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Please light a candle for Morgan on Tuesday, August 16th

With a heavy heart I would like to share with you all that Morgan would have been 25 years old this coming Tuesday, August 16th.  As the days grow closer to her birthday, my heart feels more and more pain.  The tears keep coming, even though I try to hold them back.  And it’s not just the tears…the pain I feel is creating a huge anger from within.  I know anger is normal in this case.  Anger for the petty jealous people that targeted Morgan and our family.  Anger for the sick delusional subhumans that were involved in her gang stalking and murder.  Anger towards the Garfield County Sheriff’s detective, who is now the Garfield County Coroner since the last election as he was the one that decided to go along to get along by covering up Morgan’s murder.  He had a choice, just as all of us do in life, and he chose the dark side.  And I could go on and on…but what good will that do?

I decided a long time ago, right after Morgan’s murder, that I could either become invisible, like a ghost, or suck it up and solve Morgan’s case – – get her the justice that she deserves – – and make sure these people can no longer hurt others.  When I decided that was the path I was going to take I knew I could not accomplish it through anger, I knew it would need to be done through love, because love is the most powerful thing in the world.  And the most magical part of this journey is that I have been blessed with a partner that believes in the same path.  My husband, Steve, Morgan’s daddy is in extreme pain.  As a father, he would like nothing more than to lash out, but he hasn’t because he wants justice for his baby and he knows the only way to bring down all involved is to stay resolute, compile and have rock hard evidence, and make sure when the case goes down, the guilty parties pay.

Recently, some supporters of justice for Morgan posted on following on Facebook:

The Morgan Ingram Light-A-Candle event is only 4 days away. Please light a candle to remember Morgan and celebrate her life. Also, pray that justice happens this year for what happened to her. ‪#‎MorganIngram‬ ‪#‎JusticeforMorgan‬‪#‎RIPMorgan‬ ‪#‎Murder‬ ‪#‎Stalking‬ ‪#‎Homicide‬ ‪#‎Death‬ ‪#‎August16‬

I am very grateful to everyone that still supports Justice for Morgan after all these years.  I think this is a beautiful idea – – so many of you have done this in the past and sent pictures of your burning candles in tribute to Morgan on that day.  It meant a lot to me because I know with every candle lit and every intention sent, the power of so many can shift the energy and send out the much needed love that can conquer evil.  Light is really the only thing that can dispell the darkness.  Thanking you all in advance for burning a candle for Morgan this coming Tuesday on her 25th birthday.  I know she will feel the love and warm intentions that are being sent out on her behalf.

Much love & light to you all,

Toni (Always Morgan’s Mom)

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Chilling Memories…

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Have you ever walked into a hardware store – something like a Home Depot or Lowes, and as you walk down one of their aisles a motion detector alarm sounds?  I know they use them to get people’s attention so they might become interested in purchasing them. But if you have ever survived a stalking, or if you are ever in the midst of an ongoing stalking, and you had or have motion detector alarms you understand the sudden momentary fear your body feels when you hear that sound.  It still happens…you can’t forget it.

Small things like this bring back chilling memories.  When we first installed the motion detectors and motion lights we would get a surge of adrenaline when we heard them go off.  Our protection protocol would kick in, and Steve would run out the door of the house armed with whatever we he had decided to use at the time, and I would run to the cameras to see if I could “see” the stalker(s) on the camera.  Then if these sounds came in conjunction with tapping or banging on our windows, or actually seeing someone through the window, or even images on the camera, we would call it in to the sheriffs.  Then ~ 30 to 45 minutes later patrol officers would show up to search and interview us…the lack of sleep was taking it’s toll.

After Morgan’s murder whenever I would hear the sound of those alarms I would instinctively react to them. I am flooded with all the same horrible feelings of anger, worry, fear, and foreboding…the same feelings that I felt during Morgan’s stalking – all those feelings come flooding back.  I hope someday I no longer instinctively react to this sound, but for now I try to avoid places where I may hear it.

I know this is just one small little thing…hearing a motion alarm, but all the small little things that have no meaning to others that have never been a victim of stalking are really big things to a victim of stalking.

Stalking is serious.  Stalking takes an emotional toll on it’s victims.  Still, stalking is the most under-reported crime currently, just one-third to one-half of stalking cases are reported to authorities because victims are often afraid of angering their stalkers and making the situation worse – I know this was a fear that both Morgan and I both expressed at varying times during her stalking. Victims also tend to believe that the police are unable to help, because an estimated 40 percent of all restraining orders are violated and this is something that so many victims have written in to tell me.

