{"id":2791,"date":"2013-01-30T19:32:33","date_gmt":"2013-01-31T02:32:33","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/morgansstalking.com\/?p=2791"},"modified":"2013-02-03T19:16:04","modified_gmt":"2013-02-04T02:16:04","slug":"december-9-12-2011-day-10-13-of-morgans-investigation-parents-packing-up-a-room","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/morgansstalking.com\/?p=2791","title":{"rendered":"December 9 – 12, 2011 \u2013 Day 8 – 11 of Morgan\u2019s Investigation \u2013 parents packing up a room"},"content":{"rendered":"
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The last of our guests – they have left us and being alone in the house with Steve knowing there will never be a Morgan again was quite a moment.\u00a0 It was everything all at once and it was an emptiness that I can\u2019t begin to describe.<\/p>\n

We have no choice but to forge on, and as her room is almost finished so I tackle what is left.\u00a0 Her bed is first, blankets, sheets, pillows, pillowcases.\u00a0 That none of this was ever collected has been universally frowned upon since her death.\u00a0 But at that time we still believed.\u00a0 No sooner had I shaken the top blanket then out popped what was perhaps the last little gift from her father.<\/p>\n

Two days before that fateful Friday we were all together in Grand Junction and near the end of the trip she blurted out, \u201ccan I have a knife?\u201d\u00a0 In the context of the moment that she was feeling very threatened and wanted something for self-defense was without doubt, nonetheless I asked her why and she immediately shot back \u201cwhy do you think?\u201d And Steve said OK.<\/p>\n

He wasn\u2019t sure where to go in Grand Junction, and places were closing, but he was confident we could find the perfect one at the surplus store by our house.\u00a0 Quite by chance at one of his last supply house stops Morgan and I waited in the truck while he went in.\u00a0 Turns out they had a knife display and of what was left Steve picked more of a cute knife than \u201cthe\u201d knife and when he came back out he had drawn a happy face on the box and slipped it to Morgan without a word.<\/p>\n

We were backing out of the parking lot as she opened this box and I watched her face light up – she told Steve \u201cOh I love you daddy, you are the best!\u201d\u00a0 He promised they would get another one this week, but at least she had this for a back up.\u00a0 And here was the box still on her bed, and sure enough as I picked it up the knife was still inside.\u00a0 I showed it to Steve and we just starred for a moment.<\/p>\n

There was a hope we would finish the room 100% that evening, but that was not to be.\u00a0 I did find her diary, her last diary that she had written in, and I sat down with it and read the last entries.\u00a0 She had shown a few of them to me already, and they were concerning her future in college.\u00a0 GPA\u2019s she needed and LSAT scores she would have to achieve, and many other goal setting or acknowledging events yet to come for her, along with a list of make-up she needed to get. \u00a0I stopped on a page we had discussed together not long before her death.\u00a0 For an instant she was still standing there talking it over with me and then it was silent.<\/p>\n

There would be so many memories of Morgan, we both knew this by now and had been counseled about it by so many.\u00a0 Steve was certain that once he got to the point he could recite that he was so blessed, and proud to have had Morgan in his life for twenty years, without breaking into tears he will have reached a point of healing.\u00a0 He hasn\u2019t quite gotten there yet. \u00a0We both wanted her to still be here – maybe away at college – maybe on some grand adventure, but always thinking she would return for a visit at least.<\/p>\n

I stood up and announced I had found her last diary, and the one before it.\u00a0 As far as I knew now of the evidence collected by the Sheriffs there was only Morgan\u2019s electronic items, which had all been returned, and a brown diary that was still somewhere. \u00a0I now wondered what diary they did have?\u00a0 Was it an old one?\u00a0 Was it even Morgan\u2019s at all?\u00a0 Or was it someone else\u2019s?\u00a0 A friend of hers had called wondering if they could come by to collect their diary, as they had left it in Morgan\u2019s room.<\/p>\n

I had no frame of reference for any of this, but from where I sat things did not seem to have gone well at all.\u00a0 Both Steve and I wanted to think the best, but we had our questions and once again we decided to wait until the all important \u201ctox results\u201d came back.<\/p>\n

Today is January 30, 2013<\/strong> \u2013 <\/b>There is a certain level of disorganization that has crept into my life, and I am now working to return it back to order.\u00a0 For some reason the emails and tips I have been sorting, and placing into meaningful folders have had a very common theme.\u00a0 Belief<\/b>, for lack of a better term – in so many cases the victim hadn’t actually been believed that they really had a stalker. \u00a0People thought it was just their imagination. \u00a0This is a very frightening thing…knowing there is someone out there watching and following you, that might do you harm, and people close to you or law enforcement don’t believe you – that is just incomprehensible! \u00a0That is when they knew it was not going to go away as easily as it had began.<\/p>\n

Take stalking seriously<\/strong> was a tag line I had thought of long ago, and today it is very appropriate.\u00a0 Victims tell someone first, perhaps a close friend, a family member, or another trusted individual.\u00a0 And so surprisingly from the emails I receive there is instant disheartenment because they were not believed or not taken seriously.<\/p>\n

Remember Morgan at the beginning she was so busy trying to convince us that it was nothing as she told us about her strange noises – this I now know after reading so many stories about stalking is a normal reaction.\u00a0 And we were no better, so quick to dismiss that first sign of trouble right along with her. \u00a0No one wants to believe this could happen to them.<\/p>\n

I have re-read many stories today from victims sharing a story of a stalker they suffered through, and so many remembered how disappointed they were that a parent, or boyfriend didn\u2019t even believe anything was happening at first.\u00a0 I\u2019m sure there are girlfriends out there who are guilty as well, I just didn\u2019t have an email about one.<\/p>\n

When you have a stalker there are so many things that are very important to be considered and act on.\u00a0 The very last of those should be the need to convince those around you that it is happening.<\/p>\n

There are truths that begin to make sense as you ponder them.\u00a0 Such as:<\/p>\n