Where I can find you
\nYou had left to forever softly
\nI panicked. desperately, grabbing,
\nAt the space where you used to be
\nBut how could you be where you were
\nWhen you became something I couldn\u2019t see
\nThere appeared a nothingness there
\nA lightness where you used to be cuddled
\nThe space vast and unshared
\nDeep and wide an explored depth
\nThe edges not definite, now fading and bare
\nI thought you had left that place forever
\nIt hurts still like an untended wound, tender and familiar
\nI didn\u2019t know that each day I had to remember
\nRecall every talk, every laugh and smile
\nYou were my twin, my friend and defender
\nBut I found you
\nSomewhere between the blankets
\nIn the middle of the night
\nSomewhere between the sleep and memory
\nWhere we would be up for what seemed like forever
\nBetween the sunset and the sunrise
\nSomewhere between the music and the reveries
\nYou were never of THIS place
\nI realize that now
\nthat your beauty was somewhere between
\nThat’s where I find you now
\nYou are the place,
\nThe happy in the summer
\nThe adventure, excitement, and breath of days
\nYou can’t be the same when you become something else
\nYou made the place
\nI can visit whenever I let go of what you were
\nWhen I stop holding so tightly to what isn’t there
\nthat my hands go numb
\nand heart is clenched in hopes that I will wake
\nYou made the place I can go…
\nyou showed it to me
\nYou left me here
\nI thought to be alone
\nI visit the place everyday if I can let go
\nAnd take on what is now, where you are
\nYour crooked smile
\nYour overwhelming laugh
\nyou friendly guidance,
\nhowever harsh or sweet
\nYou’re the warmth next to me
\nKeeping the nightmares at bay
\nBringing the unexpected setting me free
\nSo each night as I bid the sun good bye I lay,
\nEach breath brings the chance
\nTo be with you in another way
\n\u00b7 May 29<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Where I can find you You had left to forever softly I panicked. desperately, grabbing, At the space where you used to be But how could you be where you were When you became something I couldn\u2019t see There appeared … Continue reading