Stalking: A Handbook for Vicitms by Emily Spence-Diehl offers a lot of good information for victims.

 

 

A Body of Clues…

I know it’s hard to understand sometimes when I try to explain things…if you haven’t been through something like this (and I hope you never will) then it would be hard to understand. Someone said to me of course Morgan’s body was moved, you and Steve moved her from her bed to the floor to continue doing CPR when the 911 operator instructed you to do so. And yes, that is true, we did move her from her bed to the floor when instructed, but that is not what I meant when I said on a previous post that Morgan’s body was moved Postmortem.

Steve & I both found her in her bed, lying on her right side at the very edge of her bed.  She was curled up with her comforter pulled up over her body, almost to the top of her shoulder. When Steve pulled off her comforter we could see her knees pulled up towards her stomach with her legs bent, arms bent at the elbows, with one arm lifted slightly above her body, her hands clenched and eyes wide open. This is exactly what we told the first responders, as well as the sheriffs. We gave them exact details about how we found her because they asked us, but on their reports they only wrote that we found her “curled up.”

When Morgan did not respond Steve pulled off the comforter and pulled her on to her back, on the bed, to perform CPR. Her knees stayed bent up towards the ceiling and her feet were on the bed, her arms stayed bent with her clenched hands pointing at the ceiling. When we put her on the floor her legs were pulled straight, but her arms stayed bent. When we received the Postmortem Report we read for the very first time all the false reporting and we were taken aback. We were still in shock, but I was able to ask the detective about all these false statements, like the sentence that said we found her face down on the bed…a complete lie. The detective said he would speak with the coroner about the corrections…he never did, and yes, I do have documentation to prove this. Years later after we sent many certified requests and letters that remained unanswered we finally saw exactly WHY they wrote in the report that she was found face down, because she did die face down – her lividity showed that she did not die on her side like we found her, and not on her back where the first responders and sheriffs saw her when they arrived. Her lividity showed (confirmed by other forensic medical examiners and investigators) that she died face down, in a contorted position, as if she was left to die bent over a chair! Then after lividity had set in her body was moved and staged in bed with her comforter pulled over her to make it look like she died in her sleep and that is how we found her…disgusting! And how in the world could they even say she died face down in her bed when they could all see at the crime scene that her arms were bent at the elbows with her clenched hands facing up to the ceiling? You can’t die face down flat on a bed with your arms and legs bent like that…and they knew it that very morning, they knew her body had been moved AFTER she was already dead and that is why, in my opinion, they never answered any of our requests for photos, notes, or anything requested. The crime scene photos we received years later showed without a doubt EXACTLY what the first responders, sheriffs and deputy coroner (who we later found out was not a deputy coroner) saw that very morning. Now people say why would so many people cover up something like this…and the answer is that all it takes is one person in a position of authority to instruct others to do what they want them to do, and sadly as happens too often they go ahead and leave things out of reports and sometimes falsify their reports, because they are instructed to do so. I am sure it eats at some of them, and for others maybe not so much. Who knows what they were told that would have convinced them to go along to get along – I do know there has been at least one officer that wasn’t happy about what was done that morning. The truth is there for anyone that wants to see it – my job is not to force people to believe the truth, my job is to just state the facts and allow people that really want to understand what happened, to read the facts, and then make up their own minds.

I wish all those things they show on the crime TV shows were really true. I so desperately wanted to believe someone was investigating our daughter’s suspicious death, but it did not happen. There was NO investigation, ever…the false determination of natural causes conveniently kept there from being an investigation for the first 8 months and the the 2nd false determination of suicide 8 months later made sure not only that there was no investigation, but was equally successful in keeping it from ever being a cold case that another agency could investigate at a later time. It even kept other non-profit, professional organizations that review cold cases, like AISOCC (The American Investigative Society of Cold Cases) and The Vidocq Society, just a couple of examples, from reviewing the evidence and giving their professional opinion at no charge. These organizations can only review and investigate cases when asked to do so by law enforcement, and only law enforcement.

