":[]},{"id":6888,"url":"https:\/\/morgansstalking.com\/?p=6888","url_meta":{"origin":8763,"position":1},"title":"Love to my angel on Valentine&#8217;s Day&#8230;","author":"Toni Ingram","date":"February 14, 2016","format":false,"excerpt":"I woke up this morning with an ache in my heart. \u00a0I cried and I sobbed because I miss you so much Morgan. \u00a0And then I heard the birds singing and felt the cool breeze in the air...I know you are still here. \u00a0I feel your love all around me\u2026","rel":"","context":"In &quot;Morgan's Investigation&quot;","block_context":{"text":"Morgan's Investigation","link":"https:\/\/morgansstalking.com\/?cat=490"},"img":{"alt_text":"if tears could build a stairway","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/morgansstalking.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/02\/if-tears-could-build-a-stairway-300x300.jpg?resize=350%2C200&ssl=1","width":350,"height":200},"classes":[]},{"id":5838,"url":"https:\/\/morgansstalking.com\/?p=5838","url_meta":{"origin":8763,"position":2},"title":"The Blue Moon&#8230;in Aquarius","author":"Toni Ingram","date":"August 2, 2015","format":false,"excerpt":"Last nights rare\u00a0blue moon was beautiful, powerful, and extremely bright. \u00a0The appearance of this full moon on July 31st was the 2nd in the same month, the first one was on July 1st. \u00a0This rare event has not happened since 2012. \u00a0Every month has a full moon, but because the\u2026","rel":"","context":"In &quot;Morgan's Investigation&quot;","block_context":{"text":"Morgan's Investigation","link":"https:\/\/morgansstalking.com\/?cat=490"},"img":{"alt_text":"Blue Moon 7.31.2015png","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/morgansstalking.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/08\/Blue-Moon-7.31.2015png-225x300.png?resize=350%2C200&ssl=1","width":350,"height":200},"classes":[]},{"id":11380,"url":"https:\/\/morgansstalking.com\/?p=11380","url_meta":{"origin":8763,"position":3},"title":"Super Flower Blood Moon Eclipse This Morning","author":"Toni Ingram","date":"May 26, 2021","format":false,"excerpt":"Up this morning at 4:00 am to watch the Super Flower Blood Moon eclipse over the ocean...it was worth it. 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