In Morgan’s case the sheriffs have refused for over 4 years now to allow any other agency to review or help with an investigation into her case. One more thing for everyone out there that might believe that lack of funding is one of the problems with law enforcement not wanting to investigate…sorry, not true. These organizations do not charge. They have state-of-the-art equipment and some of the best retired criminal investigators in the nation that assist with cases when asked by LE, so lack of funds is not a reason why the sheriffs would not want them involved. Let me know if you can think of a good reason they would not want to bring them in to assist.

So to the sad misinformed protector of murderers that wrote in to tell me tonight to say, “If you and Steve moved her to do CPR – YOU moved her post mortem before crime scene photographer was even there. How stupid do you think we are? You have written about this before. YOU and STEVE moved her after death!!! Did you forget?”

All I can say to this “Anonymous” person (these people are always anonymous) is that I hope I cleared things up for you in this post…but again, I doubt it because people like you more often than not do not really want to know the truth.

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Breaking News Out of Carbondale, CO

moonThis is the latest out of Carbondale, CO, the place where our youngest daughter Morgan was stalked & murdered. I applaud CBS4’s Matt Kroschel for reporting about these recent attacks on the Rio Grande Trail. In the past there have been crimes that have not been reported & when the news is repressed (for whatever reason) these predators can continue hurting innocent victims and destroying lives.  http://denver.cbslocal.com/2016/07/26/police-search-for-suspects-after-2-women-attacked-on-trails/

At the time both Morgan’s stalking & murder were kept out of the news – Carbondale being a small town had people shocked when they found out what had really happened. Morgan was stalked & terrorized for 4 months before she was murdered during an active investigation into her felony stalking. Other women, in the subdivision right across the road from us, told us of similar stalking incidents that they had reported to the sheriffs over the 2 years before Morgan’s stalking began, separate stalking incidents that continued in the area up until 2 weeks before Morgan’s stalking started…and yes, the sheriffs knew.  Two different sheriffs patrol officers told us about some of the incidents right in the beginning of Morgan’s stalking.  Other victims told us about similar tapping on their windows and the description of the person wearing a dark colored hoodie in their yard that ran when spotted.  But was any of this in the news in order to warn other potential victims – NO!  Do crimes stop just because people are not informed about what is going on in their communities?  NO!  If anything it just gets worse because these predators are emboldened by the lack of news or a lack of any investigation into their crimes.

In this video you can see the Carbondale police speaking about the recent attacks.  Important to note the police are only allowed to respond to things within city limits, and obviously these 2 attacks that they are talking about happened within the Carbondale city limits.  Our daughter Morgan’s stalking & murder happened just outside the city limits, even though we lived in Carbondale at the time, our home was just outside city limits.  So the first time we called 911 we were told the Garfield County sheriffs were the only law enforcement that could come out to investigate…not the Carbondale police.

In this video you can see the bike path Morgan used to take to and from town when she wanted to get exercise and be in nature…after her stalking started she had to stop riding her bike to and from town because of the isolation on that path & the danger of an attack from her stalker. This was just another thing she loved that had been taken away from her once she became a target.  I really want people to understand what victims of stalking, or even young women like these recent victims of a sexual predator, get taken away from them…their freedom and their lives as they knew them.  For these victims they can never feel safe again, they become hyper-vigilant…as so they should.  They go out and buy tasers, pepper spray, anything to protect themselves.  Is this the kind of world we want our children to live in?  We can’t completely rid the world of evil and yes, we need to teach our children how to protect themselves, BUT we also need the media to report crimes so people can be aware of what is happening.  We can’t live with our heads buried in the sand…that will not make us safer.

I also want to say I applaud the Carbondale police for speaking out about these recent attacks – an officer can be seen on this video WARNING people and making suggestions to try to keep people safe…that is what law enforcement should do.  They can’t be everywhere all the time – that is why community policing is so very important.  USDOJ.gov on Community Policing

In our daughter’s case her stalking was not shared with the community by the sheriffs – they even asked us not to talk to the neighbors about it.  Patrol officers that were involved in the beginning were reassigned to other areas and we had to explain to new officers about what had happened over, and over again.  Then when our daughter turned up dead the cover up started.  Why not tell people the truth?  Why not warn communities when there is danger so they can help protect their families and help law enforcement get the bad guys?  The media is a very powerful tool by which law enforcement can communicate with the community.

Let us all share information early & often in the hope of raising awareness and making this a safer place for our family, friends and communities.  Truth, transparency, ethics and humanity are the things I pray for in the people that are in positions of power. Share what you have learned with others, by doing so it raises awareness, and who knows…someday it may even save someone’s life.